Hi everyone!

Today is as sad as yesterday.... For once my bf took one day off but he began by letting us sleep until 3 pm... afterwards, as he decided not to go to work today i proposed him to go to my favorite place in the woods around here to eat some pic nic, drink some mojito and maybe sleep in the woods too... he just refused...
We chose the drinks together but finally he rather drank beer...
I tried to take profit of this only time we were just together to try to know more about him but it's just impossible... His only answers are not real answers, and I still don't know anything about him I proposed him to play a game where I would ask him one question and then he would do the same, and he just replied "you don't think you"re a pain in the ass?"
OK, but I don't want to go out any longer with someone who doesn't want to know something about me and I can't ask him any question...
At the end, I gave up asking him questions and asked him if he wanted to make love with me in the woods... he actually said "no, but another day ok"...
I feel like I'm useless and stupid... It's just one more time I'm talking to a fucking walll...
I'm so disgusted... we just went home and now he told me he had to sleep... then sleep, I don't care, but soon I'll be gone to Turkey, and I won't tell you as you dont give a fucking shit about me anyway...
Life is so sad.. I miss my former friends, I miss my town and I miss my only great love...
Life is too hard... I just hate it...

I'm sorry to make you sad (maybe) but you're the only people who could get what I mean...
I hope I won't do as stupid things as I did yesterday...

Have a nice night everybody

Big big kisses!