SO jay came to see me friday and helped me finish packing
Saturday morning we packed up our cars and drove to Petaluma where i am now all moved in to my new house! And he was very sweet and bought me some pink roses to match my room.
Then we went into the craziness of the weekend before xmas last minute shopping; remind me NEVER to do that again. But I did get some things for my room and what not so I was pleased.
Then that night me and my roomies, Chaz, Yousef and Jeremy and Jermeys mom Maureen who is also my assistant manager all went out to this quaint wine bar. Very cute, I of course was the only one not drinking but I had a great time and man are they some hilarious kids.
Saturday Jay had to go back to work but me and the roomies went out to the mall (yes I should have known better...) and that sucked. But we had a good time being together in the madness and i was pretty lazy the rest of the day
But today I will be semi-productive. I still need to pick up a few things for xmas and i want to get my hair trimmed and maybe my nails done. I hope its a good day.
I will see my boy tomorrow and get to meet his family which makes me very excited. He rocks.
So how are you?

fuck.

Where there is no keeping of time
Just a feeling of ecstasy that's taking over me
Excitement in the silence
Who will break this holiness
Who's the first to make a noise?

I hate packing. Who wants to work a 10 hour day and then pack... egh. Not me.
I am very ready to move though.
I paid some moolah on my credit card and tomorrow I will be sending my uncle a check to pay off what i borrowed from him and I will FINALLY be paying a speeding ticket that I got when driving through texas last January...
I will be very glad to have a good handle on my debt. I will only have to pay 700 more on my credit card and then be debt free!
Tomorrow I will also be changing my phone into my name and be getting new auto insurance.
I will pack some more and start cleaning. I need to buy xmas cards too and do some holiday shopping.
Then, I will move to Petaluma on Saturday and get settled
And spend some more time with my Jaybo before he leaves for work Satuday night cause I then won't see him again until the 29th prolly.
BUT! I may try to go see Scotty whom is still in the hospital
Then at least by the 24th I will drive home to Merced , see my friend Jaime, go see Alex and the Perez family and spend Christmas with my sister and her family. THEN.. I will be going to SoCal to see Almost_retarded and Camshaft
I should have a very good next few weeks. Cause then on the 29th Jay gets home and doesn't have to go back to work till like... Jan 3rd or something And I am going to have an awesome New Years

Sounds good, right?! Hopefully all will go as planned!
Oh so I took this pretty picture via my camera phone:

Im very happy today. Tired now though. I have to be up QUITE early tomorrow too...egh and will be working all weekend.
But things are coming together. I will be moving on the 20th to Petaluma! Sweetness! And ill even have the money to do it, yay. And to buy some xmas gifts thank goodness.
Hopefully I will have the money to spend the weekend after xmas in Socal visiting Almost_retarded and Camshaft. That would make it a quite good xmas time since Jaybo will be working which is a bummer.
Eh i thought I was motivated enough to say more but I guess not really. I just have to get through 8 more days of this shit and then I will have a new beginning. Bout time..

Cant wait to see where things go.

I had an emotional weekend but overall a good one.
Tattooeddad71 is in ICU again but from what i know of my last update he is in stable condition. So, i've been a mess over that; crying and what not.
I did go see jaybo and like always that was fantabulous and he sure does a good job at cheering me up!
Had my interview on Saturday which went VERY well, I should find out tomorrow if i got it I believe.
I think ima try to move on the 19th of December. Looks like they aren't going to find a replacement Nanny which takes some stress off of me.
I am excited to move in with my new roomies! And be closer to Jay and Toez n Hubby Inc.
They are some great folk.
Hopefully this relationship was found on more than just luck, cause luck runs out... but I am a lucky gal.
Oh... you should ask me about tryin to kill me and Jay on the railroad tracks
So hopefully I will get to see a few sac area people before I move... But ill be around

