This is my first time on a computer in days. For me at least that's pretty unusual, considering half of my work is based on computers. I started working at this really great record store in town and it's turned out to be so much fun. My many neurotic habits of correct spelling and alphabetizing and organizing CDs has found a perfect home. I now get paid to do much of the same shit that I loved doing in the first place. Plus I get to meet loads of great people all day long. Totally rules. But the hours are really long and I'm always so beat by the time I get home that I just sleep until it's time to work again. Oh, well. At least I'm having fun, and I go home with tons of new music every night.
Met Chloe for a brief spell today, I reckon she was searching for hardcore records. Nice girl. Also saw the Wilco movie tonight. So much better than I even imagined. If youre at all a fan, totally go see it. Apologies for this entry being so rambling and all over the place, it's been a long day and I'm too tired to make sense. I hope everyone has a lovely week! Take care of yourselves and get more rest than I have.
Cheers,
LM
Met Chloe for a brief spell today, I reckon she was searching for hardcore records. Nice girl. Also saw the Wilco movie tonight. So much better than I even imagined. If youre at all a fan, totally go see it. Apologies for this entry being so rambling and all over the place, it's been a long day and I'm too tired to make sense. I hope everyone has a lovely week! Take care of yourselves and get more rest than I have.
Cheers,
LM
Alright, here we go.
I am... tall, blue/green eyes, charming, sincere, insomniac, workaholic, musician, artist, self-motivated, self-employed, fiercely dedicated, eternally grateful for where I am, pretty smart, funny when you need to laugh, huggable when you need to cry, quiet when you need to scream, patient to the very end, avid collector of music, frequent live show fan, perfectionist, great speller, talker to anyone who will listen, listener to anyone who will talk.
I am into... playing surrogate father to my many children (aka the bands on the label), listening to music, playing music, making little gifts for people I love, traveling to distant states, traveling to distant countries, eating late night dinners, working until my body tells me no more, driving around aimlessly just to keep listening to music in my van, sitting on my front porch, drinking iced tea, going back to Kentucky to visit my family, meeting new people that inspire me.
Looking for someone who... truly loves others and loves themselves, has quirky little neuroses because I think theyre cutre and funny, committed to pursuing their dreams, knows they want me as much as I want them, self-motivated, passionate about life, charming, funny, generous, likes to travel, likes to play cards and scrabble on the front porch in the summer, likes warm blankets, loves music, loves life.
I am... tall, blue/green eyes, charming, sincere, insomniac, workaholic, musician, artist, self-motivated, self-employed, fiercely dedicated, eternally grateful for where I am, pretty smart, funny when you need to laugh, huggable when you need to cry, quiet when you need to scream, patient to the very end, avid collector of music, frequent live show fan, perfectionist, great speller, talker to anyone who will listen, listener to anyone who will talk.
I am into... playing surrogate father to my many children (aka the bands on the label), listening to music, playing music, making little gifts for people I love, traveling to distant states, traveling to distant countries, eating late night dinners, working until my body tells me no more, driving around aimlessly just to keep listening to music in my van, sitting on my front porch, drinking iced tea, going back to Kentucky to visit my family, meeting new people that inspire me.
Looking for someone who... truly loves others and loves themselves, has quirky little neuroses because I think theyre cutre and funny, committed to pursuing their dreams, knows they want me as much as I want them, self-motivated, passionate about life, charming, funny, generous, likes to travel, likes to play cards and scrabble on the front porch in the summer, likes warm blankets, loves music, loves life.
My heart could collapse at any minute, given the right push. My love for you is greater than your assumption of what my love for you could be. What seems so far away is in fact right next to you. Have a safe trip, dear.
Much love,
LM
Much love,
LM
Today has been the greatest day yet since I've lived in Portland. I moved into my beautiful new house and I got my computer set up so I'm back online and I don't have to pay $4 every day to sit in an internet cafe for an hour, even though they listen to some classic early 90s grunge in there all the time which almost made it worth it.
