Hi everyone! 
Today is as sad as yesterday.... For once my bf took one day off but he began by letting us sleep until 3 pm... afterwards, as he decided not to go to work today i proposed him to go to my favorite place in the woods around here to eat some pic nic, drink some mojito and maybe sleep in the woods too... he just refused...
We chose the drinks together but finally he rather drank beer...
I tried to take profit of this only time we were just together to try to know more about him but it's just impossible... His only answers are not real answers, and I still don't know anything about him
I proposed him to play a game where I would ask him one question and then he would do the same, and he just replied "you don't think you"re a pain in the ass?"
OK, but I don't want to go out any longer with someone who doesn't want to know something about me and I can't ask him any question...
At the end, I gave up asking him questions and asked him if he wanted to make love with me in the woods... he actually said "no, but another day ok"...
I feel like I'm useless and stupid... It's just one more time I'm talking to a fucking walll...
I'm so disgusted... we just went home and now he told me he had to sleep... then sleep, I don't care, but soon I'll be gone to Turkey, and I won't tell you as you dont give a fucking shit about me anyway...
Life is so sad.. I miss my former friends, I miss my town and I miss my only great love...
Life is too hard... I just hate it...
I'm sorry to make you sad (maybe) but you're the only people who could get what I mean...
I hope I won't do as stupid things as I did yesterday...
Have a nice night everybody
Big big kisses!
Today is as sad as yesterday.... For once my bf took one day off but he began by letting us sleep until 3 pm... afterwards, as he decided not to go to work today i proposed him to go to my favorite place in the woods around here to eat some pic nic, drink some mojito and maybe sleep in the woods too... he just refused...
We chose the drinks together but finally he rather drank beer...
I tried to take profit of this only time we were just together to try to know more about him but it's just impossible... His only answers are not real answers, and I still don't know anything about him
I proposed him to play a game where I would ask him one question and then he would do the same, and he just replied "you don't think you"re a pain in the ass?" OK, but I don't want to go out any longer with someone who doesn't want to know something about me and I can't ask him any question...
At the end, I gave up asking him questions and asked him if he wanted to make love with me in the woods... he actually said "no, but another day ok"...
I feel like I'm useless and stupid... It's just one more time I'm talking to a fucking walll...
I'm so disgusted... we just went home and now he told me he had to sleep... then sleep, I don't care, but soon I'll be gone to Turkey, and I won't tell you as you dont give a fucking shit about me anyway...
Life is so sad.. I miss my former friends, I miss my town and I miss my only great love...
Life is too hard... I just hate it...
I'm sorry to make you sad (maybe) but you're the only people who could get what I mean...
I hope I won't do as stupid things as I did yesterday...
Have a nice night everybody
Big big kisses!
Hi guys!
Today is a sad day for me...
My mum treated me like shit, my boyfriend too...
Nobody can understand that i feel bad seing a woman bringing her 12 years old daughter in a coffee (my bf's coffee actually) when she cries to go back home and study for her exams... and not just once but everyday! Besides, she says tons of scary bad things in front of her, and tries to sleep with anyone, while his daughter is watching it... The poor girl is becoming hysteric, and I totally understand why...
Everyday I send dozens of motivation letters but I can't find a job despite I have a university degree.
I definitely hate this fucking world!!!
I cut myself again, this time so badly that I almost wakened my mum to bring me to the hospital, but thanks god it has stopped bleeding now.
I should better go to sleep, have a nice evening everyone!
Your pig
Today is a sad day for me...
My mum treated me like shit, my boyfriend too...
Nobody can understand that i feel bad seing a woman bringing her 12 years old daughter in a coffee (my bf's coffee actually) when she cries to go back home and study for her exams... and not just once but everyday! Besides, she says tons of scary bad things in front of her, and tries to sleep with anyone, while his daughter is watching it... The poor girl is becoming hysteric, and I totally understand why...
