I was one of those unlucky people that when i got pregnant, i didn't bounce back, my stomache stretched out, Now my flabby tummy and stretch marks make me some kind of freak show, like i'm not a really person. It's fucked up because i worked my whole life to be a good person and make a positive impact on the world around me, and it's all wasted..no one notices because i'm not some hot girl. Fuck that! what's wrong with us that as a society we so willing to cut people out, make them less important if we aren't pretty enough or skinny enough. According to my doctor, i'm at the target "healthy weight" for my height, but in the mirror and to the people around me i'm a fat ass. Fuck our society and all the little minions of pop culture that define our culture. When is the fucking apocalypse going to get here already?
NOV 12, 2005 08:57 PM
NOV 12, 2005 09:07 PM
Ah, I see.
Deep breath. Take one.
You are feeling calm, very calm... yes, look at the shiny watch... 
I looked through your journal a little bit trying to see if there were any triggering event that you might have written about. As far as I can tell, you look better than fine. You certainly shouldn't be worrying about feeling fat.
Are people actually telling you that they think your belly looks funny, or is this something that you just think?
NOV 12, 2005 09:21 PM
alpo
Portland, OR
OLD SKOOL
NOV 13, 2005 12:34 AM
I think you're pretty and shouldn't listen to the dumbfucks who say otherwise. And you should be proud of yourself for being smart and doing well in a hard science despite the common sexism there. And for being a mother. But what do I know... I'm just some random jerk on the 'Net. 
NOV 13, 2005 07:37 AM
Thank you. It's always nice to know that someone's seen and liked a set. 
You shouldn't feel self-conscious about leaving comments. Models and photographers always love to know that someone's liked their work. SG really doesn't pay very much; a big part of why we do this is just to feel like we're creating art, and that maybe someone will see it and enjoy what we've done. So comments are always nice. It means we've done a good job.
NOV 13, 2005 07:55 AM
first of all, when i saw you last weekend at the b-day bash, i couldn't believe you were a mom, because your body looked awesome 
i think you're way hot, and quite frankly, i would like to get nekkid in the woods with you 
. what's even cooler other than your hotness, is that you are an awsome mom. i know we didn't talk much, but i was watching you with your little one, and i was confident that yet another little one would be made into a good citizen thanks to her really cool parents. i'm a quiet observer, but i thought i should let you know what i saw, and that i hope to get to talk with you more at the next sgnm event.
alpo
Portland, OR
OLD SKOOL
NOV 13, 2005 05:01 PM
Glad to help!
NOV 14, 2005 01:59 AM
Dude. Your picture looks way pretty, in my opinion. Go look at Hopey's pic folder. She has stretch marks (even has a close-up pic of them) and people are always telling her how hot her body and nudie pics are. Just remember - do you tell every attractive person that you meet "Hey, you're beautiful"? There are probably lots of people that think you're cute, they just don't say so. The girl I know that gets hit on the most, and I mean, she gets hit on absolutely constantly, is 60lbs overweight. I have another friend who works out all the time and has the most perfect, big breasts you've ever seen, and she never gets a second glance. I swear to God I'm not lying. Just do what makes you happy and surround yourself with people who make you feel good about yourself and you will totally get noticed for being the awesome chick you are.
Oh - ha. By the way, I thought your screen name was cool, so I stopped in to see your journal. Sorry for randomly ranting - I just really hate to see smart, cool chicks feeling bad about themselves, cause we deserve to be happy and feel hella good.
[Edited on Nov 14, 2005 2:00AM]
