***angry blog***
to who ever reads this, the following is not at anything in particular that happend or aimed at anyone.
Thank you, Please enjoy.
Fuck this all! I'm not a god damn piece of shit show pony. I mean holy shit, i know you're conserned about how i'm doing but i'm not going to cry for everyone so they can feel like they're a caring person.
I mean holy fuck i'm so fed up with everything! I"m this close, you see that? THIS CLOSE to hanging up my spurs and calling it a day. putting on the happy face is starting to get really tough. I'm so ready to just stop fighting it and let my life fall apart, i'm fighting it so hard but i dont know if i can anymore. my back hurts and is about to break.
WHEN THE FUCK IS IT MY TURN!!!
Fuck this all, this will probably be my last blog here.
Its been real people. to those i've met and have become friends with i thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a part of me and my life. to those that i haven't met yet, or become friends yet, i'm sure you're cool people.
and no this isnt a bad good by letter, i'm still going to be part of the "living"
to who ever reads this, the following is not at anything in particular that happend or aimed at anyone.
Thank you, Please enjoy.
Fuck this all! I'm not a god damn piece of shit show pony. I mean holy shit, i know you're conserned about how i'm doing but i'm not going to cry for everyone so they can feel like they're a caring person.
I mean holy fuck i'm so fed up with everything! I"m this close, you see that? THIS CLOSE to hanging up my spurs and calling it a day. putting on the happy face is starting to get really tough. I'm so ready to just stop fighting it and let my life fall apart, i'm fighting it so hard but i dont know if i can anymore. my back hurts and is about to break.
WHEN THE FUCK IS IT MY TURN!!!
Fuck this all, this will probably be my last blog here.
Its been real people. to those i've met and have become friends with i thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a part of me and my life. to those that i haven't met yet, or become friends yet, i'm sure you're cool people.
and no this isnt a bad good by letter, i'm still going to be part of the "living"
New page, continuation of the story. loved ever step so far and wouldnt change it for the world
Am I being punished for my sins or by them?
I'm so sorry for hurting you.
the most important woman in my life and i hurt you so. thank you for staying even though you feel like you dont want to. I love you, and i've meant it every time i've said it. please try to forgive me. maybe not now, but someday.
I'm so sorry for hurting you.
the most important woman in my life and i hurt you so. thank you for staying even though you feel like you dont want to. I love you, and i've meant it every time i've said it. please try to forgive me. maybe not now, but someday.
Happy Turkey day everyone!!! time for a new post and its my Birthday!!! actually in about 15mins it will be but i wanted to post now.
I'm 30 now!!! ugh, old!!!
I love you Palomita!!!
I'm 30 now!!! ugh, old!!!
I love you Palomita!!!
well theres only one person that reads my blogs, so this if for you.
Hi Palomita! I'm really glad that you got that amazing tattoo, it's beautiful. almost as beautiful as the arm it's on.
I can't wait till we're finally in our house together.
Te Amo!!!
Hi Palomita! I'm really glad that you got that amazing tattoo, it's beautiful. almost as beautiful as the arm it's on.
I can't wait till we're finally in our house together.
Te Amo!!!
so i had vacation for a week with the woman. if you want to know more go to see harlot 's blog she has all the details.
Palomita
/fistbump
/kiss
muahmuahmuah
Palomita
/fistbump
/kiss
muahmuahmuah
Happy Memorial Day Weekend!
There are only two day out of the year that we are forced to show respect to military personnel and their sacrifice. Fly them flags high for all the men and women and families that have been affect by the loss of life of every military man.
Pour one out for the homies that died to make sure we're free (free-er than most at least)
There are only two day out of the year that we are forced to show respect to military personnel and their sacrifice. Fly them flags high for all the men and women and families that have been affect by the loss of life of every military man.