Everyday I send dozens of motivation letters but I can't find a job despite I have a university degree.
I definitely hate this fucking world!!!
I cut myself again, this time so badly that I almost wakened my mum to bring me to the hospital, but thanks god it has stopped bleeding now.
I should better go to sleep, have a nice evening everyone!
Your pig
Hi everyone! 
I just did something really wrong, but i'm kinda proud of it^^LOL
Actually my mum took my weed and refused to give it back to me, so i was rather angry, as here it took me months to find some^^ So i decided to try to find it and it took me less than one minute... Freaking easy!!! Next time i'll replace it by a note saying ":p" lolll She will be soo angry tomorrow^^LOL (and yeah i know it's bad but i'm a bad girl :confused
Today i went to the town to visit my friends the ducks, but unfortunately i fell on the guy i'm supposed to be going out with since saturday... but actually i'm not in love with him at all
Worse: i think i could be falling in love with the waiter of the wine bar, which is his friend... I'm in a pretty dirty shit, as usual! But it's not my fault, he shouldn't be playing with Farenheit: when someone wears this perfume my radar automatically gets crazy!
I think tomorrow i'll have to talk with the first guy... I hate to do that bur at first he told me he didn't want to go out with a girl seriously, and now he's speakin about marriage after just a kiss!!! When I was saying that people here were weird^^
I hope your week is going well and you're getting ready for the weekend!!!
See you
I just did something really wrong, but i'm kinda proud of it^^LOL
Actually my mum took my weed and refused to give it back to me, so i was rather angry, as here it took me months to find some^^ So i decided to try to find it and it took me less than one minute... Freaking easy!!!
Next time i'll replace it by a note saying ":p" lolll She will be soo angry tomorrow^^LOL (and yeah i know it's bad but i'm a bad girl :confusedToday i went to the town to visit my friends the ducks, but unfortunately i fell on the guy i'm supposed to be going out with since saturday... but actually i'm not in love with him at all
Worse: i think i could be falling in love with the waiter of the wine bar, which is his friend... I'm in a pretty dirty shit, as usual!
But it's not my fault, he shouldn't be playing with Farenheit: when someone wears this perfume my radar automatically gets crazy! I think tomorrow i'll have to talk with the first guy... I hate to do that bur at first he told me he didn't want to go out with a girl seriously, and now he's speakin about marriage after just a kiss!!! When I was saying that people here were weird^^
I hope your week is going well and you're getting ready for the weekend!!!
See you
Pierced and happy
I got my labret and my tragus pierced this afternoon, I'm sooo happy, I couldn't wait anymore to pierce something! So this time frustration made me get 2 at a time... 
My last piercing before these was a pyramidal 6 years ago. I already had a labret twice but didn't remember how painful it was... I was amazed by the pain even if it's really quick, and the tragus was even worse... but it was woth it anyway!
Right after that I came to my dad's home to get some help to use excel, I was sure he would say something like "you're really trying to screw yourself up" or "and you couldn't wait to avoid the jury getting an infractus?" or " it's a mutilation!" or "you will never get a serious job"... the kind of things he usually says, but instead of this he didn't even noticed both piercings! He must be blind... when I shaved my dreadlocks he just said after 10 minutes "did you change anything?" 
I really have a great dad!
When I finally came back home one hour ago (11 : 30 pm here) my dog had messed up the whole appartment to make me understand piercing is not a good reason to leave her alone... She opened the dustbag, and got everything out, ate the whole packet of bones, ate some popcorns and spread the rest around the livingroom, rearranged the sofa and shit a little bit on the floor to make things funnier...
She even ate 2 of my pants, the door was closed but she can open doors...
Despite these usual dog disasters, I had a freaking great day! And right now I'm listening to some good music, drinking a fresh ice-tea and smoking a joint... so everything is perfect!
And what's up with you guys?
Have a nice evening!
