Update Update Update!!
Don't ask what that was for because I really don't have too much to report. I feel sorry for anyone who actually reads these things of mine. So much negativity in them and all, so I guess something I will need to work on.
Long distance relationships suck so much ass. I almost lasted a month so that is a very small victory. Basically, I learned that you need to have similar communication styles in order for these things to work out. Since the majority of my communication style is grunts, I probably should never try to date over an hour away again. I also learned that smart, feminist, German women are NOT something I like haha. So that is a load of stress off of me. So off to bigger and better things..... I hope not bigger actually, well bigger boobs wouldn't be too bad. All in all though it means I'm single *wink wink*
Psych testing is something that is very interesting. I had a battery of tests done from drawing pictures, to a verbal general knowledge test, to an anger test. This guy got my personality based off of like three sketches he made me do. Little drawings like a house, a tree, and a person. Crazy crap. So the test results show that I'm an anger person (Duh) but the non violent type. I yell a lot apparently. I'm in the 89% of intelligence in people my age. So I'm smarter than a lot of people. Ego Boost! Also I have Major Depressive Disorder and Major Dysthemic Disorder. The second one basically means I don't get excited about much. I see things as good not great. So I see happy pills in my future.
Also, got blood work and std testing done recently. I'm STD free! Also I'm in good health. The doctor says I eat too much fatty food and my vitamin D is low. Apparently, I don't get enough sun. I'm a ginger and the sun is evil. So more pills to get that right.
St. Patty's day weekend wasn't the best one in history for me. I went Friday to Richmond to see my cousin who is looking more and more like a pin up girl.
I''d suggest this site to her, but not someone I want to see naked. Anyways we hung out and got messed up together. Was a fun night all in all. Saturday I went and saw my other cousin and her kid who I finally got to meet. Think he is a little cuter than I am. 
On Saturday evening came home to go to the bar crawl nearby. Met up with some friends and hung out there. Too many people and beer prices were stupid high. Had a few drinks and went home.
So that's the update!
Don't ask what that was for because I really don't have too much to report. I feel sorry for anyone who actually reads these things of mine. So much negativity in them and all, so I guess something I will need to work on.
Long distance relationships suck so much ass. I almost lasted a month so that is a very small victory. Basically, I learned that you need to have similar communication styles in order for these things to work out. Since the majority of my communication style is grunts, I probably should never try to date over an hour away again. I also learned that smart, feminist, German women are NOT something I like haha. So that is a load of stress off of me. So off to bigger and better things..... I hope not bigger actually, well bigger boobs wouldn't be too bad. All in all though it means I'm single *wink wink*
Psych testing is something that is very interesting. I had a battery of tests done from drawing pictures, to a verbal general knowledge test, to an anger test. This guy got my personality based off of like three sketches he made me do. Little drawings like a house, a tree, and a person. Crazy crap. So the test results show that I'm an anger person (Duh) but the non violent type. I yell a lot apparently. I'm in the 89% of intelligence in people my age. So I'm smarter than a lot of people. Ego Boost! Also I have Major Depressive Disorder and Major Dysthemic Disorder. The second one basically means I don't get excited about much. I see things as good not great. So I see happy pills in my future.
Also, got blood work and std testing done recently. I'm STD free! Also I'm in good health. The doctor says I eat too much fatty food and my vitamin D is low. Apparently, I don't get enough sun. I'm a ginger and the sun is evil. So more pills to get that right.
St. Patty's day weekend wasn't the best one in history for me. I went Friday to Richmond to see my cousin who is looking more and more like a pin up girl.
I''d suggest this site to her, but not someone I want to see naked. Anyways we hung out and got messed up together. Was a fun night all in all. Saturday I went and saw my other cousin and her kid who I finally got to meet. Think he is a little cuter than I am. On Saturday evening came home to go to the bar crawl nearby. Met up with some friends and hung out there. Too many people and beer prices were stupid high. Had a few drinks and went home. So that's the update!
So haven't post anything in awhile. Feels like time to update.
Started a long distance relationship recently. Finding out a lot of weaknesses of mine because of it. We fight a lot because we have very two different ways of communicating. Its getting better recently though. Like all things you want, gotta keep putting work into it. Would be better if I weren't working 70 weeks. Anyways, get to see her in two weeks for a little bit of a St. Pattys day celebration. Can't wait.
Trying to make plans for the summer time. One of the perks I have with my job is June/July off. So I'm thinking New York if my friend can free up living space. Also need to travel to see friends I haven't seen in a long while. So Michigan, Kentucky, Arkansas, and maybe Texas. A lot of things need to happen first, like me getting through this school year.
