thanks to my awesome boyfriend and best friend, my valentines day was salvaged and led into a pretty good birthday weekend.
as shitty as things are right now, im damn lucky to have these people in my life. the one thing i can be greatful for. atleast i have one thing.

someone study for me! i cant get away from netflix....son of a bitch. i cant pry myself off this couch and to my backpack...pull out that damn calculator....look at those asymtotes....graphs.........feck...

you know, i hate that my ex feels he can claim our break up as a loss, like something that hurt him, like something that made an impact on his life. i fucking hate it...if there was ever a time i wish i could have been able to see the future it would be the time that i made the decision to waste my time on him. the first time ive ever had regret. he moves on and i get to never forget him. i fucking hate him.

i just had to get that out...

its been a bit. i moved again. its working out well. i hate my new boss. my new coworker is a smelly large girl who talks like the girl who sings in barbie girl song...i want to palm her face. my boy (who is the most amazing man, something that the forementioned fuck tard would know nothing about) is back from japan. thats nice. i am currently watching the superbowl...half paing attention. it lost me when the power went out. not to mention that my friend took a viagra and we are waiting for something to happen, telling my other friend to push his buttons under the blanket so something happens. and now arguing what is in the football players pants that keeps the pants out of their asses cause they should be getting wedgies and youd be able to see their ass cheeks...this is getting heated ha!
these commercials are ok, kinda funny.

dont be in the health care field if youre going to bitch when someone needs your help...you dumb cuntie bitch.

been working out like a mo fo. i see a personal trainer once a week so i can learn new exercises and mostly bc i tend to bail out as soon as the pain starts (car accident injuries) which is within the first week. if i have someone to hold me accountable and im paying for it, i tend to hold up a little better...this shit aint cheap. its for the better though, i need to stick with it. im weak as hell! i have done absolulty nothing but yoga and some pilates since the accident in 2009 so needless to say...im weak as hell. im a little butt hurt about it. im so much more bad ass and strong in my head. everyone has to start somewhere i guess. just sucks starting all the fuck over again! my trainer kicks my ass...im gonna get sexy, skinny and strong though! im determined! ive got til december to see some results...

im going to get my CNA certification this month. hopefully i can get in with one of the drs i work with and make some more money and get some good experience for my resume and hrs for school. we will see.

i have nothing interesting to say right now...all i do is work, gym, sleep...until the end of the month in which depending on the day it will be work school and/or gym, sleep...my life is redundant and boring. just waiting for my guy to come home to me...4 more months....4 very long and frustrating months....hes worth it though. i made a good decision on this one...cant say so much about my previous choices....oi vey.

soooooo it was pirate night downtown last weekend and it was fun =]











and then some pictures from other fun nights...

so i am curious....
WHY DOES ONE OF THE SORRIEST EXCUSES FOR A HUMAN GET TO HAVE SUCH AN EXCITING, HAPPY AND FORTUNATE LIFE WITH PEOPLE WHO LOVE THEM IN IT, WHEN THEY DO NOT DESERVE NOT ONE PARTICAL OF MATTERS WORTH OF TANGABLE HAPPINESS LET ALONE THE PRESENCE OF A PASSING THOUGHT IN THE MINDS OF THOSE WHO LOVE THEM AND THEY DO NOT LOVE BACK?! narcissistic, selfish, gloating, unoriginal, diseased, emotionless, fake, douche bag...youre nothing and thats all you will ever be. while you have all these things surrounding you, you will be lonely and alone because you are a parasite who only uses those around you to make yourself look better and feel better, to yourself. no one fucking cares. everyone you know fakes their caring about anything that comes out of your mouth. i hope you know that and realize just how fucking useless your life is to this planet and all the people in it. you are disgusting. i was a fool for ever hoping id see anything more, anything at all period, in you. i should have gone with my gut and never even gave you the chance to be something. you will always be nothing.


i fucking HATE you by the way. i really want you to know that.