Well yet another woman hs screwed me over. And its the first and only girl I was ever with and I felt would always be there for me. Other girls doing it I can deal with, but someone as special to me as her doing it? That has completely broken me. Now contemplating whether its worth throwing away the year and a half straight edge achievement to just pass out tonight, its the only way I'll actually sleep. Might goto the doctors tomorow, think I mayhave broken some bones in my hand. And I thought I had got rid of this aggression, sees she was able to bring it back.

If he hurts her again, i will beat the living shit out of him, and that is no joke.
I cant help being caring, not to blow my own trumpet, its all ive got
Y'know people keep saying things like, 'aidens a fun guy, you gotta meet him', 'you're awesome dude', even have people asking how i get everyone to like me
It's funny how alone i actually am
Like the joke of the man who goes to see the psychiatrist, saying how depressed he is. doctor tells him to go see the great moloko, best clown in town, bound to make him laugh. and the patient is moloko
Sorry i'll stop with all the emo shizz now

So yeah, life sucks right now, lost the ony special girl I've ever had in my life and someone tried to kill themself because of me :/

Oh well, can't get much worse can it? Maybe I should just become a man slag

xxx

Hello all, I've been lazy on this recently. Probably for the best since I've had exams

Had my hair cut today, finally starting to get some length on it after it fell out so I've gone for a short, thick mohawk. Now to grow it into a beast haha

Can't wait for saturday, Big Brother audition really hope I do well, it would be soo awesome! Wish me luck!

Other than that not much has been happening, apart from the continuing job and house hunts. Hmmm.

Oh and supernatural season 3 arrived! I would so go gay for Dean Winchester! And I have also developed a man crush on Michael Buble, is this normal?

x

Well looks like I've hit my monthly breakdown :/ oh well its only a man-period, I'm sure I'll get over it. Promised myself I would do revision yesterday. I ended up watching season 2 of 'supernatural' and 'the incredibles'. I wish my life was like Sam and Dean Winchester's haha.

Today I had my exam, think I got the first 20 our of 75 questions wrong, it sucked hard. Oh well its done now. That's my weekend free now at least, probably go out at some point.

Watching clerks at the moment for the 100th time, fucking love it!

Other than that not much has been going on. Got in to find my living room reeking of weed because of my housemates. Not nice for the straight edge guy (me) :/ OH and my neighbour's house almost fell down the hill. Was stood outside watching with Shaheen from Britain's Got Talent. A very odd moment.

xx

HOORAY! I got a free £5 bet for joining the casino and ended up winning £50 on Blackjack, not bad methinks. Got dragged away from the table, probably for the best, to go see avatar for the 5th time (I know I'm sad) with my mate Chris. I could never get bored of that film, I want to live on Pandora and get my own Na'avi girlfriend

Anyways, today was more procrastination.I should probably start revising tomorrow. I have one day to learn about fungae, microalgae and bacteria. Not fun!

On the upside I have a shiny new webcam and microphone, all set for skype and sg chat

Off out to sin city tonight, letting my housemates do my hair and dress me up, I think they want to pimp me out. Hey, I'm not complaining

Well I went to see 'The Road' last night,gbrhujiiytrewdrfu687j9io8i7u6y5t4r3fwdc bh4y3h5243qefadsfgderhj6ikuy54tb gevcd bgrngyr4enbfgsvx xc bhdnhdgdgvcdsfergth4y5jun6ik7kol,mjynthbgv, just got keyboard attacked by my housemate, thanks Alice. Anyway, 'the road', yet another film that made me cry. So depressing, the little kid actor was amazing, one to look out for methinks. Despite making you lose faith in humanity a very good film.

So today I woke up earlier than usual, 11am haha. Decided to chat on here for a while and then went to town to get pierced. Either my nose or venom bites on my tongue. The piercer wasn't in so I'll go back tomorrow.

OMG my housemates are talking about periods and the pill, the one downside to living with 3 girls.

Well thats all really, job hunt is failing and still not making any new friends. I'm off to the casino tonight, so that should be fun

xx

HOLY BAJEEZUS! Blizzard or what?! Got caught in the snow half way between my house and the student village (a 4 mile Journey). Finally reached the student village, freezing to my core, and found that everyone I had come to see was out and wouldn't be home for half an hour so I had to wait in the snow! FML

Oh well, all inside and cosy now, chilling with the lovely Rebecca. I say 'chilling with', I'm actually just using her laptop while she irons. What the hell is this music she has on? Not a clue, not my kinda thing anyway.

Trying to think of things to do tonight. Rebecca and I are feeling a cinema trip if the weather permits us to get there. Toss up between 'Daybreakers' and 'The Road', I'll let you know how this one goes. Anyway, I'm off to throw snowballs at randomers

Well I'm back in not-so-sunny Swansea. I was greeted by my three lovely female house-mates with several rather nice birthday presents ^_^ I must say after the atrocity that was this Christmas holiday I am so happy to be back and away from home. I'm not quite sure what to do with myself though :/ I've already eaten my fair share of my lovely Birthday cake. Think I'm going to have to start job hunting tomorrow to try and fund another tattoo and keep a roof over my head haha.

Thank you so much to everyone who was there for me these holidays, especially Rhi and Davey.

Why can't I just find a nice girl to cuddle who isn't going to screw me over?

xx