Got a much needed haircut, I hate having all that hair on my head. Now I can just wear a beanie and not have horrible hat hair. 
Gotta pack up the car today and go back out to my apartment on long island, less than 4 months left! Have a good weekend everyone!
yeah my one arm looks kind of weird oh well
Gotta pack up the car today and go back out to my apartment on long island, less than 4 months left! Have a good weekend everyone! yeah my one arm looks kind of weird oh well
Just wanted to say thanks and sorry for having to leave the chat tonight ladies! zombierosejackrabbit_selkand terilyn Just got back home now and could use some sleep
Haven't posted a new picture in a while, not that I look any different but fuck it why not? Started lifting again, I really need to keep it up this time. I want to be bulkier. Or at least not look like a stick. Hope everyone had a great Wednesday, week is halfway over! Cheers to that. 
So I just did the dating persona test, posted it in the hopeless romantic threads thought I'd share it here. It is almost dead on kinda cool.
The Backrubber
Lusty but indirect. Kind, but also using friendship as a means to sex. Oh, that feels gooood. You are The Backrubber.
We call you “The Backrubber” because you straddle that fine line between coming on to someone and just treating her nicely. Backrubs are just one example; you’d meet for coffee, or talk about books/movies, or even argue a little bit, all the while mostly preferring to screw.
Your indirect approach is not some evil trickery, but rather a result of your open mind. You’d enjoy either love or sex, but the latter definitely doesn’t require the former. While you are responsible and ambitious, you absolutely DON’T have uptight views on relationships. So ultimately, you just enjoy a woman, and let things take their course. If she wants you, great. If not, that’s fine too.
Though you’re not thinking too much about Love at this point in your life, odds are, when the time comes, you’ll be very happy settling down. Your ideal mate is gentle and horny, just like you.
I'd say its about 98% me. I wouldn't say I use situations in order to gain sex, I just think the option for physical activities (sex, or even just kissing and the such) should be on the table more times then not.
Anyway not much going on, I move back to Long Island in a week for the last 4 months of classes. Kind of crazy to think I am graduating in May but I can't wait to get out of there. I'll miss some people but bigger and better things await, and hopefully a girlfriend will await my future. Could use some new friends on here to chit chat with
The Backrubber
Lusty but indirect. Kind, but also using friendship as a means to sex. Oh, that feels gooood. You are The Backrubber.
We call you “The Backrubber” because you straddle that fine line between coming on to someone and just treating her nicely. Backrubs are just one example; you’d meet for coffee, or talk about books/movies, or even argue a little bit, all the while mostly preferring to screw.
Your indirect approach is not some evil trickery, but rather a result of your open mind. You’d enjoy either love or sex, but the latter definitely doesn’t require the former. While you are responsible and ambitious, you absolutely DON’T have uptight views on relationships. So ultimately, you just enjoy a woman, and let things take their course. If she wants you, great. If not, that’s fine too.
Though you’re not thinking too much about Love at this point in your life, odds are, when the time comes, you’ll be very happy settling down. Your ideal mate is gentle and horny, just like you.
I'd say its about 98% me. I wouldn't say I use situations in order to gain sex, I just think the option for physical activities (sex, or even just kissing and the such) should be on the table more times then not.
Anyway not much going on, I move back to Long Island in a week for the last 4 months of classes. Kind of crazy to think I am graduating in May but I can't wait to get out of there. I'll miss some people but bigger and better things await, and hopefully a girlfriend will await my future. Could use some new friends on here to chit chat with
I think tonight will be a night that involves a few beers... feeling weird not sure why. I think its gotta do with shit from the past. Meh. I'll be on later if anyone is around shoot me a message
With a new year upon us I think I need to set my resolution. I need to leave 2012 in the past, shit, I need to leave 2011, and 2012 in the past. My relationship went to SHIT, she was trying too much to fix her low self esteem by getting OTHER guys attention, I, was too concerned with making her happy so I let her do what she felt she needed (flirt, fuck, and so forth) with other guys. This was nothing new for 2012 though, but as it continued and our relationship diminished NEITHER ONE OF US did anything about it. I was stuck in "lala" land thinking it would all work out, she, apparently, had already decided it was over but didn't want to lose what she was getting from me. A free pass at any guy, free emotional benefits, and being spoiled.
I feel as if now I can see things I couldn't earlier. How what she did, how she acted, how she thought was all tied together. Before we were together her and her boyfriend (a marine living on the other side of the country at the time) had gotten engaged (he asked, she was a stupid 17 year old all giddy to be married and said yes). Then he began cheating on her and finally broke up and we ended up meeting. All she wanted from day one was to be married. Come back around though, she had been cheating on him with other people as well. And so, now I can open my eyes to it, she had a shitty moral compass, I have read conversations between her and other people where she said she would sleep with people "just because" or because she didnt want to lose them as a friend. Now, reading, and understanding all of this makes me realize this girl did need someone that was concerned about her happiness, but not the way I was, she needs HER SELF to be concerned with her happiness. I am not knocking anyone for sleeping with anyone, your body you do what you want BUT I am knocking her on it because she did it while in committed relationships and used her body to get what she wanted. I was strung along, pulled by the string attached to me like a child's play toy that he pulls along the floor as it follows behind, never leading the way but always being pulled, knocked around, and eventually let go as the person pulling the string never looks back. Now she says she is happy, with another guy, well it is still only a few months in but maybe she has finally changed? Maybe now she has learned, it appears that way some times. She doesn't dress the way she use to, she seems loyal, she seems to mean what she says; and she has changed in certain ways, her taste, what she's willing to do (much more social now, I think she felt I was "holding her back") and most importantly, she doesn't need me anymore. She continues to press me about being friends, what she doesn't get is that we never were friends. It was always flirtatious, loving, and so forth.
