I am ridiculously tired. The building I live in had a fire on Sunday morning so over this (three-day) weekend I had about 13 hours of sleep total, which sucked. I'm also tired because my roommate is just noisy. She doesn't really seem to be aware of the fact she is so noisy. She makes a lot of little annoying noises, i.e. putting down heavy scissors on her desk repeatedly, walking around in flip flops, letting our door slam, making random clicking noises, letting drawers slam shut, etc. None are too loud but the repetition makes it hard for me to fall asleep. She also always wakes me up in the morning, either by her alarm, letting drawers/the door slam, or spraying so much perfume near my face that it wakes me up. It's exhausting.

My stomach has been getting better but the stress of it made me miss my period so I'm probably going to have to go buy a pregnancy test soon (it's about two weeks over a month late). I could get it soon but I figure I should probably just go take the test -- I just don't want to pay money for it since I am broke, haha. Oh well?

I am getting tired of hearing about the economy on CNN. Yes, it's a big issue and I understand but I'd rather hear about world events than repetition of discussion of credit, etc.

So I'm happy to be back at school but I'm also freaked out because I don't know what to do about my stomach anymore.

It interferes with a lot of my life and I'm worried about it getting upset during classes because it had last semester and I barely made it through classes... Now I have big blocks of them (3 hour blocks and one 5 hour block) and I don't know what I'm going to do.

It makes me really depressed.

I really just want to go back to school.

I had a good time at my boyfriend's in NJ but now I have nothing to do this week until Thursday.

It seems like my best friend basically doesn't care about being friends with me or our other really close friend. I'm supposedly going to hang out with her today but I don't think that's happening because I can't think of anything to do, I don't have money to spend, and she's saving money to go hang out with some other friends tomorrow. The other two people I would hang out with aren't here.

So, right now I just want to go back to school. I have a feeling this summer is going to suck for me.

So I am free from school until the 12th and I am quite lucky grade-wise. My gpa did go down... But only by about .03, so I kept my 3.7.

Home is okay, just boring. I have seen my best friend and she acted relatively normal but I still feel like things are off with her.

I went to the Christmas Village with friends yesterday in below zero weather. Then we saw "Doubt", which was good.

Oh and I went to a screening of Benjamin Button last week... It was very good. It will probably win best picture.

My mood is so-so right now. It's finals week for me. I've taken two and I have four to go, finishing next Monday.

Today is my study day and I am also going to be having a Secret Santa party this evening.

I'm mad because apparently an 87 is a B at my school, and since I had an 87.5, my professor decided to be an asshole and not bump me up to an 88, giving me a B+. So, now my gpa will most likely be a 3.6 unless somehow magically one of my A- turns into an A.

Right now, including that B, my grades would be:

French: A
(Exam Monday.)

Pirates and Sailors: A-
(Turned in a paper last week that sucked... So we'll see where that goes. Exam tomorrow.)

Women in Asia: A
(Turned in a paper last week. It was bad but my other bad paper got an A. She gives me A's on everything. Exam Friday.)

Civil Rights Movement & the Courts: A
(But we just took the final yesterday. I had a 99 on the midterm which was 40% of the grade and the final is 50% so we'll see...)

American Politics: B ( I have to work my ass off to make sure this gets to a B+ or at least stays where it is, so I'm trying. I shouldn't have slacked off in this class.)

Human Eco Footprint: B
(And my exam was last Monday.)


So... My gpa can range anywhere from a REALLY low 3.7 to a high 3.5.

If I go to a high 3.6, I can deal with it. If I drop to a 3.5, I will cry. It's lame but I don't care. I want to get into a good law school.



On another note, I'm making a youtube video with my friends next semester based off the video game Fatal Frame, hahaha. We're going all out. I'll post it on here when I finish it. We have a lot of work to do to make it good/somewhat creepy.

I'm kind of sad to go home for break because I'm going to miss people here. Home is nice but there is less to do, less people to see, and less ability to drink without risking getting arrested.

I'm also a little sad because everyone is going to be busier next semester so I might not see people as much and I hate sitting in my room. My roommate is loud and tends to be obnoxious. Plus some people are leaving for studying abroad -- which I can't afford to do.

Sigh. Anyway I'm just looking forward to classes next semester and such. I'm glad to have the break, too.

I'm feeling increasingly isolated and it's making me really depressed.

I like my friends and I like school but I feel like my boyfriend is indifferent towards me.

I miss surprises/affection. I feel like a hassle to him for being upset.

I'm tired. Already 2 of my classes I wanted filled up and I don't register until Thursday.

Lame.