so it's been a strange two days, and since no one is ever going to read this, and i seem to not be able to sleep, i'm just going to put it all down here.

so there's this girl, she's pretty great, and i seem to have developed a bit of a crush on her. we have hung out the last two days, and it's been really fun. but i dont think she's into me. my friends do, but i guess i'm just too dense. she's just coming off a weird relationship, and i'm not exactly at my best, but that's the subject of the next paragraph. i really dont know what to do. this girl is pretty great, beautiful, a bit on the nerdy side. and she even has a scrunchy nose. which i have a soft spot for. i really wish i could just sleep on it, but the whole insomnia thing is really working against me.

so i'm enjoying learning how to be a barrista, and i love everything about the place i work for, but today i learned something that i really could have gone without. most of my relationship problems stem from one girl. she destroyed every bit of my self esteem over a few years, and i still have lingering social anxiety due to the devastation that was our relationship. and now the reception for her wedding is at MY coffee shop. WTF. at least i dont have to work, but really, hasent she caused enough problems. this girl is evil. and i mean spawn of hell evil. at least she doesnt live in town, so i never have to see her again. and i'm pretty sure that if she ever comes into the shop i can treat her like shit and refuse service and not get fired.

i'm going to try to learn to play another song on the banjo. and maybe get some more sleep.
i want to say that i hope tomorrow will be better than today, but today wasnt really that bad, i just hope something gives. i hope that something changes tomorrow. better or worse, at least i wont be in a holding pattern anymore

i started my training as a barista this week. I work for a locally owned coffee shop here in town, it's really awesome. my boss is one of my best friends, and her parents own the joint, and they are equally as cool. The other workers there seem to really love their jobs, and the atmosphere in the shop is really amazing. i'm really looking foreward to working there

on other news I start my Anatomy & Physiology summer class in about a week or so. I dont think i am supposed to be excited about summer classes, but i am.

Ryan = Nerd

so in an effort to blog more here comes another

the new El-P album is the shit

go forth and educate

so i'm going to try to blog here more often, it probably wont last, but i'll try nonetheless.

so spiderman 3 is out, i didnt get to go to the midnight because of finals, so that;s where i'm going now

two finals down, and i'm pissed i cant go to the midnight spiderman 3 because i have another final at 10 in the morning

So it's the calm before the storm. My first final is thursday at 9, then i have four days of that, and then i'm free until summer classes start. A whole month to be dedicated to riding my bike, and trying to play my banjo well enough to play with Wames and Sam's band.

against me! was awesome last night. but today was the lazy day after where i miss most of my classes. i guess there's always tomorrow.

a snow day without a snow day.

it's the first snow we've had all year, and classes didnt get cancelled. it seems like kind of a jip. i was hoping to get up this morning, turn on the tv, and then go back to bed, but no. they didnt cancel classes. so i had to be at school for my psychology test. but now im back home, and am about to take a nap before public speaking.

naps are awesome

i finally have some free time, so i installed linux on my computer. it seems i wasnt dorky enough before, with the constant d&d playing and video games. now i get to try to talk to my uninterested friends about how easy it is to install ubuntu. they are pretty awesome, and some of them even pretend to care.

other than that it's pretty normal on all fronts. no girls like me. i start back to school soon, and my friends are always around to cheer me up.

i heart my friends