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I am in that weird place. Where I get a bit stir crazy and want things to change. Want them to move forward or completely change or just do something.
This is all very self-destructive however. It normally happens when things are going fairly well in my life, as they are right now. It is more like I just can't be comfortable or something. That does that make sense?
I feel like I am trying to create drama in my own life, just to have something going on.
For instance, my job is fine. It isn't horrible, it isn't like as wonderful as winning the lottery and traveling for work, but I am good at it, I get paid well and the only bad thing I can say is that there is currently no free wine - which actually pisses me off so much, but again it is better than no raise or layoffs. Job is fine but I find myself wanting to leave. I get resentful when I am there, and basically feel bored.
Same for other aspects of my life.
As I have said so many times before, I jsut can't see where the hell I am going right now. Things are going well, but I can't really see the next steps. And I think that is part of the issue.
Anti_duff and I continue to have the distance issue, as well as the moving in together because of distance issue, so I am unsure of what the hell our next step is. It is so frustrating. I think he feels it too, and quite frankly I feel like it holds both of us back emotionally. Cause that next step has so much compromise and both of losing and gaining so much.
Work is fine, but I can't see the next step at the moment. Granted I should probably be happy to even have a job with this economy. So I feel like I am stuck.
In other news, I am kinda going to clean out my friends list, nothing major just people without photos and maybe who haven't been online for 6-12 months.
I also fell so bad at work today! On my way in, and i was late, I don't even know how I fell. I just did, and I tried to catch myself, but ended up on the ground and then my head slammed into the wall. It was so bad, adn I wanted to kinda just lay there or stand or soemthing but I was late so I tried to just get up adn walk in.
This is all very self-destructive however. It normally happens when things are going fairly well in my life, as they are right now. It is more like I just can't be comfortable or something. That does that make sense?
I feel like I am trying to create drama in my own life, just to have something going on.
For instance, my job is fine. It isn't horrible, it isn't like as wonderful as winning the lottery and traveling for work, but I am good at it, I get paid well and the only bad thing I can say is that there is currently no free wine - which actually pisses me off so much, but again it is better than no raise or layoffs. Job is fine but I find myself wanting to leave. I get resentful when I am there, and basically feel bored.
Same for other aspects of my life.
As I have said so many times before, I jsut can't see where the hell I am going right now. Things are going well, but I can't really see the next steps. And I think that is part of the issue.
Anti_duff and I continue to have the distance issue, as well as the moving in together because of distance issue, so I am unsure of what the hell our next step is. It is so frustrating. I think he feels it too, and quite frankly I feel like it holds both of us back emotionally. Cause that next step has so much compromise and both of losing and gaining so much.
Work is fine, but I can't see the next step at the moment. Granted I should probably be happy to even have a job with this economy. So I feel like I am stuck.
In other news, I am kinda going to clean out my friends list, nothing major just people without photos and maybe who haven't been online for 6-12 months.
I also fell so bad at work today! On my way in, and i was late, I don't even know how I fell. I just did, and I tried to catch myself, but ended up on the ground and then my head slammed into the wall. It was so bad, adn I wanted to kinda just lay there or stand or soemthing but I was late so I tried to just get up adn walk in.
