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I got my first present today!!! The Poison CD from my wishlist!! Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeee!!!! What a wonderful surprise! I am starting to actually get a little bit more excited! So that is very good!

And I got this gift from my little cousin yesterday:

It is a pic of me in a pretty dress

So, we are nearing the end.........

Part III
Chapter 4
The infamous Eric
Ended 8 months ago
And he brought me down like the Titanic

I meet Eric in Chicago, when our company sent both of us out there for three weeks of training. We were put in a beautiful corporate house and had everything paid for. We started out as friends. And at one point cuddled all night together. The last night we finally consumated the relationship.

But, we were both out of bad relationships and not sure about what would happen. Plus, he felt as though since he was an ex-punkrocker I wouldn't understand him. There were things that bothered me, he was very judgemental about other people - their weight, their clothes, their hair. And I really am not judgmental at all.

We returned home - he to NJ, me to NY and had our first date...it went well, but we still decided to keep it casual. It was painful, because I was falling for him, but didn't have the balls to say I want a monogamous relationship.

We eventually became girlfriend and boyfriend. The sex was amazing and for the most part we had a really good time together. We had good communication and I trusted him. And it was because of this we were able to go to the Swing club with no problems after. As a matter of fact it just made our relationship even better!

He even convinced me to go on vacation with him to the Domincan Republic. My first out of the country vacation with a boyfriend. I was so nervous about it, but we had a great time, and I realized we could actually live together. Also, on the way down he got really sick and we got through that in a foreign country, and I got an ear infection while down there, so it was clear that we could support eachother.

We took lots of vacations, to Vermont and the Adirondacks...it was great! And we did lots of cooking together, and spent nights in watching movies and cuddling.

Did I mention the great sex?

Anyways, during the summer we went up to his parents house on the lake, we had been up there before, but this time they were there, I was going to meet the parents. It went very well. I actually spent time alone with both his mother and stepfather, with no problems. They both thought I took excellant care of him and told him that he woud be a fool to lose me.

His stepfather took us out on his boat the last day. He pointed out different houses on the way, and then we turned around and started back. We started other conversations about the future and I cuddled up to Eric - suddenly his stepfather turns around and starts screaming at us for not paying attention and telling me that I was a rude little girl, and ungrateful. Did I mention his stepfather was physically and verbally abusive to not only Eric, but his mother and two brothers?

The rest of the ride is him screaming and we finally get to the shore, and I am trying like hell to keep it together, but I hadn't been yelled at like that since I was like 9 and stepped out in traffic. As soon as Eric touched me I started to bawl. I was so upset, but didn't want his parents to see it and worked hard to get it together again. We rode back to the cabin in silence, and Eric then told me that we would be backing our things up and leaving immediately. Which we did.

Of course his father than chased after us, again calling me an ungrateful bitch. His mother said we should leave he was being an ass, I started to cry feeling that I had really let the parents down, and cried for the next two hours. It was so upsetting.

Eric wasn't very good at taking care of me during it, but I told my dad, and he helped a little. And then Eric started yelling at me like his dad did.....it was like it was permission or something. I knew he had been in anger management, but I thought he was better.

It was then he told me that the people on SG would never like me and that I wasn't pretty/unique/creative enough to be a SG. It was pretty crappy.

I still loved him and stayed with him, until the Crack whore -- Jen -- came along. She came in pretending to be his friend. My spidey senses went off immediately - again the ladies know what I mean, we can sense danger.

She had a boyfriend, but kept hitting on Eric under the guise of being drunk. Finally, one night they hooked up. I was crushed. Eric and I broke up but still had sex and talked every night. Yeah, I know not really broken up.

And then the next week, I couldn't get a hold of him all Friday, I felt it in the pit of my stomach and it was confirmed on Saturday that he had fucked her. It had sucked, but he had fucked her.

I cried and cried and cried. And then the "incident" happened, as most of you already know. I just broke down, I couldn't take it anymore. As most of you already know, he talked to me during it and just left me there until Monday. But then he finally came and got me some help on Monday. The fucker. I was so pissed about that!

I wish I could say that was the end, but he had me so entertwined, I don't know why..........what there was about him. He couldn't keep a job and always had to borrow money. But I was..........we started hanging out again, and sleeping together, which was so bad!

And then of course, he fucked her again, and then told me they were going to have an actual relationship. Another week after that he told me they were moving in together.
Oh, and let's not forget the lovely pregnancy scare we had in there. The first ever!

I was still heartbroken until Brian and Tom came along!
Then I got free!

I lost a lot in that relationship, my spirituality, self esteem, belief of my looks, thought of myself. But I am getting it back!