Things are still weird after my sister's death. I'm angry and I don't know why. Its like my anger is on the subconscious level and just seeping out of me. Doctor no longer thinks I have ADD but depression. Have to go for a full psych screen soon so we stop guessing and get the right meds. I keep telling him to prescribe me a six pack of beer a day and life will be better. He says no, but I just don't think he understand the Irish. But started me on a low level anti depressant to see if that helps. Couldn't hurt so why not.
Other than that same old same old for me. Need to make more time for this and other things.
Started a long distance relationship recently. Finding out a lot of weaknesses of mine because of it. We fight a lot because we have very two different ways of communicating. Its getting better recently though. Like all things you want, gotta keep putting work into it. Would be better if I weren't working 70 weeks. Anyways, get to see her in two weeks for a little bit of a St. Pattys day celebration. Can't wait.
Trying to make plans for the summer time. One of the perks I have with my job is June/July off. So I'm thinking New York if my friend can free up living space. Also need to travel to see friends I haven't seen in a long while. So Michigan, Kentucky, Arkansas, and maybe Texas. A lot of things need to happen first, like me getting through this school year.
Things are still weird after my sister's death. I'm angry and I don't know why. Its like my anger is on the subconscious level and just seeping out of me. Doctor no longer thinks I have ADD but depression. Have to go for a full psych screen soon so we stop guessing and get the right meds. I keep telling him to prescribe me a six pack of beer a day and life will be better. He says no, but I just don't think he understand the Irish. But started me on a low level anti depressant to see if that helps. Couldn't hurt so why not.
Other than that same old same old for me. Need to make more time for this and other things.
So really not a lot to post about over the past few days. I've been generally pissy since probably Sunday. No and its not over the SuperBowl. Just hate when a girl says they want to hang out and then the day before they are supposed to come down for a few days they disappear from life. Seriously, just tell me that your not coming.
Please the job is a pain in the butt. Dealing with stupid college students that think they deserve everything for nothing and that have no concept of real life pisses me off. Who thinks its a good idea to have a snowball fight around brand new cars, throw ice at windows, or punch holes in walls just because you are bored. I'm gonna punch them all in the throat.....
On a brighter note, a friends sister and I started talking and I finally found someone to have a good conversation with. Only took a PhD student in Clinical Psychology for that to happen.
Please the job is a pain in the butt. Dealing with stupid college students that think they deserve everything for nothing and that have no concept of real life pisses me off. Who thinks its a good idea to have a snowball fight around brand new cars, throw ice at windows, or punch holes in walls just because you are bored. I'm gonna punch them all in the throat.....
On a brighter note, a friends sister and I started talking and I finally found someone to have a good conversation with. Only took a PhD student in Clinical Psychology for that to happen.
Okay, planning my next tat and would like input, thoughts, hell I'd even settle for a good designer.
Okay, so I got this tattoo years ago and the guy who did it was didn't do a very good job. The lines aren't straight, the shading is wrong, the letters suck, etc.
It isn't very pretty and not really what I wanted. I finally found an artist I like and trust to fix it. So what I'm thinking is to make it more of a Celtic Cross with a red ring of knot work. Fill the three "arms in with black. Extend the barbs on the arms and add a red outside blade I suppose is the best way to put it. Make a dagger/cross hybrid which was my original idea. The top arm has to be redone and I don't think the knot work in the middle can be fixed.
Also, thinking of covering the letters with this image.
That would cover them and give the tat more of the vibe I'm looking for. Have a nice black outline with a red tint shading to it.
Just some ideas. Have an appointment two months out so I have some time to work on it. Ideas, thoughts, concept art?
Okay, so I got this tattoo years ago and the guy who did it was didn't do a very good job. The lines aren't straight, the shading is wrong, the letters suck, etc.
It isn't very pretty and not really what I wanted. I finally found an artist I like and trust to fix it. So what I'm thinking is to make it more of a Celtic Cross with a red ring of knot work. Fill the three "arms in with black. Extend the barbs on the arms and add a red outside blade I suppose is the best way to put it. Make a dagger/cross hybrid which was my original idea. The top arm has to be redone and I don't think the knot work in the middle can be fixed.
Also, thinking of covering the letters with this image.
That would cover them and give the tat more of the vibe I'm looking for. Have a nice black outline with a red tint shading to it.
Just some ideas. Have an appointment two months out so I have some time to work on it. Ideas, thoughts, concept art?
So I'm in the bit of a sharing mood today which is very unusual.
