So things with the girlfriend are done with once and for all, I think.

We kept arguing whilst I was in China playing with the band, and she broke up with me while I was there. I was hurt, but then also angry- the way I see it is that no one should ever make me second guess my choices and make me choose between who I love and what I love doing. After a while we started talking again though, about everything. About my arrival back to Sydney. About us. About our future. But that didn't last long.

I feel like I've always tried my best to make her happy. It wasn't always easy, and I'm not perfect- I fucked up on more than one occassion. It sucks that the ones you love the most are also the ones who are capable of hurting you the most. I'm in two minds about it. I feel remorseful for what has happened, Rachel meant everything to me. But she made me doubt myself. Not intentionally, I know, but I got tired of feeling like that, feeling like my best efforts weren't good enough, and that I wasn't good enough. I admit, there was more I could have done to keep her happy, but I did more than my fair share to maintain a healthy and happy relationship, and I guess if she doesn't think I'm good enough, it's just a matter of me finding someone who thinks I am.

But I'm still in love with her, and the heartache fucking sucks.

Mannnn, I seriously haven't been on here in fuckin' ages. I'm a member of the SG Fanpage on facebook, and I just received a link to a story in which Steve Adler (ex Gunners Drummer) speaks to SG, and well... I HAD to login to check that out!

Let's see... what's new, what's new... my mate Mick has asked me to come on board for an overseas coverband that he's put together. Free flights, free 4-5 star accommodation, meals and drinks inclusive, and pay, all for playing guitar 6 nights a week. How could I say no to that!? So if all goes according to plan, I should be heading of to China in December for an 8 month stint. Very, very cool.

Can't think of anything else worth mentioning. If I do think of something... I'll be back... eventually.

It's currently 8.50 am and I'm feeling really off colour.

A guitarist friend of mine has asked me to do some work on one of his guitars- he's prepping it for sale so I need to pull out the pickups he has in it and reload it with the stock ones. Cool part is he said I could have the pickups currently in it- they're handwired by a bloke called Mick Brierly. I'm not sure if he has much of a name for himself overseas but in Australia he's a relatively big deal amongst those who care for decent guitar tone.

Got my Gretsch Duo-Jet earlier this week. It's a 1990 model and it's basically new/old stock... it's been in storage and has never been played. It's definitely the best sounding Gretsch I own. Plus it's good to own a Gretsch with a rosewood fretboard... ebony fretboards don't really do it for me.

On another note, I'm seeing Ace Frehley tonight... I'm very, very excited.

This afternoon I received my very first bee sting. I was only just talking to a work colleague about how I'm 24 and yet to be stung. Guess I can cross it off the list now.

I was walking around barefoot in my backyard (never really a good idea in Australia- way too many deadly reptiles and insects around) and I felt something sharp pierce the bottom of my foot. I lifted it and found a bee to be hanging off it. It's all good now though, that fucker is long dead- guess I showed him who's boss.

Still, my main point is that I'm running out of firsts in my life. Maybe I'm due for some reliving. Maybe I should become a born-again virgin... see how that plays out.

On another note- I'm massively excited about my Gretsch DuoJet arriving in the mail. If not this week, than next week. I seriously cannot wait.

I'm currently trying to get something organised for Australia Day tomorrow, but no one is up for it.
For those of you unaware, Australia Day is pretty much the best day to be in Oz. It's basically the equivalent to 4th of July in the states, I think. I'm not sure of an England based comparison, but I feel you get the idea.

Normally I'm working on Australia Day but I'm fortunate enough this year to have the day off and I plan to make the most of it. Alas, none of my mates are much up for doing anything that involves them leaving their homes.

Very, very annoying, and at the same time, very, very discouraging.

Sometimes I wonder if it's worth keeping animals. More specifically, cats, and even more specifically, when they do shit like this to my guitar gear-

I'm currently at home looking after my old man. He's not feeling too good so it's up to me to phone doctors and buy medicine. I'm annoyed however with the fact that everytime something like this happens, my brother disappears. But after saying that, it's somewhat obvious to not only myself, but my mates and others too, that my Old Man clearly cares about him alot more than me.

So why the fuck would he (my Old Man) when he's (My Brother) never there!?

Why is it that only 15 year olds are attracted to me?

Over the past month I've had no less than 3 girls profess their love (do they even know what love is at that age!?) to me. It irritates me. I can't pull women my own age, but when it comes to jailbait, I'm like that fucking black guy in that rap video clip (I'm not specifying any particular music video... rap music videos are all the same).

Fuckin' gets me down, man.

I finished building my Telecaster today. Fitted Bare Knuckle "Brown Sugar" pickups, and a Yngwie Malmsteen signature Strat neck. Adjusted the truss rod accordingly and lowered the saddles as much as I could. Got myself a sweet playing and sounding guitar for round about 450 $AUD