I can't believe this, I am back. It has been i think almost two years since i was a member. SG has been trying like hell to get me to resubscribe offering me deals and discounts. Then just now i find an email waiting for me in my inbox saying someone, who wants to stay anonymous, has resubscribed me for another 3 months. Paid for and no strings attached. I can only think two things; who are you mystery person so i can thank you OR is it SG doing some clever free trial thing and linking it to my old account and only making it appear like it was someone who truely missed me being around. Hmmm....
I don't care, either way i am excited to be back and see some gorgeous naked women again!

It is official. I am going to cancel my account at the end of the month. I just don't feel that excitement for the site anymore. Most of the sets that go up are all glamed out and photoshoped. Boring. And even though I do have friends on my list, none of them message me or comment. Not that I give them any reason too. I almost never do it my self. So why should I expect someone else to. And my blogs have been very far and few between. I am just not into it anymore. All I really wanted was to look at some everyday hot chicks naked. Raw, uncensored, and real. Ocassionally SG still puts them up, but it is all about the professional photographer now. Makeup and lighting. Touched up and fake. Booooo!
Don't get me wrong. SG had its moments and still does. But there are other sites on the internet that wont make me feel llike I am wasting my money.
Thank you to all who did leave comments and sent messages. It was great (meeting?) you. But this is my last blog.

So it has been a while since I posted a blog. So here goes.
My life has become less stressful, yay! I finished that project I was working on down on Martha's Vineyard. Took almost 7 months! But its done! And it looks awsome. I love transformong peoples homes into something they only had imagined. Meeting their expectations is always the stressful part and our clients were more than thrilled at the finished product. Funny though, spending so much time there it kind of became a secoond home and I sort of miss being there. Sitting on the porch we built and listening to the birds early in the morning. Staring at the crazy twisted coastal oak trees. Watching them sway in the breeze. You wonder how a tree that looks so off balanced can stay standinig for fifty years through hurricanes and storms with winds pushing 50 mph winds. I will miss the place but the upside is that our clients are now good friends and we are welcome to visit anytime. I might just take them up on that one of these days.
What now, well it is winter. Kind of limits your options as a contractor. So once again, I am traveling out to San Francisco. Gonna spend about three weeks helping my brother in law with fixing his house so he can sell it. It will certainly be nice to be in warmer weather. And to see friends that I only see once or twice a year. Sad news though having to spend three weeks away from my girlfriend when I just came home two weeks ago. And this time I won't have the luxury of traveling back for a weekend. But bills keep coming and you have to pay them some how. Usually work helps with that. So I will take what I can get. So I bought a couple new porn videos to keep me faithful while I am away and I will be back before I know it.
So that is my life right now, for those of you who read this. Which I imagine are few if any. Wish I had some exciting news about a cool show I went to or some crazy sexcapade I was involved in, but I just haven't had the time for either. Well, the sexcapade thing is hard to do when your girlfriend isn't into that but who needs sexcapades when you have the love of a good woman I do! Oh well, can't have it all...

Lets see. I was told I needed to update. I really don't have that exciting of a life to talk about. I have been working out on Martha's Vineyard for the last three months remodeling a home. But I can't wait to finish and get back up to Maine for the fall. My girlfriend can't wait too. Speaking of, she must be cheating on me by now. I don't have any proof. Really I just wonder why somneone would stick around for someone who is never around. She either lives a very uncomplicated life and doesn't mind being alone and doesn't mind NOT having sex regularly or she has someone else she sees on the side when I am not around. Or maybe she actually loves me. And I am just projecting my insecurities because it is I who is growing tired of spending more time apart than together. Its like this, when we are together, man I want to hump like rabbits and she just doesn't seem that interested. When I travel back up there its every other weekend. And we do it maybe twice when I would prefer twice a day. Seeing how as I am going to have to go with out for two whole weeks. She makes it seem like she doesn't mind.Arrgghh!! I understand she wants quality time too. So don't I. I take her out for dinners, lunch, even breakfast. We play tennis together. We watch the ball games together. Play Yahtze in the park. We share lots of moments. I even spoil her with tons of gifts. Yet come intimate time I just wish she wanted it as much as I do. I have to do all the "wooing" and the turning on. Which isn't much of a turn on for me. It becomes a vicious cycle.
I guess everything I wrote basically leads me to this. I don't feel that she is as passionate about me as I am about her. Kinda making me feel like the passion is really just infatuation. On my part. And infatuation wears off.
I guess we have alot to tlalk about. I don't know what we will resolve but we need to be honest with each other if anything.
Well, I guess I rambled enough about my unhappiness trying to be happy.
I just want a woman who is spontaneous and passionate and outgoing as well as self confident, intelligent, funny, and gorgeous. Is that asking for too much.....

