To start at the beginning, and I won't go into too much detail or else this would take all day, I moved out of my parents home when I was 18 years old...here I am, age 27 with a daughter and a fiance.
With all the things that seem to be crumbling around us, the only solution to some of our problems will be to ask for help. Now I don't know about you, but I've been on my own for the past 9 years and I HATE the thought of this.
I'm facing thoughts that are just eating away at me. Like, WOW...I can't believe we look this irresponsible. Now, you all may not know...but my fiance and I are not irresponsible, we just live as best we can off the little money we do make. No health insurance, hardly any savings and one car between the two of us.
So with that in mind...here we are with a major law suit against an organization (will keep them anonymous) for my fiance's health issues (injury). While we will eventually re-coop the money after the law suit is done, we're having to dish out tons of money that we don't have. *STRESS*
On top of that, if you've been following my blog, we've had MAJOR car issues...none of which would have been going on if it weren't the fault of a towing company. So, we're at our wits end with this issue too. We've taken the car back from the towing company who claims that the repairs have been made...however, in driving the car today, the car jerks when you first accelerate and the check engine light and anti-lock break lights are lit on my dashboard...so we've decided to take the car to a dealership and have it inspected and fixed and in turn, sue the towing company for the cost of the repairs...Only problem with that is...we're going to have to come out of pocket with our money first. *STRESS*
O..did I mention I'm getting married next month? Down in Florida, where I was going to DRIVE MY CAR TO GET THERE because flying is so expensive...Well don't know if we can do that anymore...So we may have to pay for flying to Florida, on top of paying for the wedding. *STRESS*
Or, how about I tell you that on Monday, my fiance was let go of his job due to the fact that he "missed too many days of work" because of his injury....yet the manager says that he didn't miss too many days and that the owner is crazy...
Sooooo NOW We're trying to pay for all of this on one income...all within less than 6 weeks!
*SSSTTTRRREEEESSSSS*
So anyway...the whole point in this (besides venting)...
We're at a point where I can see us having to ask for help from our parents...how awful do I feel that we can't seem to take care of our own responsibilities? It's embarrassing! Most importantly, it makes me feel like I can't take care of my own daughter.
The stress is making me sick 
And I am so ready for all of this to just be over 
Every day I try to find the lesson that I'm supposed to learn from all of this...but at this point it's hard enough to just have to deal with it, let alone try to find the positive side to it all.
NOV 16, 2011 11:25 AM
Aww...im so sorry things feel like there are crumbling around you...i know how it feels to ask for help....and u feel when ur at a certain age and have certain responsibilities u shouldn't ask for help...but at one point in everyones life..we ALL ask for help...and there are some ppl that dont have that option to ask...they have absolutely no one to fall back on or to ask for help...and its very great u do...and dont think u cant take care of ur own daughter....by asking for help u are taking care of her...u have to do whatever it takes to take care of urself and ur family...i hope everything works out...and please dont feel embarrassed or ashamed or disappointed in urself...life... is a total bitch....and sometimes we need to flip her off and hold or heads up high and do what we need to do 
...so take care...and please feel better!!!!! 
NOV 16, 2011 11:34 AM
as long as you send kisses my way I'll feel better. I appreciate all your support, you guys truly are amazing! 
NOV 16, 2011 11:39 AM
aww ur a sweetheart!!!
well damn girl if thats all u need i can totally do that!!!!!
Feel better cutie!!!!
NOV 16, 2011 12:20 PM
That's a lot of things on the go at one time. It would be hard to not tap out or hit rock bottom through it all and with all the unfortunate events that have occurred in such a short amount of time you are handling it quite well.
You haven't taken to substance abuse, or any other harmful distractions. You are thinking it through and trying to figure out the appropriate steps. You are not a failure because of things out of your control are falling apart, Shit happens. It sucks the big hairy balls and sometimes you hands will be completely tied.
It's teaching you to reach for help and be humble. Dosen't mean you can't pay them back when you get on your feet. And if they love you they will try to help no matter what hun.
True love in family and friendships are never a burden but a pleasure to offer assistance when able. It's nice to recieve but so much better to give.
Keep your chin up, focus on the light at the end of the tunnel and take every day as it's own. Baby steps if you need, try not to stress and never look at the fuckups around you as a failure on parenting. That's a whole new topic. Life is what you make it as hard as it may seem and you my dear are gonna have some fan freakintastic lemonade when you are done making it with all the lemons you have been given.
from me too!!! And giant virtual hugs!!! xoxo
NOV 16, 2011 01:04 PM
My issues aren't to your extent but I know how much it sucks to ask for help. I moved to GA with my bf to go back to school. I saved up a lot of money thinking we both would find a job but that never happened because the economy here is so bad. So I had to ask for help. it sucks so much but sometimes you just need to do it :/ I hope thing get better for you!
NOV 16, 2011 01:16 PM
I really appreciate that you guys...it's great to have sounding boards when things are just bouncing around in your head and eating at you. Obviously I have my fiance, but this is stressing him out too.
You guys all rock! MustangBeauty, Nuka, pink_cheeks thank you
NOV 16, 2011 02:22 PM
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TuttyFruity
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NOV 16, 2011 03:25 PM
dont make yourself feel bad about needing to ask for help.
everythign fucks up once in a while, im sure your parents would be moe than happy to help you out rather than know your struggleing.
its not that you cant take care of your own responsibilieis its jut that shit has all fgone wrong at once ehich you cant do aything about.
just do it, rather than making yourself sick and ill over it because that's what will happen if not already, do it ask them i think they would be alot mor eupset if they find out your struggleong and feel that you cant dask them, after all you still are htere little baby
xxxxx
NOV 16, 2011 05:53 PM
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NOV 17, 2011 07:25 AM
Thank you guys all so much for the advice and kind words. You guys are all so awesome!
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