So, after a period of running I've decided that I don't really enjoy pounding the pavements. A friend of mine always told me how much freedom she got from running but apparently it's something I've been unable to find.

So, I bought a bike and believe it or not I found that freedom she talked about. I spent alot of my youth on a bike, I cycled nearly every day. But when I left home at 18 and moved to England to study I left the bike behind and that was the last time I cycled. 17 years later, I'm on a bike again, and it feels amazing. I forgot just how much I enjoy being on a bike.

I'm hitting 9 miles when I go out these days. Around Birkenhead Park (for you history people Birkenhead Park was the inspiration for Central Park).

My guilty pleasure at the moment is the film Drive, and my girlfriend bought me the soundtrack a while back, as it has a very Michael Mann 80's feel to it. And that's my soundtrack while I do rotations in the park. I even have the gloves....but that's because they're twist gears on the bike!



So, if I'm not too hungover tomorrow it's going to be a 10 mile cycle along the Mersey river and docklands, with a 10 mile cycle back. If the rain holds off!

In the meantime enjoy the genius of Porcupine Tree:

Haven't been a round for a while, but glad I came back just in time to see the amazing sets from Blackberry and Lass on the front page

I'm keeping it short for now. Nemesis count down is a week and a half, after that the 9 months of peace I've had at work will shatter probably along with my mental health

So....my nemesis is coming back to haunt me in a months time. The year I've spent in bliss without her trying to get me sacked has been pretty good. I've established myself as the joker in the department, mainly because I felt free to actually express myself. Something I held back alot while she was around.

As much as I hate my job the time she has been absent on maternity leave has been amazing for me. It not only gave me a chance to escape from her but after HR and my boss took her side in an argument where her tears won (refer back to past blogs) and I was moved away from my colleagues, I managed to build a whole new friendship in the company. She wanted to send me far away, which my great HR team did (threatening me with the sack in the meantime....but only just), the only thing she never realised is that I'm not a bastard and the people she moved me to became great friends. She just loves herself too much and the thought of someone disliking her kills her. Since then, I love the people I work with.

But. she's coming back. And if I don't do what she expects, well, I'm a dead man! because she always wins.

And this is what she expects....believe me, I had mediation with this girl....she demanded I say hello and goodbye everyday to her. I do a general hello and goodbye, but no, I have to mention her. In mediation she complained about her recent birthday card, I signed Happy Birthday, Kev. ....Not good enough. I actually spent 10 mins arguing with her about this....It wasn't good enough....I ended up saying "what do you want me to say...Happy Fucking Easter!!!!"

And yeah, she's coming back. I'll carry on as I have done, but give it 2-3 weeks and I'll be called to HR....I may have coughed in an improper way....God knows.She wants me gone, and despite the fact I hired her, trained her, nominated her for an award, she wants me gone. And nevermind I....sod it, who cares what I did, she'll always win.

I'll tell you something though. If you know the full story you'll get this, but she has made me distrust women so much

So, my whole world at this time of year becomes accounting. It's financial year end and for the next 2 months I get to stress over accruals and prepayments and what the hell should go to one place and not the other before the auditors come in for 2 weeks to tear me apart. Add to all that the great new accounting rule brought in for our sector called component accounting. I work in a company that owns a number of properties. Whereas before we installed improvements such as kitchens and bathrooms we therefore depreciated these two assets. Now we're being told that one of our properties technically has 6 components to it....windows, doors, kitchen, bathroom, boiler, structure. So, we have to treat all these as assets and depreciate them as such.

Essentially what this means is I have to work out a way to dispose of the assets the company has since 2005 as well as the depreciation and then add the new component assets, considering we have 12,500 properties, all with 6 assets each And at the same time keep the profit and loss and balance sheet happy!

Spent all of today with a consultant from the accounting software company we use and we came up with some good ideas to work it out but my boss kept on finding problems with every solution. I think it may be a very long 2 months to try get some solution going. Put it this way, financial year end was the 31st of March. We reckon it'll be September by the time we have a working solution! Christ, I'm actually having dreams about it now. I have restless nights thinking about it because my mind refuses to let me sleep fully while trying to solve a problem and my dream is the problem of trying to get this to work!

