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I imagened myself going back too school to do a master in Culture and Media.
BUT I don't have any funding left from IBG (dutch college fund) cause apperently you only have 10 years of funding and loan when you start. I started in 2001 right?
*WRONG*
I started another education in 1998, and fled there 3 months later. So my term started in fucking 2008, wich means I can't have a loan anymore. So maybe do it Parttime right, and work on the side?
Wrong again...
Because I have a HBO degree I need to do a transfer year to be able to do the 1 year master. And they only have it Fulltime....
The only way to do it would be to have a loan of say about 20.000 euro to support my living on top of the . On top of the 10.000 I have at IBG. Not really an option.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
I am getting drunk tonight (even though I need to work tomorrow)
I imagened myself going back too school to do a master in Culture and Media.
BUT I don't have any funding left from IBG (dutch college fund) cause apperently you only have 10 years of funding and loan when you start. I started in 2001 right?
*WRONG*
I started another education in 1998, and fled there 3 months later. So my term started in fucking 2008, wich means I can't have a loan anymore. So maybe do it Parttime right, and work on the side?
Wrong again...
Because I have a HBO degree I need to do a transfer year to be able to do the 1 year master. And they only have it Fulltime....
The only way to do it would be to have a loan of say about 20.000 euro to support my living on top of the . On top of the 10.000 I have at IBG. Not really an option.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
I am getting drunk tonight (even though I need to work tomorrow)
So... I'm freaking tired tonight...
I had a good week... I went out with the girl to dinner for my birthday last week and I admitted to her that the whole situation was getting to me. It was a really nice evening but we decided it would probably be best if I didn't see her for a couple of weeks... Core of the situation is; I can enjoy myself in a non-relationship pretty well, but not if people get really close. If you just want to shag me, that's fine... But don't text me every day and hold my hand okplzthnx! That keeps things nice and separate, and in place.
Who knows...
Anyway. I did what most guys would do... Got back on the market.
I scored a cute girls phone number on a party last weekend and went on a date with her yesterday. (Can you spell rebound?) Ended up kicking her out @ 4am because I was expected to do construction work today (erm ja... laminaat leggen dus). Off course I don't know where this new situation will lead. But it feels great to have the guts to try it again after a year of being too scared too commit even the tiniest bit. I think I feel quite comfortable with the prospect of just dating and getting to know new people for the next little while. 
So... after about 5 hours of sleep and a days worth of work. I'm freaking falling asleep typing this.
Sleep well and take care
I had a good week... I went out with the girl to dinner for my birthday last week and I admitted to her that the whole situation was getting to me. It was a really nice evening but we decided it would probably be best if I didn't see her for a couple of weeks... Core of the situation is; I can enjoy myself in a non-relationship pretty well, but not if people get really close. If you just want to shag me, that's fine... But don't text me every day and hold my hand okplzthnx! That keeps things nice and separate, and in place.
Who knows...
Anyway. I did what most guys would do... Got back on the market.
I scored a cute girls phone number on a party last weekend and went on a date with her yesterday. (Can you spell rebound?) Ended up kicking her out @ 4am because I was expected to do construction work today (erm ja... laminaat leggen dus). Off course I don't know where this new situation will lead. But it feels great to have the guts to try it again after a year of being too scared too commit even the tiniest bit. I think I feel quite comfortable with the prospect of just dating and getting to know new people for the next little while. So... after about 5 hours of sleep and a days worth of work. I'm freaking falling asleep typing this.
Sleep well and take care
It's almost my birthday
My plans for tomorrow? Work, and the girl buying me dinner.. Although that might end up in another serious conversation considering the situation... Wish I wasn't so g*d*mn serious about it Anyway... I'll try and have some fun tomorrow
My plans for tomorrow? Work, and the girl buying me dinner.. Although that might end up in another serious conversation considering the situation... Wish I wasn't so g*d*mn serious about it
Anyway... I'll try and have some fun tomorrow
Ok... Since there hasn't been an update in a month Ill do a quicky.
First of, I have a new job... Or at least a new placement. It's right here in Den Haag and I like it way better than the last placement, were they had me doing stuff waaaay below my level... It's still the computer stuff. I have been aplying for other jobs and have had 2 job interviews in the last year... Sadly no new employment yet no worries though, I'll get there! Too bad there's really no new advertisements @ the moment, so job application is at a standstill. Must be the cucumbers...
