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i have too many other good things going on right now. i have too much positive energy surrounding me to let this one scant misfortune get the best of me.
i have the most amazing friends anyone could ask for.
(shes one of the most beautiful people i know, inside &out.)
im going to hawaii in december with these weirdos:
i have a job i love.
&im starting a second job in a few days, &i think im going to love that one, too.
i have a photo exhibition the first week of august.
i love this city more &more every fucking day.
&im still going to walk across this fucking country next year, whether the doctors like it or not.
&. when im settled back down after my walk, i want to get a pet skunk.
in the meantime, i still have prints left, so if you want to help me pay for my biopsies &other medical expenses, please buy one! my cervix will love you forever.
eat a dick, cancer.
yep, new lyxzen set in member review! this set is:
1...the second in a two part series, preceded by my bff, miss silencias member review set, rest stop relief pt 1!
2...the most risqué and, ahem, "up close &personal" of any of my other sets!
3...__________ ---> you fill in the blank by leaving a comment!
if youre not familiar with member review just yet, its SGs way of finding out what members like, love, &want to see more of...so if you check out any member review sets in the future (&you should! theres so much hotness happening over there, its insane!), please please leave a comment to let both the SG powers that be &the girls whove posted their sets know that you like what you see!
we dont get paid for our sets unless theyre chosen to be "set of the day" on the main page, &since your support goes a long way toward influencing SGs decision to buy a set, we love your feedback!!
thank you so much to everyone whos commented thus far...your love, appreciation, &silly jokes mean so much to me &have made me smile so big!! spread the word, so we can keep spreadin our legs! hehe!
&because i feel like sharing something with you that makes me smile, i leave you with this:
guess what?! i found my oldold little tiny camera. well, its not really tiny by todays standards (it blew minds, it was so small back in 2002 or 2003!), but it has VIDEO! so here is a VIDEO!!
hahahaha, if you need an explanation, its me &my friend manda dancing a sped-up version of a smiths cover our friends band did...this is what happens when you dont have day jobs!
SO! as part of my next journal entry, i think id like to do one of those videos where i answer questions youve got, soooo message me with "VIDEO Q" as the subject, &ill answer probably any question youve got. fun? fun!
okayokay, because everyone knows i lovelovelove lists, highlights in lyxzenland as of late include:
+ multiple epic roadtrips through california!
- dead cameras &shitty memory cards!
+ oh hey, no big deal, but shooting sets with amazing photographers! (JULY 17TH!! MEMBER REVIEW!! PREPARE TO HAVE YOUR MIND BLOWN!! hottest set ive ever shot...)
- sets take too darn long to go up!
+ adventures with awesome new roommates!
- missing old roommate!
+ spending time with some of the raddest friends i have!
- a few of those friends still being away on tour!
+ new job!
- still kind of broke for now!
+ (but un-broke enough to eat, pay bills, &get a cheap tattoo!)
(its a cover-up in progress)
+ breaking the +/- pattern, because im out of minuses!!
+ shooting lots of rad projects! dddanger.com
+ fuck you, anxiety!
+ hair long enough that i can put it all up!
+ sunshine, &summer, &even sweating! LOVE IT.
+ exclamation points!!!
life is fucking good!
&hey, if *you* are reading this...
did you see me on fuse today? i was playing twister on one of the warped wednesday clips! 
last night i got home from the emerald city comicon in seattle, &as awesome as it is to be home, im so sad that its all over! meeting all of the other SGs was a blast, &staff members jorie and viquiv were amazing too...i just wish i could have spent more time getting to know you girls!
miss sedora was lovely enough to put us up for the weekend -- i cant thank her enough! it was SUCH a fun weekend, but i was beyond exhausted by the end of it. i cant wait till the next convention! 
(me & the awesome wilwheaton)
&some stolen from doxies blog:
(charm, doxie, marigold, kara, blyss, madeleine, me, doxie, amelinda, silencia, sedora, skully!)
a little while before that, me and miss silencia ventured even farther north to vancouver, BC to shoot with the always amazing cherry. there simply arent words for what perfect hosts she and matthew are...thank you a thousand times over!
other highlights include: meeting miss moira (we were lucky that her stay and ours overlapped! ); meeting maiwan at one of the BC burlesque festivals events; spending more time with glitch; relaxing &tea &talking &giggling; gorgeous weather (even if it was still really chilly); deliciousness in the form of sushi &other japanese yummies, bizarre canadian shirley temples, gelato, the foundation, and loads of candy; parking tickets; and puking. okay, maybe the last two weren't highlights, per se, but they happened!
