Latly I been thinking if they kill someone remotely close to me it's a sign of weekness & that's just not what I'm about. I said for years I live life by rules! Before I would stand up not always knowing why. Now I realise no matter what I do sit or stand the most important thing is that nobody close to me dies! I only did the hole coin toss thing because codes that there's two others that stand for what I do. One flip for both of them one for myself then I had to take a step back to know the little voice in my head is real. Wich made a total of four.