WOW! Haven't been on here in months but I'll peak in now from time to time, while my membership is still FREE. Lol I've missed SG & my friends on here. Hope everyone is doing great. I'm doing well, just busy w/ life, my kids & school. School consumes most of my time but I'm almost done, *cross my fingers*. Let me know how you guys are. Xoxoxoxo

IF I find He who can tame My Wild Heart then I will KNOW that I have found the One for me... If he does exist



In a better mood than previous blogs, SG fam, thank the Stars. Just freezing my ass over here though brrr. It needs to snow here cuz it's ridiculously cold. BRRRR My 33rd birthday is coming up on Thursday. I can't believe I'm 7 years away from the big 4-0 omg. I hope I look decent when I hit that milestone. I know that sounds shallow but sometimes looks are all a woman has.

How is everyone doing? It's only been a few days since my last blog but it somehow feels like an eternity that I've been away from this site. I want to work on a new set but it's too cold to get naked lol. If only I had a hot sexy body to accompany me & keep me warm in between. Hehe.

Kisses to everyone...

All I really want is to be Happy. Why can't my life be consistent? One day it sucks, the next it rocks. I just want stability but once again I am in a depressive state. Grrr...

I had a great Thursday. I hung out w/ a guy w/ whom I have benefits but who I also am kind of starting to like again. We had amazing sex, cuddled, joked around a lot, & he just made me Smile a lot. Something I haven't done in a long ass time. I was high on him & I felt my Heart start to thaw... But I guess I felt too soon because I know I shouldn't expect anything & I don't want to get hurt. I am digging on him but I don't know how he feels, if he feels anything at all. He did say he misses me but of course words are just words...

& I'm gettting discouraged about this whole SG thing. Yall fuckers need to show me major Love so I can go PINK!! lol. I just don't understand how some girls have gone pink so soon w/ only one set while it takes awhile for others before they go pink, IF they make it at all. I know it may take more than one set before some women make it but damn, photo shoots aren't cheap, you know?! I do have some ideas for new sets, it's just a matter of finding the time to do them, as well as finding the funds to pay for them. Blah All the women on here are beautiful & deserve to go Pink...

So far 2012 blows for me. Life fucking sucks & I’m at a point where I don’t care anymore. I feel nothing, I’m drowning… I just want to feel whole & happy but so far I feel nothing… Absolutely nothing =*(

As DRAINED as I feel at the moment, I am determined to make this day a productive one.

Need an upbeat song to help me get started so I'm rocking out to:


Going to make eggrolls & I'm really in the mood to bake so I'm going to bake pumpkin cookies using the Betty Crocker mix I bought awhile ago but I also want to do something homemade so I'm looking online for some ideas & recipes.

Hope everyone is jovial & ready for Christmas

XOXOXO

This BLOWS!! I broke my Bebe glasses so now I'm fucking blind since my other pair is broken as well & I don't have contacts. I tried to superglue the pieces together but it wouldn't hold so now I don't know what to do. I'm broke as fuck so I have no money to buy new glasses, nor do I have insurance to do so.

My bullet is also broken so now I can't even have a good orgasm

& the weather just keeps getting colder & colder over here so I'm constantly freezing w/ no cuddle buddy to warm me up.

FML FML FML FML FML FML

It's amazing how one day, I'm content with my day & life, then the next day, shit hits the fan & I'm depressed & angry. Grr... why can't life just be constant & easy?

SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE ME FEEL BETTER?! I FEEL WRETCHED...

a couple of hours AFTER I originally posted this blog: Damn, do I sound PETTY or what?! I apologize but I was really IRRITATED when I wrote this blog & I was running off emotions. I know there are worse problems life throws at people...

Hello my Lovelies! Hope all is well w/ everyone .

I had a good day today, busy but good. No complaints . Had a tutoring session with my nursing instructor, which went smoothly, & I'm determined to make it this time & pass this damn class. Who knew that the study of old people (Gerontology) would be so hard?! Then had a wonderful time at my nephew's Christmas play at church. He was too adorable as a toy soldier; tita is proud hehe! Now I'm finishing the night off w/ Panera cappucino & asiago cheese bread. Mmm heaven!

As much as I enjoyed my day today, I am so over 2011. 2012 needs to get here already! I have hot dates w/ 3 very sexy & very cool men next year. Let's see: January 27th is when I'll be in Spartacus' bloody muscular arms. I have to nurse him back to health after all the battles he's had . Then on March 23rd, I shall be rocking out with Dan Auerbach & Patrick Carney of The Black Keys. Aw yeah, I'm super excited as this will be my first ever concert I'll be attending!

Still focused & still determined to accomplish all the goals that I've set out for. Work hard now to Play hardER later. Graduation, going PINK, & moving to Australia or New Zealand. I am Blessed

She is Lost, She is Broken.
Her Wild Heart Caged, she is a Flightless Bird.
She is Instability at its Finest.
She is Jaded by Love.
Life is always hard for the Belle of the Boulevard.

this is who I am. ~Zel~
follow me on tumblr: She Will Be Loved

Currently rocking out to Jessie J's song "Do It Like A Dude". Makes me feel empowered & extremely Sexy. Energizes me for the day... Hopefully I can figure out how to embed the video on my blog lol because it is hot & I'm sure you guys would enjoy half-naked sexy women dancing & making out.

Stomp, stomp, I've arrived
Drop the beat, nasty face, why ya lookin' at me?
Flyin', flyin', flyin', flyin' through the sky
In my spaceship, I'm an alien tonight

Dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty sucka
You think I can't get hurt like you, you motherfucker

I can do it like a brother, do it like a dude
Grab my crotch, wear my hat low like you
Do it like a brother, do it like a dude
Grab my crotch, wear my hat low like you

We can do it like the man'dem, man'dem
We can do it like the man'dem, sugar, sugar, sugar
We can do it like the man'dem, man'dem
We can do it like the man'dem, sugar, sugar, sugar

Boom, boom, pour me a beer
No pretty drinks, I'm a guy out here
Rollin', rollin', rollin', rollin' money like a pimp
My B-I-T-C-H is on my dick like this

Dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty sucka
You think I can't get hurt like you, you motherfucker

If you're going to Kiss and/or Bite my Neck, you'd better just start taking your fucking clothes off. Just saying... Yes, I am so missing & craving Sex. There's only so much my bullet can do for me. I miss skin to skin contact. Hands groping my body, my breasts & ass. Exploring every inch of my body w/ his tongue & hands. Kisses, soft & hard, biting the lower lip, nibbling & sucking my neck, breasts... Mmm, I am so ready to pounce but no boy toys to pounce on can you say sexually frustrated?