I haven't wrote much lately...umm...So, My trip to SF was rough getting started and getting home, but being there was great. I really missed alot of things. My girlfriend had a great time as well. I wished we had more time to spend there though. There was still so much I wanted to do and show her. Next time I guess. I told my ex, via email, that I couldn't meet her. No reason why, just short and simple, and in reply to a drink invite I went with the : "I am gonna have to pass." Haven't heard from her and I don't expect her to reply.... But yet I still hope she does. Why do I have to feel the way I do. I know we shouldn't be connected anymore and for the reason that, I wish we still were. But, I am healing. And I think that it would only be damaging if I was to see her in person. .
Maybe someday,... but not today.....

So I am back and forth about this new site design. I was so use to the old way but this one is growing on me fast. I especially like the fact that they upped the image size in our albums. It gives you a little more room when you have to resize all the time.

I posted in my last entry that I bought a new car, '65 Dodge Dart GT convertible (I just like the way that sounds). Well I managed to post a pic of it now thanks to the aforementioned. She is gonna need quite a bit of work initially, but thankfully mostly engine work. The body is in fair condition with a few bangs and bruises. But if you can see her with a different eye like I can, she is gonna be sweet!




Anyway, as you can see I am excited about my new car, but sadly I am still away out on Martha's Vineyard. And I only travel back every other weekend. So I haven't gotten to spend any time workin on her yet. But we have been workin away down here and our project is moving along very well. I think we are still on schedule to be done before the seasons change to cold. Just in time to get her in a garage and work on her through thte winter. Come next summer she is gonna be carting my ass around in style.

So question, my exwife wants to have dinner with me while I am out in SF in a few weeks. I kind of want to, but the thing is this. My now girlfriend is coming to SF with me. We are going to watch the Sox's play the A's.(Go Bo Sox's!) I go every year. And this year I thought it would be nice to take her along with me. (And I say take because I have to pay for everything if I want her to come because she is broke; but that is another story, I kind of like being a sugar daddy..anyway...) So I explained to my ex that my girlfriend was gonna be with me and she probably would be a little uncomfortable with the whole situation as well as I. Seeing her new man, the one she left me for, would make me a little upset I think. And my ex said that her new man already said it was OK with him if she and I wanted to have dinner with out bf's/gf's..So I guess my question is should I ask my new girlfirend to be understanding and let me disappear for a few hours to meet my exwife for dinner while she entertains herself wondering the worst casse scenerio's?....

She has nothing to worry about as far as me and my ex hooking up again... Or maybe she should worry. Maybe I want to have dinner with her to see what kind of flame still burns between us. If at all. I do think about her alot when I am alone, but when I am with my new girlfriend she doesn't even cross my mind. I somehow see arguing to be a certainty. From both sides. My new girlfriend and my exwife. I
don't know.......any thoughts or comments ...

Lets see....Its almost my b-day. I am turning 28. In just a couple of days. But damn does it feel like 50. So I decided to buy myself a gift. A 65 dodge dart gt covertible. Red with black stripes up the hood. It needs quite a bit of work but I think it is gonna be worth it. Oh and I am thinking about getting some more ink. Its been more than three years since the last time I had some done. I am sort of excited about it. I'll be more excited when the work is done...

Sox's lost tonight... to the yankees...again...argh!!! Mother father ..piece of shoe

Its raining. What to do. What to do. Besides looking at naked chicks, because all that gets me is horny. So now I am bored and horny. Ahh!!

Well I guess I should inform you all that in a week or two I will not be able to check in and see how you all are doing. I am going to be working out of state again. For about three months out on Martha's Vineyard. And this time there will most likely be no internet access readily available. Unless I go to a WIFY spot or something. I know you will all miss me so much and will be countng the days till I return, hahaha. And I know I am gonna miss something really cool. Because that just the way it goes for me. All the good stuff happens when I am away.

Well, maybe some of you will be in the island as well and we will run into each other. Right, whats the chances of that happening. I will keep my fingers crossed, but I won't hold my breath.

Well I guess its off to run errands in the rain. Go visit my brother and get stoned or something.

Mother's Day is only two days away. I hope no one has forgot and and everyone has done something or planned something special for their Mom. Living hundreds of miles away, I used ProFlowers. They have a very easy website and lots of great choices. All are picked fresh and delivered in the same day. There is a price to pay for freshness and quick delivery, but Mom is worth it.

Today was a very good day. A huge weight has been lifted. And expense as well. I rented out my vacant apartment today. Yay! It wasn't all that bad, looking back. It was thrown at me while I was out of state, but I think I handled it pretty well. I could have posted it sooner had I not procrastinated but it worked out timing wise with college letting out for the summer and students wanting to rent now so they have a place to come back to next semester.

I am glad I was able to help.