(me &silencia, by mr. matthew)
(on the way to dinner)
&some stolen from silencia:
(me, moira, cherry, silencia, &glitch)
&before THAT, lyxzen got her drivers license (finally), &finalized all of the name change business, too:
me &silencia leave for our california road trip next week, &wed love to shoot a set or two, but we cant seem to get a hold of any of the photographers along our route...cross your fingers for us, &if youd like to support our cause, you know what to do!
to switch gears a little bit, ive been having some really weird anxiety lately. i was initially thinking it was PMS, but its too frequent, even on-going now. these mini-vacations helped for a bit, but now im getting the anxiety while im away from home, too. i just have this overall feeling of dread &panic, not really about any one thing in particular. i feel like there are a million things i should be doing, but i cant seem to work up the motivation i used to be able to...has anyone else had to deal with this? if you could share your exeperiences, or any words of encouragement or advice, itd be a big help! something tells me watching shitty romantic comedies on my netflix instant viewing thinger ISNT the cure... 
details in here:
or if prints arent your thing for whatever reason, check out the other stuff ive got for sale on my myspace blog. there are about a hundred different things im trying to raise money for (details also found in said myspace blog), and anything helps!
ON WITH THE SHOW!
so whats keeping me so busy lately??
[spoiler]and i finally got my drivers license yesterday! 23 and i finally got it![/spoiiler]
SG wouldnt work on my computer for FOREVER, so i gave up checking daily, weekly, and then i just gave up altogether...LAME!
um, so HI again, and hopefully this blog posts and everything...(everythings loading at normal speed so far -- good sign!!) ill be getting back to you as soon as i can, i promise! so much to talk about, too!
ive missed you guysss!
AGH! one more thing! if you want to see a new set from me or miss silencia, you can help fund our roadtrip to a photographer by purchasing a print! shes the model, im the photographer, and were putting all of the funds toward gas money!
xo|lyxzen!
what i dont love: money (more specifically, not having enough of it), intermittent and/or nonexistent internet, shitty computer monitors, relying on technology in general, especially if its my phone, working in retail during "back to school," working retail in general, exhaustion and/or sleep deprivation, having to cook when i dont feel like it, being flaked out on, being lied to, mean boys, being flaked out on and/or lied to by mean boys, overcast days off, editing photos, anddd...cleaning my coworkers pee off the floor in the bathroom at work. yep, i think that covers it.
most days i feel a lot like this:
&now prepare yourself for lyxzens emotional rollercoaster...
i kind of just want to move to arizona...anyone in arizona want me around? i hear its reasonably cheap to live there, right?
whats that, you ask? why, thats a copy of the latest SG magazine (which is more like a book, actually), with ME on page 23!! thats just a sneak preview -- you have to go pay for it to see the whole thing!
one more thing:
can anyone tell me where my commas and ampersands tattoo came from?? i know at least one person who can! 
okay, justs kidding...NOW one more thing: please please please go comment on the rejected sets below...i shot them, and these girls are some of the most amazing, beautiful, &brilliant people ive ever met:
cosi - pdx pin-up
cosi is pretty much the perfect mix of gorgeous and adorable. shes seriously SO much fun, and shooting this set was awesome! there were even birthday cupcakes involved! im really sad i didnt get to get to know her better before she moved to LA...
dewees - trucker fag (link coming soon!!)
dewees is one of my favourite SGs ive ever met...i love this girl. i love that she has the balls (ha!) to say "fuck everything" and just live how she wants to live. i just love this girls perspective. (and we were *really* hoping this set would get accepted, for the sheer fact that its something thats never been done before 'round these parts.)
seneca - enceinte
this was shot when seneca was still preggers with baby isaac! you know that whole thing about the pregnancy glow? yeah, well, its real. seneca was absolutely gorgeous...the set was submitted unphotoshopped, too!
i love you &i miss you, SG...please make things right in my world again...
<3lyxzen.
PS: i have a LOT of catching up on emails, messages, comments, and looking at naked girls...please dont yell at me if it takes a while to get back to you! im sorry!! i love you all...
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