I'm in love again for the third time in my life. I won't tell her that though. Why ruin a good thing? I have been treated like gold since I've known her. I must enjoy it while I can, but the funny thing is it keeps getting better with every day. When this thing comes to a screaching halt I'm screwed and I know that, but I stay on anyway. Any tips from yall out there? How to survive, etc. I try my hardest to not give a shit and distance myself, but I'm becoming unable to fight much longer. This is not what I wanted, but it's so nice. I gave up on love long ago, and now I feel it surging through me. I'm too happy and that's fucking scary to me. There's this feeling I get when I'm on a mountain or in the ocean or sometimes just anywhere. I call it "The Glow" or the singularity. Time stands still. All good feelings are compressed into a single timeless moment. It's beautiful. It's infinite.

So I'm thinkin I'm cursed. Things don't always go my way. Happiness comes in little packages a couple times a year. Buck up, life's a bitch. The higher the hope the harder the fall. Oh well, maybe next time.

I've had an unusually shitty day today. I know it's Monday and all, but today was over the top. I'm really getting burned out on my job. All day long I daydream about doing other things. So much stuff is going on in the world and it seems like I'm always at work just watching time go by. I'm kinda ready for some cooler weather also which might help my pull me out of this funk I'm in. I'm excited for October. October is traditionally a good month for me. Sometimes I'd like to just become a hobo and ride across the country doing odd jobs for food and supplies (no, not that you sicko!). Life would be so simple. I could just sit and meditate all day. I'm still looking for possible travel destinations. Google Earth is the coolest tool for travel planning. I think that a couple weeks off will do me a lot of good. Unfortunately I have to wait a couple of months before I can do this. In the meantime I think I'm gonna need to do something to snap me into happiness again. I'm sure you know all the options. It's important not to overdo any of them because then they lose their effectiveness.

I'm moving soon! Right across the street.