Yes yes i know i've been rubbish at updating... and truthfully i dont have time for this one!
Exams are on the way and i've been trying to find somewhere to live for the past month!

Things that have happened:
New york was AWESOME! i've not had so much fun in.... forever. I met some people there who will be my friends for life and i'll never forget it. Possibly comming back.
Uni work is piling on, so much so that i can see past the paper!
Possibly found the most gorgeous apartment on earth (well maybe not, but for my budget anyway). Will send pictures as soon as its all confirmed.
As for the SG photo's ntohings happened I need to take some pickys and sooooooon, because theres nothing more i want then to get my boobies back on display!

Better update soon i promise but i need to dry my hair and get the revision going!

I'm in love.

Oh yes I am.
She was the first suicide girl I actually melted looking at. I saw her on my first day, and has been my favorite girl ever since. Funny enough I'm so awestruck by this girl, I've never even spoken to her.
Andresta. Go give her some love too, her new set just made my chest all a'flutter.
Weird I know, I realise that if i was a guy everyone would be like "creep", but truthfully just looking at this girl makes me silent. I've never crushed out on someone like this before...
*sigh*.

Well New York is almost upon me! I'm scared a little, it's my first time traveling alone. Though should be fun anyway. Does anyone know any good tattooists there? Hmmm?

So this week I have caught a sunburn and then a day later it snowed.

No no, im not lying.



Despite this, I'm looking forward to summer.
Started digging out CLOTHES! <3 This starry top is my fave right now. Will be beachin' it up ASAP.



Also as my student loan comes through in a week, I've decided after i pay off my holiday, I'm getting another tattoo Only problem is, which one?!

Eeny Meeny Miney Mo!

NYC: 9DAYSANDCOUNTING <3

Stolen from Akemi (as she managed to get shuch a pretty one after this), edited for me.

curvy alternative girl seeks hot, alternative, preferably tattooed guy under the age of 25 for passionate relationship

must have ;

decent sized cock
no past emotional issues*
nice friends
a love of partying
nymphomania*
money
good taste in music*
My love for all things geeky (star wars, glasses, terry pratchett, top gear)

Must not have;

a girlfriend*
a wandering eye
too much vanity
homophobia
a lack of trust!

Or hot alternative girl under 27 for one night fling with * credentials.

*sigh* one day my prince will come. and this time he'll trust me

Well i'm back in London and have been for a week now.
I hate it. I'd do a hell of alot to be back in Uni right now.
Being back home brings back all sorts of memories about how lovely the ex was, the places we went etc.
I can't go out as i have no ID (waiting for my passport to come back).
Which means i see less of my friends than i want.
So all im doing is sitting at home, alone, with him going through my head.

He keeps texting me too. I love it and hate it all at the same time. Makes me know he's still thinking of me and he still loves me but makes me want him back all the more.

One thing that keeps reminding me, more than anything else not to call back is not the trust funny enough (though thats big enough), but that he didn't fight for me. He just let me go and blocked me out. Rather than doing everything he could, he left me to make my decision and when i had decided, just went.
I know ita pathetic, but im the girl you run after when she storms out of your house, because all she wants is to be ran after and kissed and apologised to.

*sigh*.

Just when you think you're finally getting over it eh?

So I got my sexy new HOPEFULS TEE TODAY!








and then i was SO EXCITED, i decided to get naked.

Sorry about the mess people i couldn't be bothered to move it. And i love Terry Pratchett anyway.

Finally cheering up

this is how i've been getting over the boy.



And i won my universtiy election so now I'm part of my students union! yay!

bliss.

still not coping.

Dont feel like i can talk to anyone either. AH this is actually killing me.

i've never smoked/drank so much in all my life.

and it just feels like he doesn't care.

We have the ross and rachel complex. one of those annoying couples who you know will get it together in the end but it will take years, fucked up relationships and trauma till then.

What i wouldnt give for a duvet, a cup of tea and a cuddle from him right now.

So kiddies.

I'm single again. It's crap. No, no really.
I keep expecting a text or a call or a goodnight kiss or just anything really.

Men are dicks. You're madly in love for a year then out of the blue, from a bunch of bruises and late night drinking they deduce that you're cheating on them then proceed to go down all of your messages and then question you about it. Rather than just calling you or asking you out straight. All of that as well as being 400 miles away just didnt help.

So today, I went out a consoled myself the way that I do best. I brought pretty things!

I have these now :


and one of these in black:


and some makeup

I am one of natures born pickers.

I had a lump on my face (no not a spot. Tis a rare thing for me). This was then scrutanised in a mirror and picked untill red and bleeding. I couldn't help myself!!

Now i have a rather unattractive and large scab. Nice. It won't heal either as... you've guessed it, i keep picking at it. Now no amounts of foundation or concealer will remove its uglyness from my face. AND i have a ball to go to this weekend. *Sigh*

I'm running for raising and giving officer in my university. So i'e made the most rediculous poster ever. Loves it.


As for news, i am currently in negotiations with another Hopeful... There may be a double set going on soon... Only talking so far, but im really keen as shes HOT and no, im not disclosing names... Tis a secret

I want [members=diazarri] to come back to london. I want to get all naked and take hot photo's with him.