I love my new van even though I had to jump through a ton of hoops to get it. My stress level is still through the roof though. Lots of things that shouldn't be bothering me as much as they are. I'm trying to find a way to relieve some of that stress. I'm constantly on edge and ready to either cry or go off on somebody. My mind is dragging my in a million different directions and at this point I can't keep up. Doesn't help that I haven't been sleeping well.So my friends what do you do when you are so tired and stressed you can't stand yourself or much of anything else?

So yesterday I found myself a new van. This one is an '02 Toyota Sienna fully loaded and I love it. I wangted to get away from the mommy mobile but I took it out for a test drive and it was in my price range ( the only decent car I could find too) and fell in love with it. Its definately a huge step up from my pos pontiac transport .
I've been geeking out lately on Star Trek Voyager ( thank you Netflix!!) but we are on the last 2 episodes and I'm kinda sad it's over . Thankfully netflix is adding DS9 to streaming in October.

Well the engine seized in my van and it costs more to fix it than i paid for the damn thing in the first place. Once again my mother is a miracle worker because b4 i could even begin to ask for help (which at this poit i wouldn't have anyways) she convinced my dad to lend me $2500 on top of the $1000 she already gave me to fix the van.Thids weekend I'm going to be looking around for a new car. Maybe now I can get some with decent gas mileage instead of the gas pig my van was. The mechanic is putting lubricant on the engine in hopes of getting it to loosen so it will work temporarly at least.Its a long shot but hopefully it will work. I feel lucky things could be so much worse.

On the upside I got my new lens finally and I am in love with it. The colors are more vibrant than in my kit lens (which saves me time is ps). I feel like I robbed the store for the price I paid for it versus what I'm getting out of it. I'll have some pics up from it soon

This has not been my best week. We had to get rid of our cats because they were making us all sick then among lots of little things my van decided to die.I bought it used a year ago and for that year it ran great. A few months ago it started falling apart. We thought the starter was gone ( thats what all evidence indicated) so we scraped our savings for a new one. After we put the new one in it ran long enough for my brother to take a 5 min trip to the store and died at the store >.<. We have no idea what the issue is so we are getting it towed to the shop to see if they can figure it out. We tested the computer and its not that thankfully. My mother told me yesterday she was sending money to get it fxed. I'm lucky to have a mom like her. She's helped me out so many times before I could even have a chance to ask for help.

I just bought my first new lens today! I'm very excited about it and cannot wait until it arrives! The lens is a Minolta 35-105mm F3.5-5.6. I read the reviews on it and alot of people said they reallyed liked it for both portraits and macro photography so I'm really looking forward to using it. It may not be much but its a start!

This was outside not to long ago. The sky was unbelievable. the sky went from blue with some clouds into a redish color with a gorgeous double rainbow. The second one was too dim to catch with the camera though.

I'm feeling much better this week. My allergies have been bothering me abit but besides that I feel like myself again. I get way to hard on myself sometimes and I really need to stop second guessing myself and my abilities. I know realizing my dreams will take me time but I'm making plans and setting goals for myself. As long as I stick with it and keep working hard I'll make it. Thank you for the kind words of support my friends I <3 you guys.

I haven't been feeling like myself lately and not sure why. I'm lacking in motivation to do much of anything but I am restless as hell. There is no reason for it either. Things in my life are going better than they have for awhile. I've got a great job that I love and family craziness has gone down abit. I keep trying to remind myself of what I have compared to this time a year ago. I'm trying to find time in my day to get back into yoga. It was very relaxing and really helped my stress level go down. I miss it and am kicking myself for stopping.