I just took a week vacation in Phoenix. I'm thinking of moving there for no reason other than I hate St Louis, I'm tired of living with my parents and I want a change and Phoenix seems nice enough. Me and my brother will be living together which is good since after not getting along for almost our entire lives we are beginning to actually really get along. However, at the moment work is insane. In addition to typical Holiday activity at work my place of employment just entered Chapter 11 which has very little actual effect on me but is still not a good sign at all. In addition the location that I used to work at is closing and I have to work there next week with a bunch of people I used to work with and like who are about to lose their jobs while I get to keep mine out of dumb luck. Its all around a bad situation. But at least I still have a job for now and I know what I want to do next and nothing keeps me going better than a vague assertion that the future is a brighter place.
I work in 3 hours and can't fall asleep so I'm updating. Insomnia totally blows by the way. It's like having this problem that most people think is your fault. Everyone one is all like oh this always works for me when I have problems sleeping. It's not gonna work for me. I know why I don't sleep well. It's because I'm very stressed out about tons of things at once and when I get in bed my mind just whirls around thinking about them. The only thing that works is waiting until I'm so tired I can barely move and then finally my mind shuts down and I can sleep. It didn't happen tonight though and its happening later and later recently. Then again having to work at 8:30 am doesn't help the situation either. Well thats my bout of complaining for now.
This is my black friday update. I was gonna do it yesterday but I was too tired to think real well. For anyone who doesn't know I work at the mall and as such Black Friday is the suck. Tons of people wanting great deals and being generally annoying. Of course I had to work and work a decently long shift right in the middle of the day so I was not looking forward to it. Fortunately I got to avoid most of the work. First I got to fix a broken register and flex my geek muscles. I took it totally apart and changed out the one broken fuse that was preventing it from working and put it all back together. Wasn't really all that hard but since no one I work with is tech savvy they were all suitably impressed. Plus I prefer machines to humans quite often (especially the kind of humans who shop at malls). By the time I was done with that things were a bit slower but I did some good selling and yeah basically actually had a decent Black Friday. Today was pretty good until I was closing and some idiot woman was taking forever to check out after we were already closed but hadn't pulled the gate yet. Then a bunch of equipment broke but whatever I can deal with that later. Tomorrow in fact.
Things are not what they seem. All my constants have become variables. I don't understand at all where I am in my life anymore. I feel like I've been in a state of flux for so long that I no longer even desire stability I just want a taste of it. I don't even feel like I can put my whole life in order anymore I just want to have any aspect of it come together so I can claim an anchor again. I have no idea where to start.
Cecilia's set was fabulous and inspired me to finally add my favorite SGs to the top here. I just love me some curves and she has some killer one no doubt. Other than that I've just been really busy with work since one of the other managers is on vacation and we're starting to gear up for the holidays so sorry for the lack of comments.
Hmm lets see. Been pretty busy with work and starting my new business. Other than that I've been hitting it off surprisingly well with a few of my ex's all of whom currently live in the New England area. I'm contemplating a whirlwind tour of the area seeing them all but I'm unsure how it would play out if they knew I wasn't visiting just them. None of them seem to want anything serious but just want to hook up again. I'd love to work that out but I have a feeling it might end badly.
My girlfriend leaves for grad school on Tuesday but I won't be able to see her anymore after tomorrow. It was a lot of fun but I'm kinda looking forward to being single. Her leaving was a convient excuse to not deal with the issues we had in our relationship so by leaving she has resolved those issues therefore reducing the complexity of my life right now. Other than that I'm working a lot and getting addicted to Kingdom of Loathing.
