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Mmmm... I love it when I hear my steam raditator come on in the middle of the night. I suddenly feel even more cozy, safer in a way .
There is something about that sound, that just makes me feel at home.
There is something about that sound, that just makes me feel at home.
Things are so not okay on so many levels, and in so many ways I do not even know where to begin to unravel the knots to start to work it out.
I just want to curl up in the fetal position. I wish I could take tomorrow off - but I can't.
I wish I could move to Connecticut.
I just want to curl up in the fetal position. I wish I could take tomorrow off - but I can't.
I wish I could move to Connecticut.
I am spending the night at home.....and I am so happy!
Every once in a while you need to stay in and clean, watch TV, just take care of you! I love it!
Anti_duff's brother is in town, which means it is the boys weekend!
This also means I get a free weekend all for meeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!
Don't misunderstand that at all. I am an only child. I grew with metime all the time. It has always been a balancing act for me - relationships with people I truly love and then just LaceyK time.
Tonight I am watching Ghost Whisperer - my fave show, changing my wardrobe from my summer clothes to winter, and light, light cleaning.
Tomorrow I am going home! Back to my mom's. Shopping, dinner, family time. I am so excited! It will be fun. Then Sunday I come home and stop by my dad's but it will be nice to get a comfy at home break.
There is something about being home, you just recharge! I kinda wish I could go home more. I just feel so rejuvenated after that.
I really can't wait to get under my comforter and just enjoy the quiet tonight.
Every once in a while you need to stay in and clean, watch TV, just take care of you! I love it!
Anti_duff's brother is in town, which means it is the boys weekend!
This also means I get a free weekend all for meeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!
Don't misunderstand that at all. I am an only child. I grew with metime all the time. It has always been a balancing act for me - relationships with people I truly love and then just LaceyK time.
Tonight I am watching Ghost Whisperer - my fave show, changing my wardrobe from my summer clothes to winter, and light, light cleaning.
Tomorrow I am going home! Back to my mom's. Shopping, dinner, family time. I am so excited! It will be fun. Then Sunday I come home and stop by my dad's but it will be nice to get a comfy at home break.
There is something about being home, you just recharge! I kinda wish I could go home more. I just feel so rejuvenated after that.
I really can't wait to get under my comforter and just enjoy the quiet tonight.
Sorry, I decided to join the trend and get sick.
I haven't been awake past nine all week.
I just came home to now find a dead mouse on the middle of the floor. I know the exterminator guys put down poison. But for some reason it really, really bothered me. I can't even explain how, I just feel disturbed.
I am finally home, until at least December. I may have to go back out again then, but for now I am relishing in being home and of course all the airline miles, hotel points, and cash back from the credit card I racked up. It is insane the amount of credit anti_duff and I have now for travel.
I have been ridiculously anti-social lately. I feel like I haven't seen my friends in so long. I had hoped to have met up with people this week, but sickness won the battle of that war.
Enough babbling....something is on my mind. Something I can't figure out myself.
It is the age old question of children.
As I continue to find friends on Facebook, they are all having babies. My friends from college just had their babies. Yet my biological clock is not ticking at all.
And to be honest I don't 100% know that I want to have a child. I feel like I should, and i know that is the wrong reason to want one. But I do feel as though it is unfair to deprieve my mom of grandchildren. And strangely, I want to be a grandma, but not so sure of being a mother.
My mom also says that she would feel bad for me if I didn't understand how good it feels to have a child and the love that comes with it. I believer her, I believe that it opens up a part of your heart that nothing else can.
I also feel that maybe I feel this way because I am afraid to give up my life, which makes me selfish. This to me also seems to be a bad reason not to have kids.
So I feel in the middle - And that either way there are not good reasons for making a decision either way. I don't want to have a child just because that is what you do. But I also don't want to not have one because I can't grow up.
And I feel like I need to decide. I am 31, and I worry if I can't figure this out that I will start to be in the high risk segment.
I have had fantasies of being madly in love and being in bed and him rubbing my pregnant belly. But mainly I don't want to be pregnant. I dont' want something in me.
I feel like there is something wrong with me. That everyone else knows they want kids they are having them, they are super happy. But I just don't get it. I don't get why they are so happy, or why they think they are cute, or that stuff. I feel like I should, but I just don't.
I feel as though I have these two different pressures
I haven't been awake past nine all week.
I just came home to now find a dead mouse on the middle of the floor. I know the exterminator guys put down poison. But for some reason it really, really bothered me. I can't even explain how, I just feel disturbed.
