While I was sleeping my SG membership expired!!!! But before I could wake and panic, alphawolf renewed it for me.
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!



LOL....I was looking for an old picture...couldn't find it...but here's one of me at 16 in 1987!!!! Wow!

JohnRitchie thinks I look like Sue the cat woman from the Sex Pistol days...so I added this.

UPDATE!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!! THIS DAY IS JUST FUNKY!

First the cat peed all over my girls dresses...and I hate the smell of cat pee...so I am all grossed out.

Now my kid just cut her hair again!!! I really dont care what kinda hair style she has...but she is not supposed to cut her own hair! And she knows it. Now I feel like a bad mom because obviously I am doing something wrong that my kid keeps breaking the rules.

My b/f is being a dick. He voted and wont tell me who he voted for. And really he shouldn't, but I know he's a republican and most likely voted for Bush...and he has every right to believe what he wants, and I have every right to disagree with it. And now I cant stop thinking about it. It's his choice and breaking up with someone because of who they voted for is dumb...but he knows how important it is to me...am I being petty? He says I cant use our relationship to sway his vote...and I dont want to. But I also dont want to be with someone that thinks Bush is a great presidant.

I am so worn out from work..I did 2 redeyes back to back..and now I am all off kilter.

And I have to go back to work Monday for a freakin' week!!!!
I dont even have time to clean the house...and it is BAD!

URGH!!!!

I just want to go to bed and wake up to a clean house, a girl that listens and a boy that isn't an idiot!

Oh my GOD!!!!!!!

I just typed this really deep, really moving entry...all about life and love and kids and my deepest secrets...and then I accidentally hit the back page and it was all erased.

And I just cant re-type it...so now you will all just have to wonder.

Oh well.

That song "Suds in a Bucket" by Sara Evens set me off on my emotional rampage...well that and a phone call from an old friend.



So what are the last 4 songs you downloaded???
Mine:
1. Montgomery Gentry .....Hell Yeah
2. Flogging Molly..... Far away boys
BR549.... Little Romona's Gone Hillbilly Nuts (I have the CD...But I downloaded it anyway)
3. Dropkick Murphys...Do or Die
4. Andy Griggs...I wanna be your everything



So there ya have it.

Thanks for all the love and hugs in support.

I firmly believe that which does not kill us, makes us a stronger person...and all things happen for a reason.

xoxo
kiva

I took the lyrics off, because I never read other peoples posts when they are too long...and I almost always just skim the words to songs.

Ok...so if you look at my 2 entries for today, you can see it's been a rough day. happy damn birthday to me...if this is what 33 is like it sucks!!!

But, guess what....I just dont give a shit now.

My daughter is happy and healthy and loves me!!!

I got a six pack of bud light...on #3 now.

Got 2 pair of new dickies!!! God I love how new dickies feel...all stiff and well, um....any way

Got my new Ropers.

Got a full can of skoal.

I am sure bull ridin' will be on tonight.

eminem has a new video out MOSH!!!!

and so far I still have a job, a home and a guy that is willing to eat spam for a month to make sure my daughter can go to mcdonalds once a week.


and if I haven't scared him off yet, my boy from the past is making me smile every time I see an e-mail from him.

And I have all of you!!!!

Life really aint that bad.

back to hot chicks and sweet boys!!!

Rock and Roll Mutha Fuckas!!!!!!

oh my god!
My airline just filed bankruptcy and is selling off the Chicago part of our operation to Air Tran. Now the airline I work for is pretty ghetto, but Air Tran is really ghetto.

And the worst part is they will tell us over the next few days what is going to happen.

I may or may not have a job...and if I do...it may suck ass.

For more exciting news read my last post.

Thank you all for the birthday wishes!!!

I had dinner with my family and my b/f flew up for the night.
I got a brand new pair of Ropers and a lovely pink western shirt. An Elvis doll (I already have one, but this one is still in the box...and the one I have is naked because my girl plays with all of my dolls). I got a backpack that holds a 6 pack in a cooler, and a membership to the zoo, and a gift certificate to Target (my "happy" place), and then a fan sent me a lovely Devil PVC outfit and a mic so I can use Skype Which is so cool, it's like using the phone, but it's free.
And another fan sent me 3 cool books...2 on Gaisha and 1 on raising girls. And he also sent me two new toys.

So I guess all and all it was a good birthday!!

Now I have to get ready to go back to work tomorrow
YUCK!!!!!!
I just want to stay home and cook and clean and take care of my kid.
My airline is supposed to be filing banruptcy today and then being bought by America West.....I dont know if I'll still have a job, or who i'll work for or what. But I know I just took a 10% pay cut and it sucks!!!

Here is one of my favorite pictures





xoxo
kiva

I forgot to add that I am going to the dentsit today for the first time in like 4 years. If thats not bad enough, I chew...dip...use smokeless tabacka....so you know they are gonna have a lecture for me!!! URGH!!! wish me luck...and dont tell me to stop and it's filthy....have ya ever seen a hot chick take a dip...it's kinda sexy.

UPdate!!!
6 cavities and 1 root canal!!!! Oh my god!!!!!

Thank you all for the birthday wishes!!!

I had dinner with my family and my b/f flew up for the night.
I got a brand new pair of Ropers and a lovely pink western shirt. An Elvis doll (I already have one, but this one is still in the box...and the one I have is naked because my girl plays with all of my dolls). I got a backpack that holds a 6 pack in a cooler, and a membership to the zoo, and a gift certificate to Target (my "happy" place), and then a fan sent me a lovely Devil PVC outfit and a mic so I can use Skype Which is so cool, it's like using the phone, but it's free.
And another fan sent me 3 cool books...2 on Gaisha and 1 on raising girls. And he also sent me two new toys.

So I guess all and all it was a good birthday!!

Now I have to get ready to go back to work tomorrow
YUCK!!!!!!
I just want to stay home and cook and clean and take care of my kid.
My airline is supposed to be filing banruptcy today and then being bought by America West.....I dont know if I'll still have a job, or who i'll work for or what. But I know I just took a 10% pay cut and it sucks!!!

Here is one of my favorite pictures





xoxo
kiva

I forgot to add that I am going to the dentsit today for the first time in like 4 years. If thats not bad enough, I chew...dip...use smokeless tabacka....so you know they are gonna have a lecture for me!!! URGH!!! wish me luck...and dont tell me to stop and it's filthy....have ya ever seen a hot chick take a dip...it's kinda sexy.

So, being a freakin' ex porn star that just wont let her name die has actually gotten me a few things...but the biggest and most exciting right now...well besides all the lovely gifts, is an old friend (boyfriend) has popped up out of nowhere and now I am all giddy and excited to catch up with him.

I feel like the captain of the football team just winked at me!

Here is a picture of me from back when he and I used to know each other. This is 1986 or 87....not even old enough to buy cigarettes.




And this is 1989...I left town, got married to my first hubby and was just 18!


Hey Kiva Exposed has been updated!!!

I voted!!!
Did you???

In other news,
I have had a lot of requests for autographs from fans that knew me in the past, so I am having comp cards made...this is the picture I am using.

xoxo
Kiva

I voted!!!!!
Have you????