this has been one of the worst weeks i can remember. from thursday of last week to actually this friday [i know, that's slightly longer than a week] i have... been caught drinking, smoking pot, looking at porn, not to mention being fired or having another girl tell me she's not interested in me. oh, and a busted mp3 player, being embarased at work, wanting to kill myself with much more regularity....oh well, so what else is new? everything is shitty, so why would i expect things to be any better? ever?

oh, and here's the funniest thing. my doctor looked at my body mass index and said that i was 20 pounds heavier than what i thought i was, and that i could stand to lose 60 pounds. yes, 60. and losing 60 pounds won't even put me into the healthy range, i'd still be considered "obese", but that would put me right onto the cusp of good health.

why bother though? as beavis always said "you can't polish a turd."