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DeathByOpus, here's my favourite french poem for you, I tried to translate it so you can understand
Mon Rêve familier
Je fais souvent ce rêve étrange et pénétrant
D'une femme inconnue, et que j'aime, et qui m'aime,
Et qui n'est, chaque fois, ni tout à fait la même
Ni tout à fait une autre, et m'aime et me comprend.
Car elle me comprend, et mon coeur transparent
Pour elle seule, hélas ! cesse d'être un problème
Pour elle seule, et les moiteurs de mon front blême,
Elle seule les sait rafraîchir, en pleurant.
Est-elle brune, blonde ou rousse ? --Je l'ignore.
Son nom ? Je me souviens qu'il est doux et sonore
Comme ceux des aimés que la Vie exila.
Son regard est pareil au regard des statues,
Et pour sa voix, lointaine, et calme, et grave, elle a
L'inflexion des voix chères qui se sont tues.
Paul VERLAINE, Poèmes saturniens
My familiar dream
I often make this strange and penetrating dream
Of this unknown woman, who I love and who loves me
And who's never totally the same nor totally different
And loves me and understands me
Cause she understands me, and my transparent heart
For her only is no longer a problem
For her only, and the sweatiness of my pale forehead
She's the only one to refresh it when she cries
Is she brown, blond or red? - I don't know
Her name? I remember it's sweet and resounding
Like that of the one that were banned by the life
Her sight is like that of the statues,
And for her voice, distant, and quiet, and deep
She has the singsong (?) of the dear voices that got silent
(I'm sorry my english really sucks...)
Hope you like it anyway!
I got my labret and my tragus pierced this afternoon, I'm sooo happy, I couldn't wait anymore to pierce something!
So this time frustration made me get 2 at a time... My last piercing before these was a pyramidal 6 years ago. I already had a labret twice but didn't remember how painful it was... I was amazed by the pain even if it's really quick, and the tragus was even worse... but it was woth it anyway!
Right after that I came to my dad's home to get some help to use excel, I was sure he would say something like "you're really trying to screw yourself up" or "and you couldn't wait to avoid the jury getting an infractus?" or " it's a mutilation!" or "you will never get a serious job"... the kind of things he usually says, but instead of this he didn't even noticed both piercings!
He must be blind... when I shaved my dreadlocks he just said after 10 minutes "did you change anything?" I really have a great dad!
When I finally came back home one hour ago (11 : 30 pm here) my dog had messed up the whole appartment to make me understand piercing is not a good reason to leave her alone...
She opened the dustbag, and got everything out, ate the whole packet of bones, ate some popcorns and spread the rest around the livingroom, rearranged the sofa and shit a little bit on the floor to make things funnier... She even ate 2 of my pants, the door was closed but she can open doors... Despite these usual dog disasters, I had a freaking great day! And right now I'm listening to some good music, drinking a fresh ice-tea and smoking a joint... so everything is perfect!
And what's up with you guys?
Have a nice evening!
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DeathByOpus, here's my favourite french poem for you, I tried to translate it so you can understand
Mon Rêve familier
Je fais souvent ce rêve étrange et pénétrant
D'une femme inconnue, et que j'aime, et qui m'aime,
Et qui n'est, chaque fois, ni tout à fait la même
Ni tout à fait une autre, et m'aime et me comprend.
Car elle me comprend, et mon coeur transparent
Pour elle seule, hélas ! cesse d'être un problème
Pour elle seule, et les moiteurs de mon front blême,
Elle seule les sait rafraîchir, en pleurant.
Est-elle brune, blonde ou rousse ? --Je l'ignore.
Son nom ? Je me souviens qu'il est doux et sonore
Comme ceux des aimés que la Vie exila.
Son regard est pareil au regard des statues,
Et pour sa voix, lointaine, et calme, et grave, elle a
L'inflexion des voix chères qui se sont tues.
