I try to strike a balance between being confrontational, and jovial in most arguments, but it seems like it's not worth the effort. It's one thing to tell some one that they're retarded for liking a dumb movie, or a shitty band. It's another thing to undermine a persons' core beliefs; to call into question the root of what, or how they believe things should be. We're talking about arguing over governing principles here. So instead of trying to toe the line of going too far, I just opt out. I choose not to engage in these discussions of politics, and I'll do my best to change the subject when I see the tempers flaring in others.
The problem here is this: I'm now apathetic. I've become as cynical as them. I haven't even been of voting age for two election cycles, and I just don't care enough to think about the process. I don't know the candidates, I don't know the issues, and I end up avoiding what information comes my way naturally. Why would I want to be involved in something that breeds such negative energy; such contempt for your friends and colleages?
So, fast forward a bit: I want to vote for Barak Obama. I want to be involved in the process for the first time, and I can't explain why in any certain terms. I feel like I need to tell people about it, but I'm still cautious of that fine line in political discourse. But at the same time I want to see people let go of the apathy, and the cynicism that we all see as normal. I don't want to argue anymore, I want to agree.
It's been said that we're just 'falling for it'; that we're just members of this 'celebrity cult'. I keep being told that he has no substance, and that "Hope or Change don't make a good road map." I don't want to believe that.
Here's a quote from a good friend of mine on the very subject. It encompasses how I feel so perfectly, and he words himself better than I can.
Barak: You see, the challenges we face will not be solved with one meeting in one night. It will not be resolved on even a Super Duper Tuesday. Change will not come if we wait for some other person or if we wait for some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.
I think it's an incredible line. I read way too much about the election and could probably bore you with policy arguments and votes each candidate has taken and so forth. In that "pick your candidate" quiz at the start of this thread Obama was like 90% of my ideal. I very much know what I'm getting into, and I'm not generally moved by empty emotional appeals, but when I was watching that speech, that line in particular made me say "Holy shit, that's a brilliant line" and others I spoke to who watched the speech had the same reaction. It's empowering and incisive -- it's all too easy to wait for someone else (like Obama, even) to come along and fix our problems, but that abdicates a portion of our own will and potential.
He has well-formed policy proposals, a health-care plan that the Wall Street Journal has deemed superior to Clinton's (as has Robert Reich, Bill Clinton's Secretary of Labor), an economic stimulus plan that media and experts have praised, a consistent record of opposing Bush's Middle East foreign policy (e.g. opposing the Kyl-Lieberman authorization of force in Iran, which Clinton voted FOR, despite her admission that she didn't realize in voting for the Iraq resolution at the time that Bush would misuse that delegation of authority), etc. He has plenty of substance.
But for all the talk about how "inspiration" and "hope" and "change" are vacuous, they are a valid end in and of themselves. There are millions of disaffected cynics who have given up on our political system, and as much as selling himself as a candidate, Obama is selling the idea that mass concerted action can change that -- that people who feel left out by politics as they stand today do have a voice if they choose to use it. The way you effect real change in Washington is with a sweeping popular mandate. GWB claimed he had one in 2000 and everyone laughed. He was lucky to even be in the White House at all. Reagan in 1984, however, had a real mandate. That was a crushing victory, and it enabled him to push his tax cuts and budgets and so forth through a heavily Democratic Congress, because politicians were loath to go against the tide.
If Clinton is the nominee, and Clinton wins the presidency, she isn't going to win 35 states. She isn't going to win 58% of the popular vote. She'll win Ohio and a couple of other states, and come in with a weak majority. She sure as hell isn't going to get her mandate-based health care plan through Congress, and Senate filibusters and opposition from Blue-Dog Democrats within her party will tie her hands on a number of policy initiatives. That's where a 50%+1 approach gets you. Obama recognizes an opportunity for a real paradigm shift instead of another round of "ok, now it's the Democrats' turn to screw things up," and the foundation for that change lies in reaching out to ordinary citizens and inspiring them to believe that Washington politics need not be mired in the same endless cycle.
That's not a cult of personality -- the whole point is that it's not about Obama, but rather about all of us, as citizens -- and I think anyone who dismisses it as vacuous is falling victim to cynicism: perhaps it's all a "fairy tale," to borrow a phrase, perhaps it's youthful nonsense to imagine that moneyed interests and entrenched partisan divisions could ever be dislodged, perhaps it's all a quixotic endeavor. Can millions of ordinary citizens crying out in unison really change our political system? That's what "yes we can" is all about -- let's find out.
Daniel Quinn wrote that you don't change the world with programs and policies and legislation, you change the world by changing minds so that everyone wakes up one morning and says "today we do it different." So that's it. It really can be that simple, I think.
-Lum
Unfortunately, the site isn't very phone friendly. This took way too long to type.
Anyway, I've been fuckin' busy as hell. I work too much, and I have a tendancy to never really be at home during the afterhours. Any given night of the week there's something I want to/have to be at. Guess that's what I get for dating a performer. If any of you readers get a chance, come see the ladies perform. Sinner Saint Burlesque goes on every Thrusday night at the Noc Noc, right around 9. It's a fun show, and really, there's worse ways to spend a Thursday than seeing ladies disrobe to music.
So I guess I've been making use of my camera a lot lately, but I'm just too lazy/busy to actually edit and post some crap. So here's some random shots from the recent-ish past.

Sydni marking my territory. Her territory now, I guess.

Me and the Ms. We're fucking adorable.

The beginning of a long evening of puketastic fun. Sparks and Taco Time.

Proof that I'm still a little bit gay. A little.

She's so classy. I love her.

"How big?!"

I don't think this needs explaining.

The makeouts are over.

I love bowling this much.

Aaaaand this is basically what happens when you leave your camera somewhere overnight. Live and learn. There was lots of cock on the camera after this. And they call me gay.

I want to be that chair so bad.

The hottest gypsy I know.

If this doesn't make you want to come to the show, I don't know what will.
That's it until next moth, probably.

Generally making trouble.

And generally getting punished for it.

Relaxing with the ladies.

Who just can't seem to control themselves around me.

Busy, busy, busy. Last week of work at this gig, and I'm all in a fuss that I can't find another job. I'm set for a bit, so I really shouldn't bet all stressed, but it's still a frustration.
When I wrote earlier this month about being vulnerable, well, it paid off. I put myself out there, but I found out that someone else felt the same way, and that was a huge relief. And now I'm just plain happy. Happy isn't even a good word for it, I'm thrilled; ecstatic about this person. I can't control myself around her. It's intoxicating.
She's off to Korea this week, teaching Bellydance with a crew of others. Two weeks is a long time. I miss her.
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