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for once i'm glad to have a blog no one reads. i need to vent a few things.
1. it is seriously annoying to have a girlfriend and only be marginally closer to being laid than i was without one. granted, there are good reasons (i'm her first and she doesn't wanna rush things). still. i thought not being single anymore would mean not having to relieve my own pressure. blah.
2. the use of the word pine as a verb annoys me. yet, i find myself doing exactly that. this bothers me for a number of reasons. it's a girly, emo thing to do. normally i wouldn't care, but when you have few masculine qualities other than belching a lot and having a penis, you take all you can get. the other thing is that we've only been together like three weeks. it's that whole growing attached too early issue i have. that worries me sometimes.
3. i'm worried about the relationship in general. again, girly thing to do, but i covered that. i don't see this lasting in the long term. we're friends and all, and highly compatible, but i just can't see us still being together a few years from now. i realize i'm young, but i'm already tired of looking for "the one". probably just impatience working at me. who knows? it's entirely possibly i'm wrong and just being pessimistic.
that's about it. hello, anyone who happens upon this and reads it. i apologize for the whining, but it's not like this was meant for viewing. it's your own fault, really. no one forced you to read it.
for once i'm glad to have a blog no one reads. i need to vent a few things.
1. it is seriously annoying to have a girlfriend and only be marginally closer to being laid than i was without one. granted, there are good reasons (i'm her first and she doesn't wanna rush things). still. i thought not being single anymore would mean not having to relieve my own pressure. blah.
2. the use of the word pine as a verb annoys me. yet, i find myself doing exactly that. this bothers me for a number of reasons. it's a girly, emo thing to do. normally i wouldn't care, but when you have few masculine qualities other than belching a lot and having a penis, you take all you can get. the other thing is that we've only been together like three weeks. it's that whole growing attached too early issue i have. that worries me sometimes.
3. i'm worried about the relationship in general. again, girly thing to do, but i covered that. i don't see this lasting in the long term. we're friends and all, and highly compatible, but i just can't see us still being together a few years from now. i realize i'm young, but i'm already tired of looking for "the one". probably just impatience working at me. who knows? it's entirely possibly i'm wrong and just being pessimistic.
that's about it. hello, anyone who happens upon this and reads it. i apologize for the whining, but it's not like this was meant for viewing. it's your own fault, really. no one forced you to read it.
1. it is seriously annoying to have a girlfriend and only be marginally closer to being laid than i was without one. granted, there are good reasons (i'm her first and she doesn't wanna rush things). still. i thought not being single anymore would mean not having to relieve my own pressure. blah.
2. the use of the word pine as a verb annoys me. yet, i find myself doing exactly that. this bothers me for a number of reasons. it's a girly, emo thing to do. normally i wouldn't care, but when you have few masculine qualities other than belching a lot and having a penis, you take all you can get. the other thing is that we've only been together like three weeks. it's that whole growing attached too early issue i have. that worries me sometimes.
3. i'm worried about the relationship in general. again, girly thing to do, but i covered that. i don't see this lasting in the long term. we're friends and all, and highly compatible, but i just can't see us still being together a few years from now. i realize i'm young, but i'm already tired of looking for "the one". probably just impatience working at me. who knows? it's entirely possibly i'm wrong and just being pessimistic.
that's about it. hello, anyone who happens upon this and reads it. i apologize for the whining, but it's not like this was meant for viewing. it's your own fault, really. no one forced you to read it.