okay soooo its been all to long and all to much to type.....

long story shot ....
i hate stress
and
I hate being confused
and
I dislike when guys can't be streight forward with feelings

I rear ended someone around 4 p.m. the other day. ........

I was breaking on the off ramp of I-57 at the Monee exit..... then it happend my tires were not griping the road and it was jsut after it rain and BAM! Right into a red Chevy Blazor.... My car is so much smaller then that..

My car looks horrible.



This is all extremely bad timeing...

On a better note... I'm going to be selling merch for Squared Off at the Murphy's Law show tonight at Brauerhouse....how am I getting there right.... either Im using my mother's car or my friends are driving. All that is still up in the air.

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Now shit has hit the fan.... Now I wont be going to the Squared Off show because of dumb friends. i have friends that came home from Texas and now that my car has taken a shit on my life they said they'd drive. Plus they said they would becasue I drove and paid for the show we went to..... Now they told me they'd need gas money from me.... Are you out your fuckin' mind!!!! I've been there for you all the time and now this.

I'm so tired of all was doing things for people because i care and I like to help my firends. That stuff isn't a big deal to me it's like second nature. I'm fuckin tired of being shat on! I'm always doing something good for everyone and thinkin someday, one day I'll see something from all the good deeds I've done and continue to do.... People can be disscusting at times.

I need to take new pictures....maybe I shall do that today....

Worked today...sucked like always. I only got 2 hours of sleep before work... my own fault after the show we went to a party to visit people I haven't seen I months(btw the show was awesome! I had a blast). Then the drive back out here...*sigh* so fuckin' long. Then we went out to eat at 2ish.

Now I'm in the process of dyeing Tabby's hair at her house. Which is always fun! Who knows what the rest of my night will consist of but it should be interesting I'm sure.

I'm in the mood for another random trip to the city. Something about it calms me down. It puts me in a much better mood. It opens my mind more and pushes all the bullshit away and makes it a lot easier to think clearly.

I really want to go now.....we'll see....anyone want to join me feel free to get a hold of me...

Knewly single again....
Things just went south and I'm just trying to get my head in the right place. Trying to get back to being me...

Tomorrow... going to see the Massacers. Can't wait! I haven't seen them play in forever! Should be awesome...if not amazing. Its apart of me putting my life together again.

Anyone else going to the show? let me know we can meet up there.

Things have been crazy since i've been on here.....idk where to start...

I'm really getting tired of people......

There is not a better way to put that.......

I'm tired of people breaking promises.
I'm tired of lies.
I'm tired of helpping others and seeing nothing good from it.
I'm tired of getting hurt.
I'm tired of caring for people who don't care about you or anyone else.
I'm tired of no one listening.
I'm tired of going that extra mile for no reason.
Most of all.....
I'm tired of crying....

Life has been tossing my ups and downs and tons of curve balls.

Things will be fine... and will work themselves out..... I hope.

Okay.... not a lot going on..

The past week I've been bringing my fiance to his work since his car is....in my words... "falling apart"

It's fun though because it gives us time to be together and talk and what not.

Other then that not a lot going on.... just work.

I've been having a stabbing pain in my ribs. It has been this way for 4 or more days. It sucks. Today was the worsed. I had that and a huge headache and I started to feel like I was getting warm and I was going to pass out. I'm feeling alittle better now so I don't know whats going on.