Anywho, on the dates. I've mentioned it quite a bit, but there's that dude(David) and I screwed him over before and he said "You don't talk about the future with someone and then go be with someone else" or something to that effect, and it really made me think. Well, we've been talking and stuff, but here recently he's been really distant. (Do I have any right to be surprised? Isn't that the way it goes? You decide to stop doing stuff for someone, and then they decide you're not worth their time. Either way, I tried to not let that get to me and I went on a couple of dates, and I don't know. It just made me feel...shitty. Like I was cheating or something. I hate always feeling like I owe people things. I don't know him or owe him anything, but I can't get over that feeling. Blub. I'm pathetic. And I don't want to feel this way anymore. I want to be happy with just me and who I am. Like, I'm not having too much trouble being alone in the world. (Like, single alone. Not real alone. I do have my friends and family.) I just want to feel...joyous. All the time. Or at least most. Fuck teenage angst. I wanna know how it all turns out.
Moving on from that...blub life. Just saying. Somebody be my sugar daddy, and take me travelling with you?
Haha. I'm fun, and worth it. I swear. 
So, here's some random ass photos. xD
Look at all of the pretty pictures of me.
Any thoughts? Yes, I'm fishing for compliments. Give them to me. 
JUL 30, 2012 07:40 PM
Very cute. And don't worry about all that stuff. Just take your time and do what feels right. The more you live and experience life the clearer things become. And you are always free to change your mind, you know. Hope you feel better soon! 
JUL 30, 2012 07:43 PM
JUL 30, 2012 08:42 PM
you do look cute and actually quite happy That smile is pure gold 
Totally agree with sandwave. I'd add that you don't owe anything to anybody when it comes to what makes you happy.
Also, I believe that I am a legitimate candidate to be a foreign friend Although Canada is not very exotic haha.
JUL 30, 2012 09:28 PM
Love your smile!
JUL 30, 2012 11:51 PM
JUL 31, 2012 07:23 AM
You look to be a happy healthy person with ambition, granted it is a small window I'm looking through. I have felt many of the emotions you describe and myself moved to a brand new state on a whim and it turned out to be the greatest decision of my life. Follow your heart but don't forget to use your head and everything will come together as it should. Nice to meet you and thanks for sharing that small window into yourself with all of us. It takes courage to open up.
JUL 31, 2012 09:42 AM
Well, thank you everyone. All of you have given me a great deal to think about. I intend to make moves towards the progress I'm looking for. I want to do something beautiful. I intend to start trying new things to see if I'm good at any of them.