Love life; I've been steadily growing into a "situation"... A friends-with-benefits, that I have been seeing for a couple of months, and I decided it was maybe time to get to know each other a bit better. So for the last two weeks I saw her some more (we used to meet up maybe once a month, now I saw her about 7 times...). This weekend it imploded a bit because of jealousy on my part, and fear of being held down on hers... So she ended up doing exactly what I feared (well, a bit less actually) with another guy... We talked about it though, which was very nice, and we decided to be more honest and continue to find out what's there between us. Now she's on holiday for two weeks, so we'll see what happens when she's back...
So I guess the core of my blog this time is that there is no real growth without pain, but there's beauty in the breakdown
(Song: Frou Frou - Let go)
First of, I have a new job... Or at least a new placement. It's right here in Den Haag and I like it way better than the last placement, were they had me doing stuff waaaay below my level... It's still the computer stuff. I have been aplying for other jobs and have had 2 job interviews in the last year... Sadly no new employment yet
no worries though, I'll get there! Too bad there's really no new advertisements @ the moment, so job application is at a standstill. Must be the cucumbers... Love life; I've been steadily growing into a "situation"... A friends-with-benefits, that I have been seeing for a couple of months, and I decided it was maybe time to get to know each other a bit better. So for the last two weeks I saw her some more (we used to meet up maybe once a month, now I saw her about 7 times...). This weekend it imploded a bit because of jealousy on my part, and fear of being held down on hers... So she ended up doing exactly what I feared (well, a bit less actually) with another guy... We talked about it though, which was very nice, and we decided to be more honest and continue to find out what's there between us. Now she's on holiday for two weeks, so we'll see what happens when she's back...
So I guess the core of my blog this time is that there is no real growth without pain, but there's beauty in the breakdown
(Song: Frou Frou - Let go)
I haven't had a proper shag in 2 months and I'm not driving my head into any walls yet...
Well this is totally new
Usually I'd be ravaging my phone at this point. I actually had 4 good conversations with girls this weekend without trying to come on to them... And yes, they were good-looking Losing my touch? Nah... But I guess I'm changing it. Could be that it's just the summer vibes though that make me less craving for attention... 
Oh and I think the dog might be actually eating my socks on her weekend stays. I have no other explanation to where else they could be going
Well this is totally new
Usually I'd be ravaging my phone at this point. I actually had 4 good conversations with girls this weekend without trying to come on to them... And yes, they were good-looking
Losing my touch? Nah... But I guess I'm changing it. Could be that it's just the summer vibes though that make me less craving for attention... Oh and I think the dog might be actually eating my socks on her weekend stays. I have no other explanation to where else they could be going
Yesterday I went out for a drink with Ginger_E in Den Haag. (Nice to meet you!) We had a couple of beers (and a cocktail) and talked about life in general.
Anyway. I realized when talking to her about traveling that I am really looking forward to going to De Gentse Feesten once more! I've been there about 3 times but the atmosphere never stops to amaze me. It's like KoninginneNach but then 10 days non stop. It's got everything!!
Street artists? They got it!
World music? They got it!
Techno, electro, trance? They got it!
Lots of cool bands including an air guitar competition? They got it!
Vintage clothing? They got it!
Jazz music only old people like? They got it...
Freaky art instalations? They got it!
Friendly people all over? They got it!
Partying till dawn, you got it!!
Here's some pictures so you get the general idea;
Anyway. I realized when talking to her about traveling that I am really looking forward to going to De Gentse Feesten once more! I've been there about 3 times but the atmosphere never stops to amaze me. It's like KoninginneNach but then 10 days non stop. It's got everything!!
Street artists? They got it!
World music? They got it!
Techno, electro, trance? They got it!
Lots of cool bands including an air guitar competition? They got it!
Vintage clothing? They got it!
Jazz music only old people like?
They got it...Freaky art instalations?
They got it! Friendly people all over? They got it!
Partying till dawn, you got it!!
Here's some pictures so you get the general idea;
8 in the morning and still cramped with people 
Ah... The joy of it all... You get it, right? Anyway. It's from 19 till 28 July. And I'll be there from 25 till 28. You guys should come too!! I promise you won't regret this one
OCTOBER 2008