Crushes are so weird. Right now there's a girl on the other side of the country that just wants me to want her the way she wants me. But instead I'm 3,000 miles away feeling totally nervous and anxious about some other girl that I don't even know very well. Why do we never take the easiest paths to love? Why is it always so difficult to navigate?
There's a girl here that makes me feel so consumed by my own butterflies that I can't even be in her presence for more than a few minutes at a time. I haven't felt this way in years. I mean YEARS. Any abilities to maintain my confidence are so lost about five minutes into our conversations. It's so weird. I feel like I'm 17 again. What the fuck?!
It's times like this that I almost want to just get it over with and tell her how I feel so she can go ahead and feel too uncomfortable to hang out with me anymore and it can just be over and done with. Maybe that sounds a bit too self-destructive, but I totally get that feeling sometimes, like doing that would be so much better than thinking about her when I'm driving around town and wondering why I feel this way.
I've spent a year and a half totally avoiding relationships. I've removed myself from the notion completely and suddenly I move here and straight away I get all silly again. Fuck all. Good thing I'm moving into my new house in two days. I can just submerge myself in work again and wait for the butterflies to fly away. Ugh. Crushes are so weird.
Cheers,
LM
There's a girl here that makes me feel so consumed by my own butterflies that I can't even be in her presence for more than a few minutes at a time. I haven't felt this way in years. I mean YEARS. Any abilities to maintain my confidence are so lost about five minutes into our conversations. It's so weird. I feel like I'm 17 again. What the fuck?!
It's times like this that I almost want to just get it over with and tell her how I feel so she can go ahead and feel too uncomfortable to hang out with me anymore and it can just be over and done with. Maybe that sounds a bit too self-destructive, but I totally get that feeling sometimes, like doing that would be so much better than thinking about her when I'm driving around town and wondering why I feel this way.
I've spent a year and a half totally avoiding relationships. I've removed myself from the notion completely and suddenly I move here and straight away I get all silly again. Fuck all. Good thing I'm moving into my new house in two days. I can just submerge myself in work again and wait for the butterflies to fly away. Ugh. Crushes are so weird.
Cheers,
LM
