Only a couple more days until I'm back peoples!!! We get our internet on Monday! Woohoo!
Sticks and stones break out bones...
I strong urge EVERYONE to watch this. This is probably the most amazing thing I have heard with my ears in my adult life. Whether it be a song or a movie or a speech or a poem. THIS speaks to us all
poem
When you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it.
I strong urge EVERYONE to watch this. This is probably the most amazing thing I have heard with my ears in my adult life. Whether it be a song or a movie or a speech or a poem. THIS speaks to us all
poem
When you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it.
Screw you YouTube and your silly "copyright policies"!
So...as stated before...
As promised, my 2012: Year In Review
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So...as stated before...
As promised, my 2012: Year In Review
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Video montage of my year so far is almost done! I didn't forget! (ok, maybe I forgot for a week or two, shut up!)
Stay tuned!
Stay tuned!
Ok so seeing that a whole TWO people replied to my post on FB, I'll post it here instead...
I am going to be doing a video montage over the next few weeks of my life in 2012. PLEASE share with me memories you have of things we've done this year. My memory is shit. I actually need help with this and I don't want to miss anything that I loved doing.
Thanks!
I am going to be doing a video montage over the next few weeks of my life in 2012. PLEASE share with me memories you have of things we've done this year. My memory is shit. I actually need help with this and I don't want to miss anything that I loved doing.
Thanks!
Wow...so it's been a while since I did a proper update on here. Let's just say things have changed a LOT in the last 6 months...
So when I left Florida to visit peeps in L.A., things between my mother and I were slightly...odd. She and my step-father had asked me to "tone it down a bit with the makeup" because it made them uncomfortable or whatever. I got extremely offended and mad and hurt by this, so I ran. I ran as far away as I could because I couldn't handle the fact that my own mother didn't accept me for who I am. Since then things have changed a lot. Most things have gotten better by landslides. A couple things have fallen apart. Such is life. The main thing that I've realized throughout this last short journey I've taken though, is that things are really never as bad as you think they are. It's never as hard to just DO IT instead as just be terrified to do it and keep it bottled up inside of you hiding. People aren't as judgmental as you think they are. Sure, some are, but I'm talking about people as a whole (at least where I go). Sure, they sometimes stare and sometimes laugh and sometimes they even give you that "eww" face, but that's because they truly don't understand. They just plain don't get it. If they did, they wouldn't do those things because they would know how much of a struggle it is every damn day to wake up, shower, put makeup on my face, dress in nothing but girl's clothing (bra too...yeah, that happens now), and walk out my front door knowing that I'll be stared at and laughed at and talked about behind my back all day every day until I'm truly passable. If they knew that, they wouldn't do those things because they would know that, sure I understand why they do it, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't get to me after a while. Then I regroup myself and carry on my life the way I want to live it because I am stronger than they are whether I want to be or not. My life requires that of me and I oblige it.
Ok so that got off track a whole ton. I was doing an update, not standing on a soap box.
Anyway, so i went to L.A., stayed with the best people, had amazing adventures, laughed a lot, cried once (<3 Ish), and partied like a rockstar. I started looking for a job after deciding to stay there. I probably applied at 150 places (maybe more, who knows). The only place that called me for a real interview was a scam company that would have charged me for pretty much everything after the "interview" that I went to. So, I asked around to see who else might possibly know of places that were hiring and my good friend Jucarie and her man answered. They lived in Portland, OR and knew of a place that was hiring doing call center-type work. I was immediately interested and excited but hesitant about moving up there. They assured me that I could stay as long as I needed to and save up money, which put my mind at ease.
Life in Portland has been amazing. I have a wonderful job that I really do love and where I've made new friends. I'm actually not the only trans person there either (LOVE that but she's SO passable that I haven't worked up the nerve to talk to her yet)! My roommates are amazingly nice and I'm making it official by starting to pay them rent (so I can actually say "MY apartment" instead of "the place I'm staying at"...even though they've told me from the start that I can call it my own, still...). REALLY excited about that for some reason...lol. The future really does look brighter than the past and I couldn't be more eager for it to get here. I'm starting to actually make plans in my head of when I want to do things! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Well, that's all for now (damn this blog was longer than I was planning...hehehe) I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Sorry i haven't been in chat nearly as much recently, but I have been working crazy amounts the last few days and was getting used to working again before that. Talk to ya soon!
So when I left Florida to visit peeps in L.A., things between my mother and I were slightly...odd. She and my step-father had asked me to "tone it down a bit with the makeup" because it made them uncomfortable or whatever. I got extremely offended and mad and hurt by this, so I ran. I ran as far away as I could because I couldn't handle the fact that my own mother didn't accept me for who I am. Since then things have changed a lot. Most things have gotten better by landslides. A couple things have fallen apart. Such is life. The main thing that I've realized throughout this last short journey I've taken though, is that things are really never as bad as you think they are. It's never as hard to just DO IT instead as just be terrified to do it and keep it bottled up inside of you hiding. People aren't as judgmental as you think they are. Sure, some are, but I'm talking about people as a whole (at least where I go). Sure, they sometimes stare and sometimes laugh and sometimes they even give you that "eww" face, but that's because they truly don't understand. They just plain don't get it. If they did, they wouldn't do those things because they would know how much of a struggle it is every damn day to wake up, shower, put makeup on my face, dress in nothing but girl's clothing (bra too...yeah, that happens now), and walk out my front door knowing that I'll be stared at and laughed at and talked about behind my back all day every day until I'm truly passable. If they knew that, they wouldn't do those things because they would know that, sure I understand why they do it, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't get to me after a while. Then I regroup myself and carry on my life the way I want to live it because I am stronger than they are whether I want to be or not. My life requires that of me and I oblige it.
Ok so that got off track a whole ton. I was doing an update, not standing on a soap box.
Anyway, so i went to L.A., stayed with the best people, had amazing adventures, laughed a lot, cried once (<3 Ish), and partied like a rockstar. I started looking for a job after deciding to stay there. I probably applied at 150 places (maybe more, who knows). The only place that called me for a real interview was a scam company that would have charged me for pretty much everything after the "interview" that I went to. So, I asked around to see who else might possibly know of places that were hiring and my good friend Jucarie and her man answered. They lived in Portland, OR and knew of a place that was hiring doing call center-type work. I was immediately interested and excited but hesitant about moving up there. They assured me that I could stay as long as I needed to and save up money, which put my mind at ease.
Life in Portland has been amazing. I have a wonderful job that I really do love and where I've made new friends. I'm actually not the only trans person there either (LOVE that but she's SO passable that I haven't worked up the nerve to talk to her yet)! My roommates are amazingly nice and I'm making it official by starting to pay them rent (so I can actually say "MY apartment" instead of "the place I'm staying at"...even though they've told me from the start that I can call it my own, still...). REALLY excited about that for some reason...lol. The future really does look brighter than the past and I couldn't be more eager for it to get here. I'm starting to actually make plans in my head of when I want to do things! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Well, that's all for now (damn this blog was longer than I was planning...hehehe) I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Sorry i haven't been in chat nearly as much recently, but I have been working crazy amounts the last few days and was getting used to working again before that. Talk to ya soon!