I can't wait for it to be tomorrow.
I don't actually have anything of worth to say... To be honest I was just tired of looking at my last blog each time I was on my page. So this is more for me than for you
Last night I watched Run Lola Run without the subtitles. It was the first time I had watched it in years... its just as good when clueless as to what is being said.
I need to stop eating bad... im gaining my weight that i just lost back! Damn all the cake and pie and brownies in my house... holidays really fuck me over.
I am soo itchin to get pierced. I wish I had the money *sigh* any one want to donate money to me so I can get pierced? I'll pierce my nipples and send ya a pic as payment
Im really looking forward to moving... just not so much looking forward to all the time before then. Ya know, the packing and cleaning and still working this job I don't really enjoy. It will SO be worth it in the end.
Im way kinda falling for this boy

Any who...
Hows it goin for you? And what was the last band you listened to?

it is good to be happy again.
I had a very very good last few days. Wed evening I drove to tattooeddad71's house and stayed the night. The next day was turkey day and I stuffed my face with AWESOME food that his wife cooked so I cant complain; and I colored my hair...yes, AGAIN. I do realize one day it is all going to fall out and i'll be the hottest butch you've ever seen


Friday I took this picture of the rockstar himself...



Then later that afternoon I drove from Tracy to Petaluma. And I got to meet Chaz and Jeremy, two rad beings of the human genome who are going to be my roommates
We got to see the house (which is conveniently located near Omeganightmare's and Toez's apt ). It was cute... Nice new tile and pergo flooring throughout and a big back yard. The kitchen and bathrooms are clean just not extremely attractive but we will prettify it all
So Chaz is a 28 year old chick who works for wells fargo and is an ex personal trainer and Jeremy is a 21 year old chef dude. Very cool people; also occupying the space will be an English bulldog and kitty.
AND... Chaz hooked me up and I have an interview on this upcoming Saturday for a job as a leasing agent at an apartment complex. its some good money if i get it.
Wish me luck! Cause I neeeeed it.
So...as i was saying.... after we looked at the house me and Chaz hung out for a bit; cool chick, i really think we're going to be buds. And then I went to the boys apartment although he was working and wasn't going to be home but I hung out with toez and her hubby and we watched Hellboy II. Eh. I never saw the first Hellboy but the second one was ok I suppose; not really my type of movie genre.
Then I snuggled up in bed and shortly after I woke up the boyfriend was home Thank goodness cause it had been much too long since we last saw eachother.
Basically we were lazy the rest of the weekend and watched movies and played rockband.. Im getting better
But Toez did make a killer turkey dinner, nom nom nom!
We skipped out on the Dir En Grey concert cause we were tired and ended up stayin up late watching Beerfest, Sealab and talkin. Then i woke up at 5 am to drive home to Sacramento on 2 hrs of sleep.
I had a very good time and im feeling so much better about my situation.
I like happy Ricki better than emo Ricki.
Maybe I will go back to spelling my name as Rikki...

Oh....btw.. I has the best boyfriend ever and you can't has him.

Im having a great last few days. I will write more later
Hope everyone had as good of a thanksgiving as I did. <3

"I will lose my shit if even one more person I know dies, so please don't die"

Eric I can not get you out of my head. I hate everyday that you are gone. I miss you and I was so young when you decided to leave but what we had was..... well you know and youre the only person that will ever know.
I can't stop listening to Jumper and I just wish I could have said so many things to you... I just wish you knew how you were not alone. I too was icing over a secret pain. I had never wanted to be more erased from existence than in that time.
I love you in life and in death; you brought more light to my world than you could ever have known...

You were only the first to leave... my father was murdered that fathers day.. then Keith.
The worst was telling my grandfather each time I saw him how his son died....
But it wasn't too long before my papa joined my father again. How jealous I was...
Then my Great Auntie died too
And my Nana.... this is the first time i am crying over her passing... its been over 5 months.

And i hate to think of it and I know hes a kicker but my platonic soul mate... I can not handle not having you my love. Please hang in for me. I cant wait to spend thanksgiving with you because you have shown me so much love in these recent months, I could not be more thankful for you and your family.

And my boy <3 I dont know what you are doing with me... but thanks.