Sometimes I wish we could hold on to dreams a little longer. I just woke from a wild one that involved combat training and my old high school. Come to think of it, it was kinda Hunger Gamsey

For a long time I lacked something. As a kid, I was the runt of the litter. I grew up humiliated and ridiculed in school for being small. I remember in seventh grade, I was so tiny, that the picture day photographer put me on the lap of two larger girls because he thought it was humorous. I was immortalized as a tiny little boy on the laps of two larger girls in the school year book. It was traumatizing. It still bothers me to this day. And, seeing the picture is the worst.

As a result of being a little kid for so long, I became very withdrawn and self conscious of every little thing I did. I was like the kid in Almost Famous. Now, I can joke about it, that I was just advanced years ahead of everyone because I was a smart little guy. At the time though, it was brutal. I have all but virtually wiped high school out of my mind.

Through college, I slowly started to develop some sort of personality and started having girlfriends. I was a lover not a fighter, and man, did the heart ache hurt! When "the one" left me for someone else, I was crushed. It took a long time to get over that one. We all have that fairy tale romance. This was the first... with a couple more to come.

Out of college, I foolishly married too young and to the wrong person and am going to have to live with that for the rest of my life! haha. I was emasculated for a very long time and really didn't realize how much off a battered wife I had become. Since moving forward from that, somewhere in the mix... I discovered confidence.

Confidence is a life changing event. Once I realized that I had something to offer, it gave me a certain swagger. I walk differently. I carry myself differently. I became different, knowing what I had learned after the divorce. I was no longer the little kid on the laps of the girls. The tables were turned. It pays off in terms of stage presence and whatnot, but it really pays off in my ability to speak, and hold a conversation and ... well, get myself into trouble with the ladies, haha.

Coming here, it just seals it. SG is about confidence over anything and everything. It's probably the single most important attribute every girl/member here has.

Confidence.

Okay. So what seems like hundreds of years ago I was an SG member and through time and many changes in my life I have returned. After a miserable marriage, filming three movies, writing countless songs, writing a number of screenplays and abandoned blog after blog, I somehow found my way back here, Oh yeah. I wrote a novel last year too.

It's a strange thing. Somehow after my divorce, I truly started living the Hank Moody lifestyle and it kinda suits me. I enjoy it. I am happy with it and I am managing to stay (mostly) out of trouble. I was a late bloomer when it came to alcohol. I was pretty straight edge for most of my life. It wasn't until I concocted a beast of a family recipe laced with rum, rum and some more rum that the first night of debauchery in my life had really kicked in. It ended with a sleepover in a snowstorm after sitting in a hot tub with a couple girls.

I would say that since there it has all been downhill, but it hasn't. My life is golden right now. All is good. New job. Mo money. And every once in a while the rock star in me comes out and shines on stage. Hopefully, I will post more and more here as the days and weeks unfold. I'm just getting back into the swing of things here.

Hope to talk to more of you soon!