so, how long is too long for sex? i'm taking this medication that pretty much makes me last forever and my wife typically ends up giving up way before I'm even close to finishing. any thoughts? comments?

It's cold in sonora.

i just got a new Droid Incredible. Great phone. It is the only way i can get pics on this site. My other camera's pic files are too large. Anyway, just to test it out i sent a pic of my doggie, Loki to my camera phone pics folder. Check him out. He's even cuter than me

also adding pics of tattos previously not shown... who knows what i'll be putting up with the new phone. very easy to do.

i need to work from home more often. it really helps break up the week and i can mess around on SG more. with all the complaining i do about my job, i sure do have some pretty kewl perks.

-bleh

i've been tobacco free for over a month now. the cravings are gone and so are the dreams. i'm sure i'll have more sporadicly, but it's nice to know i'm through the worst.
i had my check up with my heart doctor. i guess i have a genetic defect where normal cholestoral will still clog my arteries, so i have to take lipitor. the good news is i can still drink a little. the better news is that i'm tipsy after 1 beer now. the bad news is it makes my minor headache into a decent headache. it's worth it to me though.
my bank account is way happier now too. no more buying cigarettes everyday, or a case of beer every week. it's gunna get pissed again when i have to start buying the lipitor. like a regular drug dealer, the doc gave me my first month's dose for free. yay synchronisity!
-bleh

i haven't had a cigarette since 9/19/10. the first couple of days were pretty rough and i was a total dick to everyone. i wasn't using anything to help me quit like gum or patches or anything. i just stopped. i've been having issues with my heart and my dad just had a heart attack. he's only 54. that kind of motivated me to stop.
i have been seeing a cardiologist a lot the last couple of months. the doctor finally came to a diagnosis/treatment plan. i have minor blockages causing angina. so now i have to take these little, time-released ntiro pills. i'm sure you've heard of people who carry around nitro for their heart in case they have an episode. well, this pill is basically that, but constantly running through my blood. i took my first one today. it has given me a mild headache that will not go away and a sense of being disconnected. the side effects should go away in a week or two, but i'm still expected to work and function like normal while i adjust.
i also have to stop drinking now because of the pill. not the best time for that in my opinion, but at least i can still smoke my little green friend. the pharmacist said i can have a glass of wine every once and a while. the internet says that alcohol will just intensify the side effects of the drug. i know that it will also help to destroy my liver very quickly. you can get a new liver if you need one can't you? i brew my own beer and can't drink it now. WTF?
so i'm a bit down right now. i've always enjoyed being intoxicated and very much preferred it to reality. not becaues i can't handle reality, but because reality just kind of sucks. reality is that we are in a recession. reality is that we are engaged in several different combat missions spread out accross the world. reality is that there are hundreds of wars going on elsewhere. reality is that my condo is only worth 25% of what i bought it for. reality is my dog is dying. reality is i will never get a record deal. ad infinitum.
who wants to live in reality?
bleh

i just got back from camping. we went to lake amador. it was over 100 degrees every day. we were a little miserable during the day to say the least. the lake water was very warm, so it was pretty nice to swim. i got burnt pretty bad on my neck after the first day and hung in the shadows for most of the rest of the trip. i fished a bit, but didn't really catch anything. how can you not really catch anything you ask? well, while fishing, my dad and i noticed a fish acting pretty weird swimming on it's side, then going back down, then resurfacing, swimming on it's side, repeat. so he decides that we should get in the boat and try to net it. it looked like it was about to die anyway because it was a trout and the water was like 80 degrees and they can't survive in those temps. (it was a planter lake, trout aren't native there.) so i'm driving the boat using the trolling motor and he's hangin over the front with a net, cussing directions out at me. after a few minutes of chasing the fish around, he said fuck it, let's go back to shore. so i turned the boat to head back to where we were beaching it and the fish resurfaced right in front of us and swam directly into the net. my father-in-law cooked and ate it that night. it was a 3 lb trout. i tried a piece and it tasted how i remember trout tasting. i'm not much of a fish eater. i just enjoy going out into nature. if i catch anything, which is rare, i throw it back. if it's too injured, i'll bring it to work and give it to a lady i know who likes fish. that was definately the strangest catch i've ever had though. it was kind of sporting too cuz that fish gave us a run for our money.
bleh

