I want to sail on white-sailed ships from the grey havens...

Into the west, over the seas, and see the shining shores...

I used to smoke a pack-and-a-half of ful-flavored Camels a day.


This coming February, I'll have quit SIX-YEARS!
I did'nt want to quit...I was forced to for health reasons.


But every-once-in-a-while...'bout once a month(more often here lately)....




I JUST GOTTA HAVE A CIGAR!!!!
And nice Scotch on ice to go with it....

...life's simple pleasures!

AAHHHHHHHH!!

I've always been kinda antisocial for some reason. I'm not sure why. I'm a little shy at first, but once you get to know me, I open up real quick. Sometimes too much, HAHAHAHA.

I guess it's because I was the "Omega Wolf" as a youngster.

For those of you unfamiliar with the "Omega Wolf" theory, it's related to the "Alpha Wolf" and "Beta Wolf" social heirarchy amongst wolf packs in the wild. Whereas the "Alpha Wolf" is the topmost and most dominant wolf in the pack, the "Omega Wolf" is just the opposite, yet he/she still fulfills a role in the pack. The "Omega Wolf" is the one member of the pack that all of the others "pick on" and humiliate, thereby relieving most of the stress on the whole pack in hard times. The "Omega Wolf" is also the one member of the pack that any other member can beat down to highten their own importance. Still the "Omega Wolf" stays with the pack for survival and the need for social surroundings. Yet some "Omega Wolves" can't take the pressure and leave the pack and try to fend for themselves on their own. This is where the term "Lone Wolf" comes from.

Where was I? I hate it when I get to talking about something and then totally lose my place...oh yeah...

As a child I was always the "Omega Wolf", the butt of everyones jokes, the social outcast...even among the other so-called "outcasts". Those "outcasts" don't know what it's really like to be outcast, fuckin' posers...went off on a rant again, hehehehe.
I finally got to the point where I'd rather not be a part of the group, and be an outcast, than to put up with the ridicule any longer, and be the "Lone Wolf" (I hate to use that phrase as it has a "coolness" associated with it that I can't lay claim to).

Then came High School! Oy Vey!! Talk about social separation!

Now I was the outcast for several groups instead of just one. But it was also there that made freinds...for the first time in a long time. I did'nt make many...just a very few...other outcasts like myself.
I guess that's why I have'nt been very social here yet...I count freinds as something very precious...and I don't make them lightly. But once I do, I am very loyal.

Holy Shit! I did'nt mean to write an entry this long! Damn! LOL Anyone reading this must think I'm some sorta psycho! Oh well! Who gives a shit, right?
For the VERY FEW of you who have read this...I thank you. And for those of you who have read this entry in it's entirety, DAMN! YOU'RE PERSISTENT!! HAHAHAHAHA! And "Thank you" to the TWO ppl who actually left me comments: Fatality & Reptilia

Hmmm......I think I'll do something to make myself more interesting....a weekly game or something like that....must think on this.....

I woke up with a bad feeling this evening. (Yes, I sleep during the day 'cause I work third shift. But back to the subject at hand.)
You might say "I felt a great disturbance in the Force." It was'nt like I felt someone had died or anything, but more like...I dunno...something important, and bad, happened whilst I slept.
Maybe it's because of my out of town trip this morning. I've recently got in the market for a motorcycle, and since I live in such a small town, the selection here is limited. To make a long story short(er), I found that I may not have the finances to get one anytime soon.
I'm hoping that's all that feeling was...just simple disappointment over something I'd been wanting for a long time now.
Oh well! It's not like the world is gonna end or anything!


Unless... ...I really DID have a clairvoyant experience.....(insert dramatic music that goes *dum**dum**duuummm*)

I finally saw "Sin City" on DVD for the first time. I did'nt get a chance to catch it in the theater, and now I wish I had the chance to. THAT WAS ONE OF THE MOST FUCKING AWESOME MOVIES I'VE EVER SEEN!!!!!! I love how they made it seem like the orginal graphic novel. Now I'll have to read the comic, err...I mean graphic novel, and collect all the issues I can.
I really LOVE Marv!!! I feel like I can sorta connect with him, y'know...Big, Strong, Mean-Lookin' Fucker who ain't exactly einstein. Only He's a HELLUVA-LOT tougher and badder than I could ever hope to be!!! I'm way too much of a pussy-cat!! hehehe Oh, well. Shit happens.

AAAHHHHHH!!! Nothin' like a Turkey Ham & Cheese Omlete and a Beer for Breakfast! YUUMMMM!!!

This is from my comment to the Olivia's post on the boards yesterday. I think this says it all:

WHEN THE FUCK IS THIS TYPE OF SHIT GOING TO END!!! THIS IS SOME ABSOLUTE FACIST NAZI BULLSHIT!!! IS FUCKING BUSH GOING TO TURN THIS COUNTRY INTO SOME KIND OF POLICE STATE NEXT!?!?!?! THAT ASSHOLE MOTHER-FUCKER PROBABLY NAILS LITTLE BOYS ON THE SIDE, AND HE TAKES THIS AWAY!!! I'M ABOUT READY TO SAY "FUCK THIS COUNTRY!" AND MOVE TO EUROPE OR SOMETHING!!! This administration has some of the most FUCKED UP values!!! "Let's send our sons, husbands, and fathers over to another country to get killed for no good reason other than to boost our fragile egos!","Let's shoot the economy to HELL so that we can make as much money as we can, for ourselves and our 'buddies', before we finnish our last term in office!", "BUT, OH NO, we can't have that kind of thing on the internet!! NO, NO, NO!! Violence? Ok! Death? Ok! Greed? Sure! Beautiful Women posing nude in somewhat provacative positions through their CONSTITUTIONALLY GUARANTEED RIGHT to express themselves?? HELL NO!!! THAT MIGHT ACTUALLY GET OUR UNDERUSED, FLACCID PECKERS HARD!! WE DON'T WANT THAT!!!"
Please forgive the length of this, but I needed to vent, and I stand by what I've just written.

We really NEED to impeach this ENTIRE FUCKING ADMINISTRATION!!! To anyone reading this, you really need to check out Olivia's post.

C'mon! Jump in and get angry about this with all of us!!