Alot of times i wonder if i can really change.. will i always be stuck as the same person, someone who feels how i do and always feels everyone close to him are just out to get him.
I hope deep down i can change.. but theres always the strain i have on me.. It's always like looking at something through glass. Something that i want more than anything in the world, something i've always wanted and its this god damn fucking piece of glass i just can't get past. ITs right there i see it clearly.. its torture to me, it tears me up inside, and it drives me beyond so many limits of sanity.. I just have to hold out longer, not to mcuh longer but enough.. i just fear that i'm going to break soon and from that i'll lose it all over again.. i'll have to watch what i want walk out of my life.
I am in love, i know i am.. its just that at the same time it can hurt so much. Deep inside i hurt so much, i ache to feel her touch, to run my fingers through her hair. God just to know her scent, anything.. you see how crazy its made me.. I'm sure i sound like a psycho but this is hwo i feel. To hold her thats the most i could ever ask for.. even if its only a moment it would still be worth every second of it.
I hope deep down i can change.. but theres always the strain i have on me.. It's always like looking at something through glass. Something that i want more than anything in the world, something i've always wanted and its this god damn fucking piece of glass i just can't get past. ITs right there i see it clearly.. its torture to me, it tears me up inside, and it drives me beyond so many limits of sanity.. I just have to hold out longer, not to mcuh longer but enough.. i just fear that i'm going to break soon and from that i'll lose it all over again.. i'll have to watch what i want walk out of my life.
I am in love, i know i am.. its just that at the same time it can hurt so much. Deep inside i hurt so much, i ache to feel her touch, to run my fingers through her hair. God just to know her scent, anything.. you see how crazy its made me.. I'm sure i sound like a psycho but this is hwo i feel. To hold her thats the most i could ever ask for.. even if its only a moment it would still be worth every second of it.
