I am so upset.
I was so excited - I finally had an appointment with a psychiatrist. I was going to change my meds - perhaps lose some of the weight from old medicine, get my libido back, maybe feel more grounded. I was also going to get to talk to someone to keep working on myself.

I thought the appt was at 4:30.
It was at 4:00.
She refused to see me and the only next opening isn't until the 31st at another 4:00 appt.
Which means leaving work early again.

Sigh....

It is just sad because I thought I was going to get help. I think for a moment there was a shining light of hope.

I know it is still there. It is just that for some reason rejection by therapists are so painful. Maybe it is because you go to these people with hope, when you are the most vunerable looking for help? And so when they say no or put you off it feels harder.

However, I also think that perhaps this woman's hours are not going to work for me. I am thinking maybe go to her for the meds and someone else for therapy.

But I am upset.