I am finally home, until at least December. I may have to go back out again then, but for now I am relishing in being home and of course all the airline miles, hotel points, and cash back from the credit card I racked up. It is insane the amount of credit anti_duff and I have now for travel.
I have been ridiculously anti-social lately. I feel like I haven't seen my friends in so long. I had hoped to have met up with people this week, but sickness won the battle of that war.
Enough babbling....something is on my mind. Something I can't figure out myself.
It is the age old question of children.
As I continue to find friends on Facebook, they are all having babies. My friends from college just had their babies. Yet my biological clock is not ticking at all.
And to be honest I don't 100% know that I want to have a child. I feel like I should, and i know that is the wrong reason to want one. But I do feel as though it is unfair to deprieve my mom of grandchildren. And strangely, I want to be a grandma, but not so sure of being a mother.
My mom also says that she would feel bad for me if I didn't understand how good it feels to have a child and the love that comes with it. I believer her, I believe that it opens up a part of your heart that nothing else can.
I also feel that maybe I feel this way because I am afraid to give up my life, which makes me selfish. This to me also seems to be a bad reason not to have kids.
So I feel in the middle - And that either way there are not good reasons for making a decision either way. I don't want to have a child just because that is what you do. But I also don't want to not have one because I can't grow up.
And I feel like I need to decide. I am 31, and I worry if I can't figure this out that I will start to be in the high risk segment.
I have had fantasies of being madly in love and being in bed and him rubbing my pregnant belly. But mainly I don't want to be pregnant. I dont' want something in me.
I feel like there is something wrong with me. That everyone else knows they want kids they are having them, they are super happy. But I just don't get it. I don't get why they are so happy, or why they think they are cute, or that stuff. I feel like I should, but I just don't.
I feel as though I have these two different pressures
I am continously trying to simplify my life. I have way too much stuff. I own too much and I know i have to get rid of it. It makes no sense for one person to have a two bedroom apartment full of stuff.
However, today this became a bit easier to do.......it seems I have weevils.
Weevils you ask? Weevils are little bugs that like flour, sugar, pasta, cardboard, glue, they like eat that stuff, like simple carbs I guess you would put it.
I knew I had a few but when I stopped seeing them, after squashing so many, I thought they were gone.
I was dead wrong! They had simply moved out of plain sight and made their homes in all the non-can food in my pantry. Therefore, tons of food, anything not in a can, was disposed of. There is still way too much food here.
But I did get two large bags out of the house.
They have now been sprayed and there are little dead weevils everywhere. I need to wait a ew days to let them really die, and then maybe I can start to put things back in.
Could have been worse - could have been bed bugs.
However, today this became a bit easier to do.......it seems I have weevils.
Weevils you ask? Weevils are little bugs that like flour, sugar, pasta, cardboard, glue, they like eat that stuff, like simple carbs I guess you would put it.
I knew I had a few but when I stopped seeing them, after squashing so many, I thought they were gone.
I was dead wrong! They had simply moved out of plain sight and made their homes in all the non-can food in my pantry. Therefore, tons of food, anything not in a can, was disposed of. There is still way too much food here.
But I did get two large bags out of the house.
They have now been sprayed and there are little dead weevils everywhere. I need to wait a ew days to let them really die, and then maybe I can start to put things back in.
Could have been worse - could have been bed bugs.
Be forewarned - political blog ahead - which you all know I never do, but I do feel strongly about the economy bailout, and I am strongly against it.
If you feel the same way please visit the sites below and sign the petition.
And send one of the letters below or your own to your local legislature and Pres. Bush.
To find your local representatives click here.
http://sanders.senate.gov/petitions/?petition=Financial_Crisis_1
http://action.seiu.org/bailout/
http://www.nowallstreetbailout.com/view_all.php
http://stopthehousingbailout.com/
http://www.petitiononline.com/bailout/petition-sign.html
http://www.financialpetition.org/petition-nobail.shtml?ref=patrick.net
http://ga1.org/campaign/no_bailouts/step2
http://www.gopetition.com/online/22113.html
http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/nobailouts/
Letters:
As a taxpaying American, I demand an end to the public bailouts of government-sponsored enterprises and private institutions.
America's economic success is largely due to our free-market system, in which risk is a fundamental element. Some businesses succeed tremendously, some fail spectacularly. But they should do so on their own, not with the backing of millions of reluctant citizens' paychecks.
If troubled institutions seek relief, they should restructure their businesses the way millions of families have had to restructure their budgets, rather than bellying up to Congress' trough.