The best news of all might be that I got a new job at Jackpot Records! I'm super stoked as this will be my first full-time job in about five years. I started the record label about seven years ago and it's been my only source of income for the last few years, so it will be really nice to get back into the swing of working a proper job where I know how much I'm gonna bring home every week. Owning your own business is tons of fun and it definitely has its list of perks, but financial security is not always one of them. Plus working in a col record store means I can get loads of good music for cheap. My life is about to get so much better. I feel good. I'm gonna go get some juice. Who's coming with me? Hello? Is anybody out there? Is this thing on?
Have a great week!
LM
The best news of all might be that I got a new job at Jackpot Records! I'm super stoked as this will be my first full-time job in about five years. I started the record label about seven years ago and it's been my only source of income for the last few years, so it will be really nice to get back into the swing of working a proper job where I know how much I'm gonna bring home every week. Owning your own business is tons of fun and it definitely has its list of perks, but financial security is not always one of them. Plus working in a col record store means I can get loads of good music for cheap. My life is about to get so much better. I feel good. I'm gonna go get some juice. Who's coming with me? Hello? Is anybody out there? Is this thing on?
Have a great week!
LM
Crushes are so weird. Right now there's a girl on the other side of the country that just wants me to want her the way she wants me. But instead I'm 3,000 miles away feeling totally nervous and anxious about some other girl that I don't even know very well. Why do we never take the easiest paths to love? Why is it always so difficult to navigate?
There's a girl here that makes me feel so consumed by my own butterflies that I can't even be in her presence for more than a few minutes at a time. I haven't felt this way in years. I mean YEARS. Any abilities to maintain my confidence are so lost about five minutes into our conversations. It's so weird. I feel like I'm 17 again. What the fuck?!
It's times like this that I almost want to just get it over with and tell her how I feel so she can go ahead and feel too uncomfortable to hang out with me anymore and it can just be over and done with. Maybe that sounds a bit too self-destructive, but I totally get that feeling sometimes, like doing that would be so much better than thinking about her when I'm driving around town and wondering why I feel this way.
I've spent a year and a half totally avoiding relationships. I've removed myself from the notion completely and suddenly I move here and straight away I get all silly again. Fuck all. Good thing I'm moving into my new house in two days. I can just submerge myself in work again and wait for the butterflies to fly away. Ugh. Crushes are so weird.
Cheers,
LM
There's a girl here that makes me feel so consumed by my own butterflies that I can't even be in her presence for more than a few minutes at a time. I haven't felt this way in years. I mean YEARS. Any abilities to maintain my confidence are so lost about five minutes into our conversations. It's so weird. I feel like I'm 17 again. What the fuck?!
It's times like this that I almost want to just get it over with and tell her how I feel so she can go ahead and feel too uncomfortable to hang out with me anymore and it can just be over and done with. Maybe that sounds a bit too self-destructive, but I totally get that feeling sometimes, like doing that would be so much better than thinking about her when I'm driving around town and wondering why I feel this way.
I've spent a year and a half totally avoiding relationships. I've removed myself from the notion completely and suddenly I move here and straight away I get all silly again. Fuck all. Good thing I'm moving into my new house in two days. I can just submerge myself in work again and wait for the butterflies to fly away. Ugh. Crushes are so weird.
Cheers,
LM
The SG party ruled so hard. I met lots of really amazing people, and had a great time in spite of a growing migraine that finally crippled my good times rather early at about midnight. Allergies, mixed with pulsing strobe lights and really loud music and tons of cigarette smoke and loud drinkers just doesn't work well in my system. So I hope Andie forgives me for bailing without saying goodbye. I just couldn't find you once all the madness started! We'll hook up this week. I also want to give a shout out to Zona, who has repeatedly made my day better just by being in her presence. She has this intensely positive glow about her that is so infectious and I'm so thankful to have met her at this time in my life. Making the world a better place, one person at a time. That's Zona.