Paul VERLAINE, Poèmes saturniens
My familiar dream
I often make this strange and penetrating dream
Of this unknown woman, who I love and who loves me
And who's never totally the same nor totally different
And loves me and understands me
Cause she understands me, and my transparent heart
For her only is no longer a problem
For her only, and the sweatiness of my pale forehead
She's the only one to refresh it when she cries
Is she brown, blond or red? - I don't know
Her name? I remember it's sweet and resounding
Like that of the one that were banned by the life
Her sight is like that of the statues,
And for her voice, distant, and quiet, and deep
She has the singsong (?) of the dear voices that got silent
(I'm sorry my english really sucks...)
Hope you like it anyway!
Anybody to rape round here?
Cause I really need to rape somebody RIGHT NOW, on this song:
I can't blame men who always say women are complicated, because when I was with my boyfriend for 7 years sex didn't interest me so much... I didn't think I was going to miss it (and believe me he was really good however ) ... but now it's just as if freedom was making me wild! And of course there's nobody to rape anymore...
I need love too, but I'm not sure I'm ready for this yet, and I always fall in love with people I'll never get so...
Anyway, if I can't have sex or love I'll have piercings!
I used to have a ring around my lip but took it out when I went out with my ex because it wasn't easy to kiss...
I really loved this piercing and I miss it, so as I'm gonna do it again tomorrow I think. And by the way I'll pierce my tragus too if it's not too expensive...
When looking for info, I found some nice piercings I had never seen before, made by the artist Indy from Ritual in Brussels. I show you, let me know what you think about them:
This one is a skin diver, nice but I don't know anybody who experienced this technic so I don't dare to try...
I love this one too, I saw an SG having it but don't know who anymore, sorry But I'm afraid it won't last because it's a surface piercing and badly placed too...
This one is the same as Abbiss' piercing, it's really beautiful on her!
But it's also a surface piercing and if I do a normal tragus I won't do this one.
Abbiss
This is another one I liked for years but I don't dare to do it because I think I won't like it on me:
But to tell you the story, at first I wanted to pierce my septum because I really love this piercing, but Maedusa told me she had to take it out because it was a pain in the ass...
So finally I decided to do the labret because I know I love it on me and it's not difficult to keep, and at the same time I'll do the tragus I wanted to do after the zombie day but I had to take an appointment.
I'll show you the result tomorrow!
Take care! Kisses!
Cause I really need to rape somebody RIGHT NOW
, on this song: I can't blame men who always say women are complicated, because when I was with my boyfriend for 7 years sex didn't interest me so much...
I didn't think I was going to miss it (and believe me he was really good however ) ... but now it's just as if freedom was making me wild! And of course there's nobody to rape anymore... I need love too, but I'm not sure I'm ready for this yet, and I always fall in love with people I'll never get so...
Anyway, if I can't have sex or love I'll have piercings!
I used to have a ring around my lip but took it out when I went out with my ex because it wasn't easy to kiss...
I really loved this piercing and I miss it, so as I'm gonna do it again tomorrow I think. And by the way I'll pierce my tragus too if it's not too expensive...
When looking for info, I found some nice piercings I had never seen before, made by the artist Indy from Ritual in Brussels. I show you, let me know what you think about them:
This one is a skin diver, nice but I don't know anybody who experienced this technic so I don't dare to try...
I love this one too, I saw an SG having it but don't know who anymore, sorry
But I'm afraid it won't last because it's a surface piercing and badly placed too...This one is the same as Abbiss' piercing, it's really beautiful on her!
But it's also a surface piercing and if I do a normal tragus I won't do this one. AbbissThis is another one I liked for years but I don't dare to do it because I think I won't like it on me:
But to tell you the story, at first I wanted to pierce my septum because I really love this piercing, but Maedusa told me she had to take it out because it was a pain in the ass...
So finally I decided to do the labret because I know I love it on me and it's not difficult to keep, and at the same time I'll do the tragus I wanted to do after the zombie day but I had to take an appointment.
I'll show you the result tomorrow!
Take care! Kisses!