Pour one out for the homies that died to make sure we're free (free-er than most at least)
Worst Weekend Ever:
Friday, starts good, wake up early load up the car with my Drag Radial Tires, tools clothes and waters for a weekend of drag racing. I meet up with a friend and we drive out there to go race on the 1/4 mile. well we get there its hot as fuck. Get shitty times out there, my left arm is burnt. i drink tons of water and still dehydrated. I was so exhausted that i was going to stay the night at buddies house and just come home in the morning.
Saturday, I wake up late, i was going to drop off some stuff over at my other buddies shop. so i go over there drop some stuff and hanging out for a little bit since i haven't see them in a while. Then i get a call from one of the guys at the track and it turns out that i had enough time to make my last qualifying run if i get there quick. so we put on tires and take out the back seat and passenger seat. and i hurry out there. I get to the track and wait for a little bit then do my last run. I got my best time ever on the 1/4 mile. but after my car was acting a little funny. I go back to my buddies shop to load everything up so i can come home and talk to harlot. Go to start up the car and it was stuttering and wouldn't start. so we check the spark plugs and one of them went bad. since i haven't ever changed the spark plugs i bought all of them. so there i am working on a hot engine burning my hands trying to fix my car so i can get home. Install them, crank up the car and now one cylinder isn't firing and i smell gas from the engine. check out the plugs and one of them got cross threaded so now i have a fucked up plug and after hours of trying to fix it we couldn't do it.
So now i have to leave the car till monday till the other tech can get there to fix my car. I'm driving a Focus that's about to fall apart.
and the worst thing of all this weekend. I told Lisa that i was coming home and through some fabulous rational that went through my head i didn't. It might have been that i thought we were expecting me to be on my phone all weekend. but that doesn't matter. I told the person i love with all my heart that i was going to do something and let them down was the worst. I have no excuse for what i did and if i did it's not a good enough of a reason.
I hope you try to forgive me. it was uncalled for and i'm sorry.
Friday, starts good, wake up early load up the car with my Drag Radial Tires, tools clothes and waters for a weekend of drag racing. I meet up with a friend and we drive out there to go race on the 1/4 mile. well we get there its hot as fuck. Get shitty times out there, my left arm is burnt. i drink tons of water and still dehydrated. I was so exhausted that i was going to stay the night at buddies house and just come home in the morning.
Saturday, I wake up late, i was going to drop off some stuff over at my other buddies shop. so i go over there drop some stuff and hanging out for a little bit since i haven't see them in a while. Then i get a call from one of the guys at the track and it turns out that i had enough time to make my last qualifying run if i get there quick. so we put on tires and take out the back seat and passenger seat. and i hurry out there. I get to the track and wait for a little bit then do my last run. I got my best time ever on the 1/4 mile. but after my car was acting a little funny. I go back to my buddies shop to load everything up so i can come home and talk to harlot. Go to start up the car and it was stuttering and wouldn't start. so we check the spark plugs and one of them went bad. since i haven't ever changed the spark plugs i bought all of them. so there i am working on a hot engine burning my hands trying to fix my car so i can get home. Install them, crank up the car and now one cylinder isn't firing and i smell gas from the engine. check out the plugs and one of them got cross threaded so now i have a fucked up plug and after hours of trying to fix it we couldn't do it.
So now i have to leave the car till monday till the other tech can get there to fix my car. I'm driving a Focus that's about to fall apart.
and the worst thing of all this weekend. I told Lisa that i was coming home and through some fabulous rational that went through my head i didn't. It might have been that i thought we were expecting me to be on my phone all weekend. but that doesn't matter. I told the person i love with all my heart that i was going to do something and let them down was the worst. I have no excuse for what i did and if i did it's not a good enough of a reason.
I hope you try to forgive me. it was uncalled for and i'm sorry.
Baby you deserve a ring for not getting mad when i accidentally farted on you tummy.
theres no other person's tummy i'd rather fart on!
I love you
theres no other person's tummy i'd rather fart on!
I love you