On January 22nd, 2013 I lost my sister to cancer. She was 30 years old and left behind an 11 year old son. She had been fighting this disease for the past year and a half. It started when they found the cancer in her cervix. This completely broke her world apart, not because she had cancer, but they told her she could no longer be a mother. The one thing she wanted in this world was to be a mother again, and she was a great mother.
So she went through chemo and radiation. Things were looking up and we were even given the cancer free status. Then, in October she went to a chiropractor to have a realignment on her neck and spine. Two days later she was in the hospital with a lot of pain in her neck. The doctors told her that she had a broken vertebra. So they put her in the hospital to have neck surgery.
After the surgery we sat down with the surgeon who told us the reason my sister's neck broken was because a cancer tumor had be growing inside the vertebra and had eaten away at the bone. Talk about hard news to take. I don't remember the rest of that night due to the amount of Jack that was in my system. My sister stayed positive and complained about not being able to bungee jump and ride roller coasters now. So in a neck brace my sister still lived her life and went out. After a PET scan there didn't seem to be cancer anywhere else except the neck.
Right before Christmas she was having chest pain and went to the ER. They found numerous blood clots in her lungs and what they thought might be more cancer. So at this point she was strong enough to have radiation treatments. During Christmas I took my sister to her treatments and hung out with my nephew realizing this might be our last one together. It was both amazing and tragic at the same time. Shortly, afterwards she was back in the hospital with a lot of pain. In a matter of a week she went from there's a chance of recovery to finding cancer in almost every bone in her body. In several days the doctors said she was too weak for treatment and she was put on hospice.
The last time I saw my sister she wasn't who she was supposed to be. She was heavily medicated and incoherent most of the time. The last things she said to me was, "You're going to be an only child now." (We had a brother murdered in 2005) I told her not to worry about that but to worry about finding our brother and giving him a hug for us. She knew it was her time and she was ready for it. I thankfully said my final goodbye to her the next day. I told her she had proven her strength and it was okay for her to let go. She squeezed my hand and I knew it got through.
Two days later I received that call that she had passed away. She was the strongest person I've ever met and was so full of life. I have resolved myself to live my life and accomplish the things she wanted to do, which let me tell you is a long list.
RIP Amy "Sug" Adkins
7/7/1982 - 1/22/2013
Gone; never forgetten
On January 22nd, 2013 I lost my sister to cancer. She was 30 years old and left behind an 11 year old son. She had been fighting this disease for the past year and a half. It started when they found the cancer in her cervix. This completely broke her world apart, not because she had cancer, but they told her she could no longer be a mother. The one thing she wanted in this world was to be a mother again, and she was a great mother.
So she went through chemo and radiation. Things were looking up and we were even given the cancer free status. Then, in October she went to a chiropractor to have a realignment on her neck and spine. Two days later she was in the hospital with a lot of pain in her neck. The doctors told her that she had a broken vertebra. So they put her in the hospital to have neck surgery.
After the surgery we sat down with the surgeon who told us the reason my sister's neck broken was because a cancer tumor had be growing inside the vertebra and had eaten away at the bone. Talk about hard news to take. I don't remember the rest of that night due to the amount of Jack that was in my system. My sister stayed positive and complained about not being able to bungee jump and ride roller coasters now. So in a neck brace my sister still lived her life and went out. After a PET scan there didn't seem to be cancer anywhere else except the neck.
Right before Christmas she was having chest pain and went to the ER. They found numerous blood clots in her lungs and what they thought might be more cancer. So at this point she was strong enough to have radiation treatments. During Christmas I took my sister to her treatments and hung out with my nephew realizing this might be our last one together. It was both amazing and tragic at the same time. Shortly, afterwards she was back in the hospital with a lot of pain. In a matter of a week she went from there's a chance of recovery to finding cancer in almost every bone in her body. In several days the doctors said she was too weak for treatment and she was put on hospice.
The last time I saw my sister she wasn't who she was supposed to be. She was heavily medicated and incoherent most of the time. The last things she said to me was, "You're going to be an only child now." (We had a brother murdered in 2005) I told her not to worry about that but to worry about finding our brother and giving him a hug for us. She knew it was her time and she was ready for it. I thankfully said my final goodbye to her the next day. I told her she had proven her strength and it was okay for her to let go. She squeezed my hand and I knew it got through.
Two days later I received that call that she had passed away. She was the strongest person I've ever met and was so full of life. I have resolved myself to live my life and accomplish the things she wanted to do, which let me tell you is a long list.
RIP Amy "Sug" Adkins
7/7/1982 - 1/22/2013
Gone; never forgetten
I'm not big into the blogging but I will share things I feel are funny/important
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