The backyard alone is enough to want this house. Check it: two lime and plum trees, a cherry tree, a walnut tree that technically belongs to the neighbor, horseshoe pits, a bar-b-que pit, and a garden patch. It's a pretty big backyard. I will also get the master bedroom and my own bathroom -- oh yes.
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Let's backtrack a bit, shall we? I admit to doing some very stupid things over the past four or five months. I'll be honest; I got into drugs. The bad, bad kind. I would be so bold to say that if I hadn't stopped I would be dead by winter. My wee body simply could not handle the substances being put in it.
Being clean is a wonderful feeling. I'm happy. I care. I can appreciate all the little things, like seeing the Milky Way out here. Sitting with friends and not have to worry about the next high. That long lost feeling of being content. I want to paint -- it has been well over three years. Not being the monster I had become. I am laughing and smiling again.
I hurt a lot of people along the way. Namely the girl I said I would always love. I still do, of course, but if there was a chance in hell of being together ..gone. I could apologize for the rest of my life and it still won't be enough. If only words were like band-aids. We just barely started "talking" again and if that is the best I can get, I'll take it. I will love her always.
I can't change the past, but I can take what I have experienced, learn from it, and keep moving forward.
AUG 30, 2006 10:28 AM
dont know where to start but here goes. i am glad you found yourself again and got rid of that life threatening monkey, drugs. i have watched too many people throw their lives away for them, my sister is one of them. as for the house it sounds great, if i found a place like that i would move in there in a heartbeat.
paint, express yourself. maybe thru painting again your love can come thru and she will see it in your expressions there, never say never, there is always a chance, and for you i hope it works out. we have been chatting for quite some time, and you have been thru a lot in your life, just take life and each precious day and enjoy them. 
almostfamous
NEWSWIRE
United Kingdom
AUG 30, 2006 10:37 AM
i'm glad i didn't know, i would have gone mad with worry. i've had a few times i've thought of you and been sad we drifted apart, but i always pictured you doing well, being happy. i'm sad that wasn't the case, but so, so happy you were strong enough to put it behind you.
i still have a lot of love for you kid, and i still hope you get everything you wish for. i'm glad you're on the right track for that now. congratulations sweetie, i'm proud of you
AUG 30, 2006 12:54 PM
sweet deal on the house! that will be nice. hopefully the boys aren't too messy or difficult to live with.
so glad you were able to get yourself on the right track again! not everyone is so lucky. i've known lots of people that have gone down the drain because of drugs. all we can do is learn from our experiences and forge on to bigger and better things.
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