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Life is to much lately. trying to have fun and live a little but its so hard to do when money is so tight....

In other news.... I'm back at home. My friends are ending the lease early and I had no choice but to move back.

I'm looking for a new job or at least a second on.

I haven't been to the city in a while and I miss it soooo much.

I've been trying to stay out of trouble....lol which can be hard at times.

I've been thinking about maybe becoming an e.m.t. medic....but I'm not sure.

I joined a gym...I love it. I really do.

I've been painting more......a lot more.

I miss going to shows and seeing tons of people I haven't seen in

I miss everything i haven't seen or done in a while....

Just going to have to keep my head up. It will all get better soon.

okay soooo its been all to long and all to much to type.....

long story shot ....
i hate stress
and
I hate being confused
and
I dislike when guys can't be streight forward with feelings

I rear ended someone around 4 p.m. the other day. ........

I was breaking on the off ramp of I-57 at the Monee exit..... then it happend my tires were not griping the road and it was jsut after it rain and BAM! Right into a red Chevy Blazor.... My car is so much smaller then that..

My car looks horrible.



This is all extremely bad timeing...

On a better note... I'm going to be selling merch for Squared Off at the Murphy's Law show tonight at Brauerhouse....how am I getting there right.... either Im using my mother's car or my friends are driving. All that is still up in the air.

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Now shit has hit the fan.... Now I wont be going to the Squared Off show because of dumb friends. i have friends that came home from Texas and now that my car has taken a shit on my life they said they'd drive. Plus they said they would becasue I drove and paid for the show we went to..... Now they told me they'd need gas money from me.... Are you out your fuckin' mind!!!! I've been there for you all the time and now this.

I'm so tired of all was doing things for people because i care and I like to help my firends. That stuff isn't a big deal to me it's like second nature. I'm fuckin tired of being shat on! I'm always doing something good for everyone and thinkin someday, one day I'll see something from all the good deeds I've done and continue to do.... People can be disscusting at times.

I need to take new pictures....maybe I shall do that today....

Worked today...sucked like always. I only got 2 hours of sleep before work... my own fault after the show we went to a party to visit people I haven't seen I months(btw the show was awesome! I had a blast). Then the drive back out here...*sigh* so fuckin' long. Then we went out to eat at 2ish.

Now I'm in the process of dyeing Tabby's hair at her house. Which is always fun! Who knows what the rest of my night will consist of but it should be interesting I'm sure.

I'm in the mood for another random trip to the city. Something about it calms me down. It puts me in a much better mood. It opens my mind more and pushes all the bullshit away and makes it a lot easier to think clearly.

I really want to go now.....we'll see....anyone want to join me feel free to get a hold of me...

Knewly single again....
Things just went south and I'm just trying to get my head in the right place. Trying to get back to being me...

Tomorrow... going to see the Massacers. Can't wait! I haven't seen them play in forever! Should be awesome...if not amazing. Its apart of me putting my life together again.

Anyone else going to the show? let me know we can meet up there.

Things have been crazy since i've been on here.....idk where to start...

I'm really getting tired of people......

There is not a better way to put that.......

I'm tired of people breaking promises.
I'm tired of lies.
I'm tired of helpping others and seeing nothing good from it.
I'm tired of getting hurt.
I'm tired of caring for people who don't care about you or anyone else.
I'm tired of no one listening.
I'm tired of going that extra mile for no reason.
Most of all.....
I'm tired of crying....

Life has been tossing my ups and downs and tons of curve balls.

Things will be fine... and will work themselves out..... I hope.