Bailouts that keep mismanaged organizations afloat delay natural corrections to unsound business practices. In the long run, bailouts do not "rescue" anyone because they stall the adoption of necessary reforms that would prevent future repeats of bad choices.
Enough is enough. No more bailouts. Not with my tax dollars.
Please do not support the efforts to bail out mortgage holders and mortgage lenders with my tax dollars. As a responsible citizen, I do not believe it is right for you to ask me to pay for other peoples' financial excesses, especially since a bailout encourages lenders to continue making predatory loans, with the assumption that taxpayers are on the hook. Further, we believe that the liability of the mortgage mess should NOT be shifted to GSE's Freddie and Fannie.
I appreciate the goal of helping people to have access to housing, but any proposed bailout will only reward lenders and borrowers who acted irresponsibly, and it will punish people who work hard and diligently manage their finances by not buying houses which they cannot afford.
The housing market has begun a process of correction. This is necessary in order to keep housing affordable in the long-term. Let the market correct so we can achieve stability again, and people are able to save and afford the house of their dreams over time. That really is the true American Dream.
Letter 2:
The administration's proposed bailout is a huge giveaway to the banking industry -- with only downside for the American taxpayer.
The country simply cannot afford to spend nearly $1 Trillion to bailout bankers and investment bankers who KNOWINGLY AND RECKLESSLY created and purchased risky securities.
Moreover, the proposed bailout gives unchecked powers to the Treasury Secretary to buy bad mortgage assets -- that is assets that are clearly worth less than the banks believe -- with no oversight by elected officials. This is like given a drunk driver the keys to the police car.
Finally, the bailout is fundamentally contradictory to our free market society. Are we really going to become socialists now? And are we really going to do so to help institutions that had all the information they needed to make financial decisions and STILL CHOSE THE riskiest path? This reward for poor decisionmaking will encourage more bad decisions by banks (and other institutions, e.g., insurance companies)-- and lead to yet another bailout. Why would they improve their behavior when the government will just bail them out?
Put simply, this bailout runs counter to everything this great country is supposed to stand for and our citizens are supposed to believe in.
Please do not support this bailout! Rather, please filibuster any attempt to pass such an irresponsible and unfair piece of legislation. America is depending on you!
If you feel the same way please visit the sites below and sign the petition.
And send one of the letters below or your own to your local legislature and Pres. Bush.
To find your local representatives click here.
http://sanders.senate.gov/petitions/?petition=Financial_Crisis_1
http://action.seiu.org/bailout/
http://www.nowallstreetbailout.com/view_all.php
http://stopthehousingbailout.com/
http://www.petitiononline.com/bailout/petition-sign.html
http://www.financialpetition.org/petition-nobail.shtml?ref=patrick.net
http://ga1.org/campaign/no_bailouts/step2
http://www.gopetition.com/online/22113.html
http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/nobailouts/
Letters:
As a taxpaying American, I demand an end to the public bailouts of government-sponsored enterprises and private institutions.
America's economic success is largely due to our free-market system, in which risk is a fundamental element. Some businesses succeed tremendously, some fail spectacularly. But they should do so on their own, not with the backing of millions of reluctant citizens' paychecks.
If troubled institutions seek relief, they should restructure their businesses the way millions of families have had to restructure their budgets, rather than bellying up to Congress' trough.
Bailouts that keep mismanaged organizations afloat delay natural corrections to unsound business practices. In the long run, bailouts do not "rescue" anyone because they stall the adoption of necessary reforms that would prevent future repeats of bad choices.
Enough is enough. No more bailouts. Not with my tax dollars.
Please do not support the efforts to bail out mortgage holders and mortgage lenders with my tax dollars. As a responsible citizen, I do not believe it is right for you to ask me to pay for other peoples' financial excesses, especially since a bailout encourages lenders to continue making predatory loans, with the assumption that taxpayers are on the hook. Further, we believe that the liability of the mortgage mess should NOT be shifted to GSE's Freddie and Fannie.
I appreciate the goal of helping people to have access to housing, but any proposed bailout will only reward lenders and borrowers who acted irresponsibly, and it will punish people who work hard and diligently manage their finances by not buying houses which they cannot afford.
The housing market has begun a process of correction. This is necessary in order to keep housing affordable in the long-term. Let the market correct so we can achieve stability again, and people are able to save and afford the house of their dreams over time. That really is the true American Dream.
Letter 2:
The administration's proposed bailout is a huge giveaway to the banking industry -- with only downside for the American taxpayer.
The country simply cannot afford to spend nearly $1 Trillion to bailout bankers and investment bankers who KNOWINGLY AND RECKLESSLY created and purchased risky securities.