it's been four months since i last updated. holidays are hectic. the company i work for just laid off like 300 employees. fortunately, my wife and i were not laid off. five people in my department were, and one from hers. that sort of thing kind of makes one step back and look at what's going on in their life. i have an overblown mortgage, car payment, loan payment and a credit card payment with a cherry on top. if we were to get laid off, we'd definately loose the condo. of course we weren't eligible for any of the home buyers stimulus, or the loan modifications going around. that kind of makes me mad. we are actually making our payments, like responsible adults and they bail out all those assholes who couldn't manage their own banks, and the idiots who bought homes, but couldn't afford them. it's like the government is rewarding stupidity. like attracts like i suppose.
the band is supposed to try out a keyboard player later today. hopefully they set it up. i think it will be fun to jam with a keyboard player. i've never done it before. most bass players are affraid of keyboard players. especially their left hand. (plays the lower notes) i'm not though. my bass style is sort of like Matt Freeman's (Rancid's bass player) he was the reason i decided to play the bass, so i try to blend his style with my own. i'm more scared for the keyboard player. i'm probably going to step all over him. i play more notes in one song than most bassists play on a whole album. and, since we've lost our drummer and our lead guitarist had to start playing the drums, i've had to step it up more and become sort of a lead bass player. our vocalist/rythem guitar player isn't very confident about her guitar skills, and is affraid to try to take a solo, or play anthing other than rythem chords. so i've modified some of my bass lines to include what our lead guitarist used to play, to supplement the rythem guitar. plus i have to take the lead parts. i'm not that great of a lead though. i can play scales like nobody's buisiness, but they never sound like leads, just kind of like fast basslines. i suppose that's all a lead is anyway-a scale with some bends and hammer-ons. hopefully the keyboard player can start doing some leads and i can tone it down a bit. i'm not as animated when i have to play as hard as i have been.
so my neck is still kicking my ass. i had to call in sick on friday because i woke up at 3 am with a neck/head ache and wasn't able to fall asleep again until about 10 minutes before my alarm went off. i woke up again at 7 am this morning with another screaming neck/headache. this time, it was the other side of my neck. i've been using heating pads and ib profin, but that's not working so well. i took a left over tramadol from when i had a tooth pulled yesterday, and that worked for a while, but when it started wearing off, i started to get all itchy like a heroin addict. i've always been mildly allergic to pain meds. they'll kill the pain, but i always get all itchy, which is almost worst. the wife wants me to see the doctor, but i'm sure all he's going to do is perscribe me some muscle relaxers, take some x-rays, (even though it's a muscle problem) and tell me nothing is wrong like every other time i've complained of neck pain. then they'll say i'm not sitting right at my computer or some crap. i don't like rx drugs, so i don't want to see the doc. if only weed relaxed muscles. i'd be set.
k, so noone's going to read this cuz it's way too long. if you do, sorry about the ranting, but i enjoy journalling my strife. it's therepuedic.
-bleh

so i have the whole week off work, but i didn't want to. our ceo had this idea to pad our company's earnings by forcing all non-customer critical employees to take this week off, using our own saved pto. i know some people might be saying, "oh, yeah, i feel sorry for you, you get a whole week off work asshole", but i earned that damned pto and wanted to take it when i felt like it. now i'm home, by myself with my wife at work all week. we work at the same company, but she is customer critical. so now we have to take seperate vacations and i get to do nothing. i'm a bit pissed off about it, but i plan to make the most of it. i have a bunch of school reading i need to catch up on and i can get some honey dos done around the house.

on another note, my band lost our drummer. we were forced to fire him, but he more or less quit. he bailed on our halloween show at the last minute, (like 3 hours before we were supposed to be there) and he missed the next practice without so much as a phone call. so, our lead guitar player has moved to the drums temporarily. we have a show this friday in sutter creek ca at the annex. we've been practicing as a power trio for the past three weeks and sound surprisingly good. we are actually thinking of making this our permanent line up with maybe the addition of a keyboard player. we'll see what happens. we're rather stoaked though.

-b

as i'm typing this, three fingers and a tumb are numb on my right hand. i've seen two doctors so far and both are saying it's probably carpal tunnel syndrom. one thinks i might have arthritis in my right wrist that is triggering the carpal tunnel. if that's true, then they'll just treat it with steroids. i'm kind of hoping that is the solution. otherwise it's surgery. if i have to have surgery, i won't be able to use my hand from 2 to 6 weeks, depending on how the procedure goes. that would be bad. i work at a computer all day, so i'd have to go out on disability plus, i wouldn't be ble to play my bass. needless to say, i'm rather bumbed about the situation.

on a lighter note, for some reason, i decided to cook my wife dinner last night. she loves to cook and does it all the time. i always feel guilty for not cooking, though i do the dishes most of the time. anyway, i got some hamberger out and went online to search for hamberger recipes. i didn't just want to make the typical hamberger helper. i came accross an enchelada casarole dish so i decided to try to make it. it came out great. i'm not that great of a cook, but i sure can follow directions. a couple of friends came over, which was perfect because the dish served eight. eveyone really liked it. then our friend who used to be a bartender made us some margaritas that tasted like raspberry sherbert. it tasted like candy, so i switched to beer. the lady's got pretty fucked up. it was a good evening.
-b