Should of just put on my Y-Fronts and had a career as a male stripper

So, where do we go from here, the planet is a gunboat filled with fear......

Today I am celebrating 15 years of togetherness with my girlfriend. Granted, it should have been a romantic day, but it wasn't. She spilled a large glass of white wine on me last night in the middle of a bar, covered me from my nipple to my knee, and when wearing a white shirt it felt like I was in a wet t-shirt contest. So I decided to go home, she didn't! Anyway, I'm not sure what my point was! Let's just say it was a quiet day.

So, I blog on here to express what I'm feeling. I do it because I know that no one I know in my life will read this. So it gives me a massive outlet. I'm wary about this though as the last time I revealed my thoughts someone ripped me apart and made me feel like shit for days.

And I'm sorry, I've decided not to say what I wanted to say. I'll leave it in me to tear me apart. Just can't.

So I'm currently rocking the homeless tramp look which has started to attract some comments at work. Wonder how long it will be before I'm pulled to one side by HR for a "quick word". Anyway, apologies for the quality of the picture, webcam is a little bit poor!



Managed to get a massive bit of luck last week as well. Left work on a half day, mainly because I just couldn't be bothered with it! For some crazy reason I thought about checking out some guitars, there are a few shops with copies for about £70 in the area and I thought I'd hit the credit cart and think about it later. Standing in a shop looking at telecaster copy for £70 and I happen to look down, and laying there cast away on the floor was this beauty:



With a price tag of £19.99! I picked it up, ran to the sales guy and basically said..."Is this for real". The panic on his showed it wasn't, but they had to sell it to me at that price

So, thats another strat copy added to the collection with my Gilmour black and white, along with my Tele and Gibson...this is getting to be a habit!

Just watched Troll Hunter, great film. So, sitting here now with a bottle of Jim Beam and Glen Campbell playing, Ghost on a Canvas, really is a great album. The sound of a man looking back on his life.

So, been a while since I've blogged. Kind of decided to stay away as it's not really worth it anymore. But for some reason I felt compelled tonight. My little niece who was born 7 weeks ago was taken into hospital recently for bronchitis, scared me senseless. I live in Liverpool but I'm originally from Dublin. I came to Uni here and stayed and my whole family is still in Ireland. So, I've haven't met my little niece yet and I wasn't there when she went into hospital. I've been waiting on texts and phone calls. All I can say is thank God for modern technology, because of Skype I got to see her and my sister together in the hospital a couple of days back and she looks in fine form. They came out of the hospital on Friday and it seems the worst has passed

Other than that, I sleep, pretty much non-stop. Not sure if it's my depression or an effect on my diabetes but I tend to fall asleep at my desk at work! Granted, I'm an accountant and it's far from interesting but still!

I'm also in a confusion. Don't know how to explain it without sounding like a complete bastard! I've been in contact on FB with someone in America and she has become a really good friend to me. We both share a love for American Football, and as it's hard to get info over here she helps me out. Over the past 2 years we have become great friends and she's actually planning to come to London this year to see the NFL game because I'll be there. The thing is, I don't have a great amount of friends, I'm not a social butterfly as I've heard people call it! I have a great girlfriend, yeah, we have our issues, but 15 years together says alot, and I've always considered her my best friend. But I miss not having this other friend in my life. Just to put things straight, I'm not talking leaving my gf of stuff like that, I mean friendship wise. I wish I was living next to this person. I feel my life would improve 100% if she was in my life. But that makes me feel guilty because I know my gf would hate it.

I just hate the fact that I actually found someone I want to spend all my time with and they're an ocean away. And before anyone points out that I should want to spend all my time with my gf, I do. But she doesn't want to spend all her time with me.

Who knows! Maybe I'll get lucky and get hit by a bus tomorrow! Hopefully not though, want to watch Red State again tomorrow

It's funny, I'm a nothing, a nobody, just an idiot walking down the street. I spent alot of my time trying to be the ideal for a stunning woman, maybe the reason I'm on here! But it was only tonight, after watching Red State that I have decided that I may be the most un-attractable male, but I don't care, because at the end of the day, all I want in life is someone who appreciates and understands Kevin Smith movies! That's it!

Forget looks and bodies and what the hell else, if you get it, you got me.