One month later.. I'm still here! The surprise in that statement says more than the statement itself.. unfortunately. However the silver lining is that- in the past four weeks, I put pen to paper and did a whole lot of reflecting on what I'm doing and where I am. Priorities are now in order and actions have been taken to ensure success. I'm not a fan of letting myself down, never really was.
"Action without thought produces nothing of value, but thought without action produces nothing at all."

This is bad.. and getting worse..
My working hours keep coming up short and I'm beginning to feel the weight drag me down. Slowly sinking and getting deeper, blacker, and just sad. I can still feel tears underwater, I hope that's normal. One of the worst parts is, I cant start my climb back up until Ive hit bottom, however in this case.. the bottom is still unknown. That's terrifying. I can handle a lot of different situations but I wonder about that unknown.. What if I cant handle it? What if I cant manage myself? What's going to happen when I get there?
Fear..

I started a blog ages ago without any intent to keep it up to date or even use it at all. Years later I'm actually happy with my thoughts and theories and the fact that I've kept a type of running journal. I realized a little bit of talent and slowly refined a hobby, accidentally, with a few web pages of ME!. Now, I'm a little older, a lot wiser, and as I mentioned earlier, happy.
This is the first post in what I'm hoping will be the new forum for my inane rantings and thoughts. Fingers crossed this will work.