For more details about why I'm too busy.

I had a cancer scare this summer that I had to get a piece of my uterus removed. It sucked.

I got a second job so I work about 50 hours a week or more and I work 12 hour days 3 days a week. So I mostly sleep and work. And still don't have enough money to move out.

I feel like I spend more time on Tumblr anyway, I can blog on there if I feel like it but honestly I'm usually so tired I just want to look at the pictures and reblog and whatnot.

I don't keep in contact with anyone except my mom, my grandparents, my boyfriend and my 2 best friends.

I don't even see my best friends or boyfriend as much as I would like.

My grandparents also require constant attention. Me and my mom grocery shop for them, do their laundry, pick up their prescriptions, drive them to the doctor, everything. and tomorrow my grandpa is having yet another eye surgery so he can maybe see some shadows instead of nothing at all.

Also filming a reality tv show during the summer really sucked.

All in all I'm tired.

I never ever have time to blog. I closed my account. So at the end of the year it's the end of my subscription.

Follow my Twitter or Tumblr if you want. But I really feel like no one is even going to notice.

Things are going downhill in my life when they should be getting better.

I'm graduating in a few weeks, my last day of class is next Tuesday but with the death in my family and then the death of someone I knew, followed by this medical news....

I just don't know if I can handle it.

I haven't truly wanted to cut myself in years, but I don't just want to cut I want to end my life.

Things will never be the same again.