Expect a "set" from me soon, likely.

I don't know what I'm gonna do about this job thing. I applied to eight places yesterday, I have two more to do online, and four paper applications to turn in... I REALLY need one.

I applied at Petco. I'd love to work there and wash doggies... Online applications suck though. I wonder if they even look at them.

The weather is nice now but the temperature is going to drop tomorrow, which makes me sad.

EDIT: Got my grades back. All A's except for one B+. It's maddening because in the class I got a B+, I had a 93... And then I got a 78 on the exam. The class average was a 73, which is crazy! If that had stayed an A I would have had straight A's! So, instead my GPA is exactly the same as last semester, 3.37. Grr.

So the job hunting begins.

I've applied a few places... Everywhere wants online. Do they really look at those?

I only have a few places where I have to go in... Kohl's, Jamba Juice, and Nordstrom in the suburbs.

Then there are a few downtown.

I'm nervous about actually going in.

Soooo now I am home.

I need to make a resume today and then look for jobs this week. I'm pretty nervous. I don't really even know how to go about this.

Okay, I'm rededicating myself to no more meat. PERIOD. I'm sticking to my guns. It's gonna suck as far as being home over the summer but since I'm cooking for myself in the dorm next semester, I'll be fine then.

I also need to exercise. Stupid college. I only gained like... Maybe four or five pounds, but I don't like it. It's not so much fat as flabbiness. I need tone, yo.

Blahhhh I just had to renew my account. SO BROKE.

It's sad. I'm pretty much addicted to SG. I just hope my parents don't ask about the charge on my card since we have a joint account. :X

So I'm pumped. Decided on going for a Carson Ellis design for my tattoo and it's gonna be a color tattoo, my first.

I got 150 bucks back for selling back my books and I should get another 30 at least when I sell the rest of them, so that's going towards it.

Here's the design:



I'm getting it on the left side of my ribs and I think I'm going to have the artist change it a bit. I'm going to have the top flower curve around (upwards) my boob and then I may have them change it so another part goes horizontally across the curve as well. Still deciding though.

Probably going to make the flowers purpley-turquoise.

I'd like to go to everyone's favorite Chicago artist but I think as I'll probably only have 300 at most, I'm going to go to Su Houston or Ben Wah at Deluxe. Also still deciding about that. Might try a new place.

So, uh, kind of nervous. Most difficult final is in a half hour.

I studied. I made a study guide out of all of my notes and I've gone over that and made notecards for a few of the terms.

BUT I don't feel well prepared. I got a 95 on the midterm... I currently have a 92 in the class and I really need to keep this at an A but as this final is 25 percent of my grade, I don't feel like I'm going to keep it.

If I get the "worst" grades I think I can get, I'll end up with a 3.6 GPA. Knocking me down a full point. Blah. I don't feel like that's good enough.

I'm getting antsy being in my room all day. I don't do study groups because I never feel like I get anything out of them. My roommate has been gone the past few days since noon (until like 1am) to do study groups and the only other girl I hang out with stays in her room to study. So I've been by myself and it's kind of boring.

Tough week. I hope it thunderstorms tonight. That helps me sleep.

I blog too much for my own good.

Oh well. Finished one final. Three to go. Hardest being on Thursday.

I'm not doing too hot emotionally. I hate having things pile up on top of each other. Instead of thinking about that, I'm thinking about summer.

I really want some plum ice cream from this matcha cafe in a Japanese grocery store I go to. I'll go there as soon as I am done with school.

I need time to relax. As much as it's going to suck to have to rush out and look for jobs essentially two days after having moved back home, it needs to be done.

I'll try to relax as much as possible.

Mkay, since this is my last week of class (aka finals), I figured I'd reflect on this year, being my first year of college.

There are a few things I would have done differently.

1.) Not lived with my current roommate. She made it harder to meet people. And she smells.
2.) Lived in Simpson Hall. Regis is too quiet because of its private bathrooms. I didn't meet anyone on my floor except for two girls.
3.) My RA sucked. She didn't get us together to do anything so none of us ever met anyone. At my school, the friends you make are the friends on your floor. Other than that most people know very few people outside their floor. Because of that I don't really know many people.
4.) I would have hung out with a group of people who asked me to. I didn't because I was tired and my roommate wouldn't come. If I had gone I probably would be friends with those people. I regret that now.
5.) I should have kept up with going to College Dems, even if it was disorganized.
6.) I should have joined more groups.


So, the year was alright. It was just boring. I have a hard time meeting people on my own so I regret that I didn't have the chances a lot of other people did because of my RA, etc. I hope that next year the first weeks of school will be the same so that I can meet more people. I also plan on joining more clubs.

I'm not sure how things will work out with my new roommate. We're on completely opposite schedules. She stays up until 4 am and naps during the day. I like to sleep around 12 - 2. She also likes rooms to be really hot whereas I leave a fan on even in winter.

I think we'll be able to work around it though. As long as we're both quiet when the other person is sleeping and I keep a fan on by my bed we should be alright.

I expect to not sleep as early next year. As opposed to now, I'll be taking two 300 level classes and a 200 level. Plus I'll have six classes rather than five. I'll be busier with clubs and if I keep my summer job (pending I get one downtown) or if I get one on campus, I'll be pretty busy. So I imagine I won't be able to get work done as quickly.

I really wanted to go apply for jobs this week but I don't have the time now. I thought the final I had to study the most for was Friday but I found out it's Thursday and the one that I thought was Thursday is Friday. Since I have to transcribe a lot of notes for that to make my study guide, I won't have free time Wednesday to go into the loop.

Oh well. At least this year is over.

Sooo... Not really having a good week.

My grandpa is in the hospital with pneumonia. He's tough though so I think he'll be alright.

And my mom has lupus. Or they're pretty much essentially sure of it. Her blood test confirms some type of autoimmune disease and lupus is the only one that explains a lot of problems she has.

I'm honestly not sure how to take it. When my mom said that it made my heart skip a beat. I know that some people with lupus don't make it past 5 years, but that it's a smaller amount. I also know that a significant amount make it past 20 years, as well.

I don't know what I'd do if I lost my mom.

All of these things are happening at once. Yesterday I basically cried for a few hours for a combination of things and now I found out about this.

I have to be optimistic though.

I'm seeing Iron Man on Monday? My boyfriend won tickets through AICN. I might give mine up for his friend, though. I'm not sure if my name was on it, but if it isn't, one of his friends is a big fan and didn't win so I feel guilty. It also means I'm missing the whole thing happening with "It's all part of the plan" Dark Knight stuff... Which most people think is another trailer.