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i got a new dress














thankyou Kristoph for helping me pick it! x

oh. good. lord.
dont ever let any boys borrow your stuff.

they always break or lose it.


so, i told my family i was going to hang on to my money from now on, although so far ive spent quite a bit, i just bought lots of books on amazon, ive bought ear stretching stuff and plugs...im already planning a half sleeve hehe

had a nice long weekend, jrEWING came over () we did lazy things and yesterday we all went to see my cousins little teeny tiny baby boy, joseph.
and then went to dinner with my mum and dads friend dave who is like 60, and his girlfriend who is like 23!!!
and their 8 month old daughter called alissa, WHO IS THE CUTEST HAPPIEST LITTLE THING IN THE WORLD!!! OHMYGOD!
she doesnt stop smiling and dancing and being cute. so fun.
i think jrEWING got a bit freaked out by all the broodiness though hah

i came home and sorted my wardrobe AGAIN today, got another box of crap to sell, so if anyone is a size 6/7 shoe and likes wearing heels hit me up haha

hummmmmmmmmm
i dunno what else there is to tell...

im feeling kinda bleh about my hair/face/body/clothes
but luckily im having a hair change at the end of april, that should help.

i think i need to find a job i can actually stick with, instead of this staple pulling shit, temp work sucks big hairy animal balls.

todays staples:


found out today i HAVE to work there next week too, but apparently the job centre has something better lined up for me afterwards.

photos? dont mind if i do




sweeeeeeeeeeeet

im super fucking pissed off!
i was in a bad bad mood this morning at work but it lifted as the day went on, i leave tomorrow so thats cool. no more shit job for me. time for a taste of something else for a bit.

but i get home, to my "sick" younger brother who had the day off school, he ate a whole tub of ben and jerrys ice cream i bought two days ago and hadnt even looked at yet. fucking cunt.
and he had done no cleaning, there is brown parcel paper all over the living room, along with box contents and other crap, empty bottles, cups, plates.

and then my new phone was supposed to be here and it isnt. ive been waiting for a month now, this is fucking rediculous.




SHIT SHIT SHIT
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


on a lighter note, i might be dabbling in the photoshopping and photography of the sexy naked ladies.
ive received a reply email from zoetica with all the paperwork and files etc, i think i just have to give it a go and see what happens maybe?
we will see.






happy fucking easter.

names names names

i am still very yes on the sg front, we will see what happens this weekend, might shoot a set. we shall see...


today at work i was going through some paperwork and found three foot long sainsburys receipts, ALL for sandwiches, the company spent almost 400 quid on sandwiches in one go!!!! i wish i worked there!

also, i had some paperwork from a marine lab, they were testing "shellfish hygiene"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what?!!?!


anywhooooooooooo

hows it goin?
ive been so damn sleepy this week, getting up at 6am and doing stuff all day certainly tired me right out!
i went to bed at like 9 on monday! thats crazy early for me.

so i changed my name. meh.

my job is bad, and dull, but its so easy!
time flies when youre pulling staples
oh yeah.

i made a couple friends today too, it made me sad yesterday but today was better.

edited to add: (because i forgot and i find it amusing) a pipe burst in our server room at work today,
office people running around with buckets full of water, while us temps sit at our staple-covered desks giggling quietly, with no lights on.


i think i wanna be an sg now, i didnt for a while after i put up my set and it went to hopefuls.

feedback?

jrEWING and i had a lazy weekend, got food shopping sat morning and didnt leave the house after

i made muffins and cupcakes, with lee's help (he smashed up all the chocolate, and stirred cupcake mix when i was all girly and weak)

and we watched a few shit movies for about 30 mins each, and then watched The Fountain, which is quite possibly the worst/mindfuck/hard to follow film i have ever seen. i hated it.

also, I HAVE A DAMN JOB FUCK-DARN IT

its going to be wankgash.

i will be doing document prep, which means removing staples and junk like that, scanning docs into a pc and organising them.
sounds shit? yes it does.

im a bit ill





i miss jrEWING.






i think i pretty much hate it here now, but it might just be all the free time i have...whatever.
im in a bad mood.

EDIT

okay so i came back because i kindve need to vent.
currently im pissed off that i cant afford to buy my own studio lighting, because i want to be able to take rad photos all the time, and i cant, it really gets to me when i have awesome ideas but cant do anything about them.

and im fucked off that i cant find a fucking job, or at least one i can actually get to every damn day.

and my mum keeps suggesting stupid shit because she doesnt understand how the photography/film industry works.
and its hard not to take your anger out on people who are just trying to help but making stupid suggestions. EVEN WHEN THEY DONT KNOW.

also, the lack of a job means i have NO MONEY ever, which is obviously a massive problem since every god damn little stupid lame thing in the world makes you need money.

the only thing that makes me happy is the thought of seeing jrEWING at the end of the week, and then more so in april when he moves down here to bristol.

on sunday i woke up at half 8 feeling groggy as fuck, so i went back to sleep thinking it was a hangover, woke up at 11 and still felt shit, realised this was either one motherfuck of a hangover or i was actually sick.

turns out i was actually sick, the last few couple of days have been shit.
ive had a horrible earache, which lee will know, drives me fucking crazy, when i had laryngitis over christmas i woke up in the middle of the night with a nasty bastard earache, crying my eyes out.
a big fat headache, a sore throat, cold/hot sweats...the list goes on.
which made this week extra bum because monday was my best friends birthday and i missed out on one hell of a crazy evening with her and pretty much loads of people ive never met. GAYGAYGAYGAY

i just felt my first earthquake. cool.

so i was wondering, if you guys could take a look here aaaand here and let me know if youd ever think of buying any of those photos as prints itd help me alot.

im really lusting for my own studio lighting at the moment, and i figure i could get an alright kit for about 350.




bristol this weekend anyone?