I'm only regretful that I didn't get to meet up with Al. Another time for sure. So many genuinely sweet people in this part of the country. You just have to weed through the ones that are in it for the right reasons. REAL PEOPLE. That's what we're looking for here. Bring it on. With that said, I'm gonna go eat. Really damn hungry and I owe my body a big favor after the shit I made it endure last night. Thank goodness I don't drink.
Hugs to you all,
LM
I'm only regretful that I didn't get to meet up with Al. Another time for sure. So many genuinely sweet people in this part of the country. You just have to weed through the ones that are in it for the right reasons. REAL PEOPLE. That's what we're looking for here. Bring it on. With that said, I'm gonna go eat. Really damn hungry and I owe my body a big favor after the shit I made it endure last night. Thank goodness I don't drink.
Hugs to you all,
LM
Someone recently asked me what I thought the difference between alone and lonely was. I guess this is the way I see it:
When you are alone you are your own best friend.
When you are lonely you are your only friend.
Right now I'm feeling pleasantly alone, but incredibly edgy because I am sick of sleeping on my friend's couch and I am sick of not being able to work and I am sick of having my whole life stuffed into the back of my van. My patience is wearing so terribly thin and I really hope I don't project it on other people. If I do, I'm so sorry! You know I love you.
See you at the party,
LM
When you are alone you are your own best friend.
When you are lonely you are your only friend.
Right now I'm feeling pleasantly alone, but incredibly edgy because I am sick of sleeping on my friend's couch and I am sick of not being able to work and I am sick of having my whole life stuffed into the back of my van. My patience is wearing so terribly thin and I really hope I don't project it on other people. If I do, I'm so sorry! You know I love you.
See you at the party,
LM
This internet cafe shit is getting pretty weak. I am so terribly anxious to get the new house and office set up. 14 days from today and counting. Can't come soon enough.
Today started out so totally raging with productivity and then around noon it took a nosedive into laziness and has been riding this gentle wave of nothingness ever sense. Where did I go wrong? I think I allotted all these tasks for my day and because I ended up getting them all done so quickly, I ran out of steam. But I have a new checking account, a new business license and a new trade name license for the state of Oregon, so I'm set! Now I just need to get some more money. Ugh.
Yesterday I ran into an old friend from Louisville that I hadn't seen in almost 8 years. He has really long hair now and wears a headband that he knitted himself. He was louder than I remembered, and way over-the-top, but he was so full of positive energy that it was impossible not to love him. I really want to hang out with him more but he's the kind of person you have to prepare for ahead of time to fully take him in.
When I look back on this entry, I am a bit bored by it's sheer lack of wit and positive motiviation, but I promise I'll be back to normal when I get my own computer set up again and I can hang out in my own room and chill with my thoughts for a while. In the meantime I am quite enjoying the beautiful weather here and the people are just downright lovely. Thanks to all the wonderful peeps I've met since I've been here that have helped make me love this place more and more every day.
Take care,
LM
Today started out so totally raging with productivity and then around noon it took a nosedive into laziness and has been riding this gentle wave of nothingness ever sense. Where did I go wrong? I think I allotted all these tasks for my day and because I ended up getting them all done so quickly, I ran out of steam. But I have a new checking account, a new business license and a new trade name license for the state of Oregon, so I'm set! Now I just need to get some more money. Ugh.
Yesterday I ran into an old friend from Louisville that I hadn't seen in almost 8 years. He has really long hair now and wears a headband that he knitted himself. He was louder than I remembered, and way over-the-top, but he was so full of positive energy that it was impossible not to love him. I really want to hang out with him more but he's the kind of person you have to prepare for ahead of time to fully take him in.
When I look back on this entry, I am a bit bored by it's sheer lack of wit and positive motiviation, but I promise I'll be back to normal when I get my own computer set up again and I can hang out in my own room and chill with my thoughts for a while. In the meantime I am quite enjoying the beautiful weather here and the people are just downright lovely. Thanks to all the wonderful peeps I've met since I've been here that have helped make me love this place more and more every day.
Take care,
LM
