Well yet another woman hs screwed me over. And its the first and only girl I was ever with and I felt would always be there for me. Other girls doing it I can deal with, but someone as special to me as her doing it? That has completely broken me. Now contemplating whether its worth throwing away the year and a half straight edge achievement to just pass out tonight, its the only way I'll actually sleep. Might goto the doctors tomorow, think I mayhave broken some bones in my hand. And I thought I had got rid of this aggression, sees she was able to bring it back.

If he hurts her again, i will beat the living shit out of him, and that is no joke.
I cant help being caring, not to blow my own trumpet, its all ive got
Y'know people keep saying things like, 'aidens a fun guy, you gotta meet him', 'you're awesome dude', even have people asking how i get everyone to like me
It's funny how alone i actually am
Like the joke of the man who goes to see the psychiatrist, saying how depressed he is. doctor tells him to go see the great moloko, best clown in town, bound to make him laugh. and the patient is moloko
Sorry i'll stop with all the emo shizz now

So yeah, life sucks right now, lost the ony special girl I've ever had in my life and someone tried to kill themself because of me :/

Oh well, can't get much worse can it? Maybe I should just become a man slag

xxx