hey SG land...I guess I haven't really been keeping up on here much...my apologies.

Things aren't going to well for me at the moment. I lost my job and if I can pay my rent next week I'll be pretty damn lucky. If I didn't have my boyfriend in my life right now I'd be completely fucked, he's putting a roof over my head and food in my lil' belly. *sigh*

I wish I was updating on a more positive note, but unfortunately that's the truth. I guess on a positive side I'm going home for Christmas. My aunt is paying my airfare so that I can surprise my mom for the holidays. She's going to flip out! I just have to figure out what I'm going to do with my little puppy dog. It's $175 each way for me to take him, but unfortunately that looks like my only option. How the fuck that's going to happen, I have no idea. I'm sure things will work out, and I'm really trying to stay positive, it's just a little difficult. I know I'll get a job, and I know it'll just take time, but I don't really have the time to wait. Hell, maybe one of my older sets will go live and I'll be able to pay for my doggie to fly with me? (haha yeah right...) But, miracles DO happen right?! Right. :-)




I really appreciate everyone who's sent me such nice messages and who have been keeping in touch with me. I do really love and miss you all!!!! Keep an eye out for me at Club Suicide events if you're in LA ;-)

so, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I don't think at this point in my life it makes sense for me to be concentrating on Suicidegirls. I am not "giving up" or whatever other selfish terms you want to come up with, it's just not something that I feel is right for me at this time. Who knows what the future holds, but for now I'm taking a break.

I'll still check in on things once in a while, because let's be honest, I've met some of the best people of my life on that website lol. I hope that some of you can forgive me for making this decision seemingly out of the blue. I know I had some things planned, and I really do apologize for messing them up. 

Anyways, you ladies keep on being sexy,and you guys keep on.....keeping on lol.

sorry I've been so distant lately.....I have been spending the majority of my time with an amazing new friend. We shall call him "Cujo"



so I went to the Hustler private sale yesterday at their headquarters in the Flynt building.....DEFINITELY got a STEAL on some merchandise. To put it lightly, I got $773.09 worth of clothes for $45. Including a jacket that was originally $109, a Halloween costume that was originally $130 and a bikini that was $180.

I'm a happy happy girl.


infact...this is the happiest I've been in a very VERY long time. Or maybe I should just say that I'm lucky....who knows. Either way I feel good about life, and not because of some Hustler sale.

So apparently at my old University a local church and it's followers took it upon themselves to start a protest in the main courtyard on campus today. They were protesting against gay people and gay rights. I wasn't there, but from what I have heard, it was an intensely unifying experience for most people on campus and people left their classes to rally in support of gay rights. The pro-gay supporters ended up outnumbering the protesters by about 100:1 (no lie)

I just wanted to share some of these pictures because I think that they are such powerful images.




























Fredonians....feel free to add to this in the comments or correct me if I'm mistaken on anything (I just heard about this through the facebook grapevine)

well today is the last day of September that means that my set for the September Angriest Set contest is about to be looked over by staff!!!! This is my FAVORITE set that I've ever done and it was specially shot for this contest!!!!!!

if you haven't looked at it yet PLEASE check it out. And, if you like it please feel free to leave it a lil 'sumethin-sumthin lol



CHECK OUT SMASH!

ooohhhhhhhhhhhh my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My puppy dog got a callback!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Princeton had an audition 2 weeks ago for one of the top pet talent agencies in Los Angeles. When we got there, I walked in the wrong door and ended up accidently chilling in the owner's office haha. I felt like the BIGGEST asshole ever...but why would they have an outside door that leads into the owner's office that is unlocked and have the company's name on it?

ANyways Princeton would NOT shut up. He kept barking and whining at the other dogs and I was truly embarrassed by his behavior. He was by far the worst behaved dog there. However, once the trainer finally got his attention he was great. He did all of his tricks and even showed that he could learn things quickly. He is so incredibly smart and I think they could tell. Anyways I thought he had bombed the audition because of his mouthy behavior and the fact that the trainer kept giving me kinda dirty looks.

I was BEYOND surprised when I got a call at work today from the agency saying that they want him to come back and they want to have a personal interview with me Must be they could tell that he really does have potential to be a good doggy!!!

I left a voicemail for the guy who contacted me and so now I just have to wait to hear back from them again (we were playing phone tag all day).

I'm soooo proud of my little Princey Prince. Seriously I'm suuuuccchhh a fuckin' stage mom right now. I want my baby to be a star because I know he has the looks and personality to steal the show. Not to mention, he can double for a miniature pinscher if need be due to his markings.



gahhhh I'm so happy hahaha




check out his cute lil headshots he submitted with his resume

aww yay I'm so glad I went to Club Suicide last night. I almost didn't go because I didn't want to go alone and not know anyone there. BUT to my surprise, as I was standing at a table the lovely miss Issue_ came up to me! I was so happy to know someone there haha.

I met some awesome people and I really hope to go to more SG events in the future!


here are some of the pretties that I met last night:
Issue_
Leandra
Katerina
Antigone
Breezey
Dexter
Xiolita
Jersey
Inga


and probably more whom I didn't get a chance to meet formally







oh and here are some pictures from clubsuicide.net

EEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! I HAVE A CHESTPIECE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



it looks marvelous! I'm so happy I went through with this



















still lots of work to do....but at least it's started!!!

well, I got my foot tattoos touched up tonight haha. I hadn't really planned on doing it, but the opportunity arose and I needed it done.

Tomorrow is the big day....I am FINALLY starting my chestpiece! To be honest I'm really scared. Having my feet touched up reminded me of how much it hurts haha and I'm so scared we're going to start this and I'm not gonna be able to handle it. I don't wanna be "that girl" that starts crying in the chair or anything. I wish I had someone to go with me and hold my hand, as ghey as that sounds.



soooo I think I might make an appearance at Club Suicide this weekend who else is going?? I really hope that at least SOMEONE I know will be there...I really don't want to be there chilling all by myself

guess who got her laptop baccckkk!!!


sooo stoked