So now that she is in the past, it is time I keep it there. We both fucked up, can't deny that but where I messed up I knew I did and it hurt ontop of that it was only a small part of it, she had no issue with what she did, at all. So on this last day of 2012 I plan to go on about my normal day, starting tomorrow I hope I can leave her in the past. I am so much better off, I do believe I am happier but I don't know if it is true. I let someone destroy my confidence, my sex drive, and my previous past. Now I have to not let her destroy my future. I have to swallow the moments when I feel down because of her, I have to keep my head up, I have to be the person I want to be.
If ANYONE read that all the way through, thank you, as 2013 comes along you are truly my friend. I hope you have a great new year and are safe!
I feel as if now I can see things I couldn't earlier. How what she did, how she acted, how she thought was all tied together. Before we were together her and her boyfriend (a marine living on the other side of the country at the time) had gotten engaged (he asked, she was a stupid 17 year old all giddy to be married and said yes). Then he began cheating on her and finally broke up and we ended up meeting. All she wanted from day one was to be married. Come back around though, she had been cheating on him with other people as well. And so, now I can open my eyes to it, she had a shitty moral compass, I have read conversations between her and other people where she said she would sleep with people "just because" or because she didnt want to lose them as a friend. Now, reading, and understanding all of this makes me realize this girl did need someone that was concerned about her happiness, but not the way I was, she needs HER SELF to be concerned with her happiness. I am not knocking anyone for sleeping with anyone, your body you do what you want BUT I am knocking her on it because she did it while in committed relationships and used her body to get what she wanted. I was strung along, pulled by the string attached to me like a child's play toy that he pulls along the floor as it follows behind, never leading the way but always being pulled, knocked around, and eventually let go as the person pulling the string never looks back. Now she says she is happy, with another guy, well it is still only a few months in but maybe she has finally changed? Maybe now she has learned, it appears that way some times. She doesn't dress the way she use to, she seems loyal, she seems to mean what she says; and she has changed in certain ways, her taste, what she's willing to do (much more social now, I think she felt I was "holding her back") and most importantly, she doesn't need me anymore. She continues to press me about being friends, what she doesn't get is that we never were friends. It was always flirtatious, loving, and so forth.
So now that she is in the past, it is time I keep it there. We both fucked up, can't deny that but where I messed up I knew I did and it hurt ontop of that it was only a small part of it, she had no issue with what she did, at all. So on this last day of 2012 I plan to go on about my normal day, starting tomorrow I hope I can leave her in the past. I am so much better off, I do believe I am happier but I don't know if it is true. I let someone destroy my confidence, my sex drive, and my previous past. Now I have to not let her destroy my future. I have to swallow the moments when I feel down because of her, I have to keep my head up, I have to be the person I want to be.
If ANYONE read that all the way through, thank you, as 2013 comes along you are truly my friend. I hope you have a great new year and are safe!
Super horny, just putting it out there, panties and bras on a fine lady is so much hotter than just stripped naked.
Just wanted to say Happy Holidays to everyone. Back home in NJ for about a month. Some time to relax and work my ass off (contradiction?) Well, relax from classes, I love working so that'll be great. Hopefully get on here more often. Always looking for someone to chat with, feel free to message me if you are around .
Hope everyone is safe, happy, and merry. Who knows, maybe someone lucky will get a wishlist present if I make a new friend.
love all ya.
. Hope everyone is safe, happy, and merry. Who knows, maybe someone lucky will get a wishlist present if I make a new friend.
love all ya.
Its been a while! Just been really busy trying to finish up crap for classes and working.
Going to be starting a new project next month which I am pretty excited about. Going to be shooting with 120 film with a Bronica SQ 2 1/4 camera. Going to photograph a few different people but each photograph will be different body parts that will then be composited after into completed portraits. It should be really fun and a bit of a challange as one completed portrait will contain body parts from different people. Going around the fact that while we are all unique and different we are all still humans.
Well, that is all the random information I have to say. Finally going to have some free time so message me!! I miss the great people of SG and the beautiful ladies.
Going to be starting a new project next month which I am pretty excited about. Going to be shooting with 120 film with a Bronica SQ 2 1/4 camera. Going to photograph a few different people but each photograph will be different body parts that will then be composited after into completed portraits. It should be really fun and a bit of a challange as one completed portrait will contain body parts from different people. Going around the fact that while we are all unique and different we are all still humans.
Well, that is all the random information I have to say. Finally going to have some free time so message me!!
I miss the great people of SG and the beautiful ladies. 