ok, so not havin such a good day today, emotionally. environmentally, its been pretty decent. i've tried channeling my bad feelings into work and i've spent the day cleaning. i know, fun, right? not really, but its been a good outlet. i think the only thing that could have possibly made me feel better would have been goin a few rounds with a punching bag. sometimes a girl just needs to punch the shit outta something to feel better. hopefully, things start to look up, cuz i'm runnin out of things to clean. maybe a nap is in order. maybe i'll see if i can wake up on the right side of the bed this time. who knows?

Had a good day today. My mom really needed some family time, so I spent the day hangin out with her. I hate it when she feels all down and depressed, so anything i can do to keep that from happening, i'll do.
Got to see my man and his boys for a little bit today. Wish i could've spent more time with them than what i did, but again, i was needed elsewhere. I know i'll get to see them more tomorrow.
Trying to get a handle on how things work on here. Really tryin to get to know some members in the Ohio/Indiana area. I know, it takes time, so for now i have to be content to get my thoughts out there and see what happens.
Other than that, everything's goin pretty well for me.

So, I got some really good news about a job today. Hopefully i'll hear something else soon. If not, I'm lookin elsewhere and they'll have missed out on one helluva kickass employee. We'll see.
Found out that my ex still feels the need to lie to me, after all this time. I think its hilarious. I think its very funny that he can't see that I just wanted honesty from him. Things would have been so different between us if i'd just gotten the honesty that i wanted. But, NO!!!!!, don't be honest with me, keep lying and pushing me further and further away. Just wait and see what all the lying gets him in the end. Cuz it won't be me.
Went and talk to the doc bout my meds. Got the dosage lowered. I was not diggin the shaking hands and arms. That was not cool at all. So, we're gonna see how the lowered dosage works out. If this doesn't work, I guess we're gonna try something else. YAY!!! Nothing like bein a doctor's guinea pig. Gotta love it.
Well, that's all for today.

Ok, so i'm beginning to think that i must be super irritable lately. Everything everyone does has been getting on my nerves lately. Well, maybe not everyone, but those closest to me r workin my last nerve, and i don't know why. I want it to stop so that i can stop getting upset at every little thing that someone does. Anyone out there have any suggestions as to how i might be able to stop this. I don't want to come off as a raving bitch when people r just tryin to do nice things for me, but how do i get it across that i can do things for myself?

I had two appts today. Got those out of the way and taken care of. I hate when the talks get me all emotional. But, i guess that's what therapy is all about, right? Who really knows. Hopefully this damn medicine takes care of some of these issues and quits creating others. But, if that happened, what would i have to complain about. LOL!

So, i just had a talk with my man about some important issues. It went better than i thought it would, so i'm happy about that. Had to talk to him about the fact that i don't need to be handled with kid gloves. I'm a strong, independent woman and if i need something, i'll ask for it, instead of needing to be asked every 5 min. if everything's ok. He took it pretty well. Hopefully this gets better and i don't have to bring it up again. We shall see. Other than that, my first day as a member went pretty well. I've already met a few people, so that's a plus. Hopefully tomorrow, i'll get to meet even more.

Hi, I'm new to this. I want to see what the site has to offer and hopefully gain some very lasting friendships from here.