Moreover, the proposed bailout gives unchecked powers to the Treasury Secretary to buy bad mortgage assets -- that is assets that are clearly worth less than the banks believe -- with no oversight by elected officials. This is like given a drunk driver the keys to the police car.
Finally, the bailout is fundamentally contradictory to our free market society. Are we really going to become socialists now? And are we really going to do so to help institutions that had all the information they needed to make financial decisions and STILL CHOSE THE riskiest path? This reward for poor decisionmaking will encourage more bad decisions by banks (and other institutions, e.g., insurance companies)-- and lead to yet another bailout. Why would they improve their behavior when the government will just bail them out?
Put simply, this bailout runs counter to everything this great country is supposed to stand for and our citizens are supposed to believe in.
Please do not support this bailout! Rather, please filibuster any attempt to pass such an irresponsible and unfair piece of legislation. America is depending on you!
I am currently in Detroit.
I have learned something interesting. The economy is really hurting people here, more than in other parts of the country. It is really interesting, to see a true recession.
It is sad.
I totally completely burnt out.
I am definitely near break down - I just don't want to be on the road anymore.
I miss my home.
It is currently making me fairly depressed. I am tired and worn down and I think that is making me feel a bit undone. You know when you get down from other parts of your life and then you find it just continues to cross over. That is where I am.
Just sad. At least I kinda know why. But it sucks to be so emotional.
I can't wait to go home.
I have learned something interesting. The economy is really hurting people here, more than in other parts of the country. It is really interesting, to see a true recession.
It is sad.
I totally completely burnt out.
I am definitely near break down - I just don't want to be on the road anymore.
I miss my home.
It is currently making me fairly depressed. I am tired and worn down and I think that is making me feel a bit undone. You know when you get down from other parts of your life and then you find it just continues to cross over. That is where I am.
Just sad. At least I kinda know why. But it sucks to be so emotional.
I can't wait to go home.
So I need some feedback, so I will put my questions first:
1. How much do you drink a week?
2. What do you think is an excessive amount to drink in a week?
3. How much do you drink on the weekends?
Strange questions I am sure when out of context, I am just curious as to how people feel about it.
I am finally home.....for today. Tomorrow I head out to Detriot. Yup, this is my travel month.
However, I had a very interesting weekend! I learned a fabulous new boa dance from the infamous Michelle L'Amour and then some great new tassell twirling techniques from Indigo - creator of twirly girls.
It was so much fun! I loved the girls that I met in the class, and I think I will be going back! anti_duff also enjoyed the new boa dance as well! However, I don't think I will ever perform, just go and take classes and make friends, workout and learn some things for private times!
In addition to the Burlesque Festival this weekend, it was also craft beer week. Which meant we went on a great pub crawl through the East Village on Sunday. We found some new bars we had never visited before. The beer was good. And of course by the end were done! Bed by 10:30 for me.
It was too short, after not being home for so long. I was sad all day that it was over.
1. How much do you drink a week?
2. What do you think is an excessive amount to drink in a week?
3. How much do you drink on the weekends?
Strange questions I am sure when out of context, I am just curious as to how people feel about it.
I am finally home.....for today. Tomorrow I head out to Detriot. Yup, this is my travel month.
However, I had a very interesting weekend! I learned a fabulous new boa dance from the infamous Michelle L'Amour and then some great new tassell twirling techniques from Indigo - creator of twirly girls.
It was so much fun! I loved the girls that I met in the class, and I think I will be going back! anti_duff also enjoyed the new boa dance as well! However, I don't think I will ever perform, just go and take classes and make friends, workout and learn some things for private times!
In addition to the Burlesque Festival this weekend, it was also craft beer week. Which meant we went on a great pub crawl through the East Village on Sunday. We found some new bars we had never visited before. The beer was good. And of course by the end were done! Bed by 10:30 for me.
It was too short, after not being home for so long. I was sad all day that it was over.
Okay, pics later.
Home for one day.
Unpack, and repack.
No time for groceries or anything else.
Tomorrow - black tie event.
Then off to Chicago.
Sleep is for when you are dead.
Oh, and remind you to tell me how the devil (Eric to those of you who have known me from the beginning) managed to sneak back into my life when I get back.
Home for one day.
Unpack, and repack.
No time for groceries or anything else.
Tomorrow - black tie event.
Then off to Chicago.
Sleep is for when you are dead.
Oh, and remind you to tell me how the devil (Eric to those of you who have known me from the beginning) managed to sneak back into my life when I get back.
