So...essentially, I LOVE working at the Co-op and I LOVE helping to run the Deli...but since we've expanded, it's just been one sloppy mess after the other. I've had a FULL staff for about 3 weeks out of the 4 months I've had my position there. I've had bosses yell, people slack and demand raises, customers praise and complain...though I get the complaints MORE...ill working appliances and equipment because the Store Manager can sometimes walk around with NO BALLS and is cheap...and I'm on call just about all the time. When I'm not at work, I'm still working...I get calls for seriously idiotic things...and seriously...well, serious things. I get called in...I end up working for short to long periods of time when I just go in there to do my shopping! Needless to say, it's just gotten to be too much for me. I really want to go back to school and work somewhere calmer and less demanding. So...just when I was about to hit the end of my rope, I passed by a local piercing/tattoo shop who's looking for a full time receptionist/clerk. DING DING DING...PICK ME!!!! I applied and have an interview this coming Tues. I keep putting out there into the universe that I really want this job...that I've worked so hard and I deserve it...I can do so much more with my art there and have time to go back to school. Please Universe, PLEASE let me have THIS JOB!!!

So, I fell into somewhat of a deep depression this week...which I'm climbing out of as we speak...well...as you read. I've been trying to contact my Ex's Sister...but, she has not called me back. I always tell myself that she's very busy with a full time job and two kids...but she usually gets back to me when she can, even if just for 5 minutes. Lately I feel like I've just been cut from his family entirely. It's hurtful. Conan promised to always be there for me...always be a friend...and he really hasn't been. Which, in all honesty, is no big deal. I'm glad he's living his life...and I never really called or wrote him unless he called or wrote me first anyhow...
But I know for sure his current love is not comfortable with us being pals...in fact, she wrote me a letter that has led me to believe she's either misinformed...or extremely insecure...niether of which is my problem...only, I feel like it's spilling into my interactions with the family. See...if the Sister and Kids come out to Santa Fe, I can't really see them and I'm not invited usually because Conan and the Girl are there. No one wants an uncomfortable situation...and I can't go out to see them because I don't have a car.
It leaves me out in the dust...with no connection to the people I love dearly and the kids I felt so connected to. I mean c'mon, I helped deliver the first born!
I haven't done anything to deserve having the door slammed in my face...
And it fucking hurts.
A lot.
And it's really petty that someone can't get the facts straight or get over their shit and be mature about this. The easy way out is to just go on as if I don't matter or have feelings anymore...
So much for loving someone for a long time and making a serious committment...only to be cut out and slapped in the face later.

The man that I contacted to get this show going told me that he really wanted my pieces for the month of August. Well, unfortunately, I will be back home in NYC for 10 days starting next Thursday. Speaking of, anyone want Lollapolooza tix? I have two and I can't make it...
Anyhow, the reception would be the 8th...and I won't be here. So my show has been pushed back. Thankfully, this guy really loves my work and wants to show it...he's willing to show me later because he wants the prints bigger and I wouldn't have been able to afford bigger ones on time for THIS show. I will keep you guys posted as to whether it will be Sept or Oct...anyone who can make it is invited to the reception!

Becky and Myself


I think I love her because no matter what we're doing...or who's around...everything is Sex/nsual...and her kisses are to DIE for...


This is one of my Best Friends here in Santa Fe. It's funny because we almost NEVER see each other and we work in the same fucking Deli...

Ladies and Gents, I present to you my Lover and Our Love in All it's Glory


D and Meghan. D and I are pretty good friends...she bakes in the Deli. Meghan is the Roomie who doesn't actually live with us...or pay rent...but she's essential to our establishment


If you haven't Guessed already, we kicked off the party at our Place...I love this photo of Becky because she's natural and Bear because it's a RARE moment with her hair down

Nothing Beats Freshly Ground Peanut Butter n Honey, Peaches n Tea for Breakfast


YUM


We Hiked down to the lake...Sunbathed Topless...


Swam...Sat...Reflected


And Caught an amazingly beautiful sunset...